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  • Another two months of magnetic implants [The Publisher’s Ring]

     

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    April Fools?
    Another two months of magnetic implants

     

    “Man could escape danger only by renouncing adventure, by abandoning that which has given to the human condition its unique character and genius among the rest of living things.”

    Rene Dubois

     

    Most years I publish an “April Fools” article here on BME (articles like Adding and Subtracting, Joshua, The Raelians, and Love at First Bite). This year I’d like to write about dealing with the aftermath of something arguably foolish instead. As you know, last year I had magnets implanted in my fingertips in order to allow me to sense electromagnetic fields. While I’ve been very happy with them on the sensation end of things, as I left off with the last article, it appeared that one of the magnets had started to break down after its silicone coating was damaged by opening a pickle jar wrong (please read that original article first if you have not already).


     

    Since that writing, as you can see above, the other side of my hand got similarly irritated (although no trauma that I know of occurred to initiate it as it had on the first problem) and started to blacken and become uncomfortable. I also started seeing photos of magnets taken from other people’s bodies which had significantly broken down — here is, I believe, what is happening:


     

    The magnet starts as a small gold-coated neodymium (rare earth) magnet encased in a thin bubble of silicone. These magnets are tiny (about a third the size of a grain of rice), so the coating is extremely fragile in parts. It doesn’t take much for it to become compromised, and with only a tiny gap (as seen in the middle picture), the body starts to break down the magnet, extracting the substances it can use and trying to encapsulate those that are toxic. Not long after (within weeks if not less), the magnet is almost completely broken down and becomes a loose powder of toxic elements surrounded by bits of silicone. At this point it has of course also lost its magnetism so it is no longer functional either.

    Because the effects of neodymium exposure of this type are relatively unknown, and in other circumstances the substance is known to be cytotoxic, mutagenic, and carcinogenic, and because it was somewhat painful, I believe it made sense to have them removed. I asked my friend Tom Brazda to do the extraction — he’s the only person I’d trust to do this (and I suspect there are few piercers who know him and his work that wouldn’t put him on a top five body piercers of all time list).

    On to the gory details. Be warned that these pictures are graphic.


     

    In the first picture we’re applying a topical anesthetic to my finger. The glove-cot contraption is on because the anesthetic needs to be applied without coming in contact with the air. In the second shot Tom is doing a final check of my finger and marking the location of the implants. While four implants had been originally installed, only two appeared to be there eight months later.


     

    My suspicion is that the set slowly migrated together. I believe this shifting has caused them to appear as two, and I also believe that it’s possible that this shifting, which would have caused the two units to vibrate against each other, may have accelerated the breakdown of the silicone.

    Oh, and at about this point I got a phone call from a friend urging us to consider aborting the removal… She’d had her doctor (a GP) remove hers, and he cut down toward it, reached in to grab it, and it just fell to pieces… He backed out and referred her to a plastic surgeon. So far she has kept it, and three months later her finger is very discolored (far more than mine was), and still quite sore. She did however mention that she found a clinical reference to neodymium — it is at times used in laboratory mice to extend their lifespans. Hmm… Maybe it’s not so toxic after all?

    Naw, better safe than sorry I think!


     

    Anyway, we began cutting a flap over the more recent and more irritated of the two magnets. Rather than just cutting down and spreading the skin and trying to pull it out, the plan was to make a cut that would let us just fold open the skin over the implant and remove it either by excision, scraping it off, or irrigating it out depending on the consistency. We couldn’t be sure what the specifics of the procedure would be until we actually got in there.


     

    The top half of one or two of the magnets pretty much just fell out (you can see one in the first picture), but we were left with a largely empty cyst-like shell made up of and surrounded by blackened tissue. There were some loose flakes and powder but most seemed to be a part of the spongy mass of scar tissue. Irrigating it didn’t move anything, and it was completely adhered to the flesh around it, so there was no way to grab it and pull it out. All we could do is cut all around it and remove it as a single piece.


     

    Some healthy tissue was removed, but the majority (if not all) of the toxic material from that side appears to be gone.

    Going into the second side (the older of the two compromised sides) we encountered a little different tissue. The implant also sat quite a bit deeper in the flesh; deep enough that we couldn’t be completely sure at the time there wasn’t another hidden behind it (and while I think it’s gone, I won’t be entirely certain what’s left until the healing is done).



     

    When we’d dug down deep enough to expose it, the good news was that the cyst was quite well developed. It was rooted in place a little, but we were able to pull it out without significant damage to the surrounding fingertip and with minimal excision of healthy flesh. It was seriously gross though seeing these really vile and rotten looking blobs coming out of my finger!


     

    Now, with my fingertip completely exposed, but finally clean, it was time to stitch me back together, and we were done. I’ve been very stressed out over these problems, and it felt so good to see those sutures going in and knowing this was almost over.


     

    My only regret is that we accidentally threw away the removed tissue and magnet bits as we were disinfecting the workspace. I’d hoped to take a much closer look at the magnet, but unfortunately that “oops” moment killed that. I can however share with you a magnet that rejected from the finger of a friend of Steve Truitt after about four months. This one has barely broken down, but the silicone is gone from one side, part of the gold coating has eroded, and the inner core has started to decompose.


     

    Some people’s bodies will reject the magnets like a splinter (the lucky people), other bodies will try and encapsulate them, others will try and break them down, or a combination of all of these strategies. Internal body chemistry will also greatly affect how quickly the process happens.

    I’m treating the wound with Neem pills and a Neem spray and so far it appears to be healing quite well. My right hand, which also contains magnets (but in a stacked configuration and with a thicker coating of silicone), so far has experienced no problems. In fact, it’s gotten more sensitive over time and I find myself becoming more and more aware of the electromagnetic environment around me (for example, noticing “hot spots” in power cables and couplings that are leaking radiation into the air)… But, I think it’s only a matter of time before that stack is compromised as well, and as sad as it will be to remove them, I think I have to take them out as well.

    Talking to Steve Haworth and others, it sounds like a significant percentage of the small magnets implanted in people are already breaking down. It’s effectively a defective product, not even safe enough for a year in the body, let alone a lifetime. Steve tells me he’s considering ceasing sales of his smallest units (they are currently for sale on eBay), but honestly, especially given that we’ve known now for months that they’re not very stable, I feel that it needs to go a step farther and a recall needs to be issued for all of the silicone coated magnets that are out there. I do not believe that any of them will remain stable in the long term, and I believe that all of them will break down in time as I’ve described here.

    One of the problems with body modification these days is, well, BME and the internet in general… When someone comes up with a great new idea like these magnetic implants (and it is a great idea), it’s instantly posted, and everyone wants it right now. But now, because of that rush, there are dozens of people, many not inside the body modification industry (so they’re without easy access to removal, let alone monitoring), that need surgery that could have been averted with a proper testing cycle.

    I’d like to propose that for volatile implants and other procedures that can have unforeseen effects on the body, that these procedures should be limited to people working inside a studio or otherwise able to go to the studio the practitioner works in on a nearly daily basis. These things need to be aggressively monitored and documented so the risks are thoroughly known before they move into the client sphere. It’s one thing when we endanger ourselves as professionals inside this industry, but it’s another thing if clients who may not understand that the risks are not fully known are put into that same danger.

    When I receive photos to BME, for every thousand fresh photos I receive perhaps one hundred healed photos… Of the two, it’s the healed photo that has more value. Think surface piercings — you can do a crazy corset with rings and it looks great fresh, or a forearm piercing with a straight bar and it looks great fresh too, but good luck getting a healed photo. Furthermore, for every healed photo I get, I get one problem photo (that is, a photo of a serious complication). I think because when people get a body modification others tell them it’s a stupid thing to do and too dangerous, so when things go wrong, there’s often a sense of shame and embarrassment… So they hide that the problem happened, and other people repeat their mistakes because they were unaware of the risk.

    Let me be very clear about this: things go wrong all the time. It’s part of the game. But when things do go wrong, rather than hiding it, we need to share everything we know about the problems so they are less likely to happen to someone else.

    In this magnetic implant procedure, one main simple thing went wrong: the magnet is not stable in the body, and the coating provided was not a sufficient permanent barrier between the magnet and the body. For existing people, I again strongly urge removal — and don’t kid yourself into thinking that because yours hasn’t broken down yet that you should be able to keep it. If yours hasn’t broken yet, thank your lucky stars that removal is going to be much simpler!

    For people who’ve not gotten magnets implanted, I really have to emphasize that implanting this style of magnet with a thin silicone sheath, knowing what we now know, is reckless to the point of being stupid, since it simply doesn’t work. The initial product has turned out to be defective — but I believe we can still make this work. Glass (like an RFID) won’t work because the magnet can’t be exposed to heat without de-magnetizing it. There are however other polymers such as polyurethane (used to coat artificial hearts) with better durability and good biocompatibility that can be applied and cured at room temperature. So don’t think the idea of giving humans magnetic vision is a dead one!

    [Please be sure to visit the companion article to this by Jesse Jarrell; it’s a great explanation as to the thinking that went into the development, and also includes some of Jesse’s ideas as to why things have gone wrong and how they could be fixed.]

    But let’s be sure that we take it slow, wait out a few people testing them before we go putting hundreds of experimental devices into people who can’t easily find removal options, and document our failures as well as our brilliant theories! There’s nothing wrong with taking risks, but taking needless ones is, well, foolish.

    shannonsig
    Shannon “Nine Finger” Larratt
    BME.com

  • The Lizardman vs. Jason “Cork” Sand [The Lizardman]


    Jason Sand Interview
    BY THE LIZARDMAN

    I had the opportunity to meet Jason (IAM:Cork) in person in 2003 after first reading about him on BME. Since then the original interview with Jason was removed for various reasons but always with an eye towards replacing it with an updated account his amazing life and modifications. I was very happy when he approached me with the idea of doing the new interview and I hope I have done him justice by asking good questions — following are his responses.

    LIZARDMAN:  Let’s start with the standard introduction: What’s your name? How old are you? Where do you call home?

    JASON:  Jason Sand. 27 years old. Currently living in the D.C. Area (MD), next year Vermont.

    LIZARDMAN:  How would you describe your motivations for your modifications?

    JASON:  I would say many of my modifications are a blend of reclamation, spiritual, and aesthetic appeal. My theme as a whole is based on my personal and spiritual evolution. Amongst all of that I’ve accumulated a few mods that simply appeal to me artistically, or even sexually.


    LIZARDMAN:  Describe your modifications and who did them:

    JASON:  My facial and neck tattoos are by various artists including Shane Munce, Rosanna (No hope No fear in Amsterdam), Joe Marro, Preston Jarvis, Mike Derazmo, Chris Lee a.k.a. Batryder, JD (Psychotic INK), Jackie Brown, and Eric Stokes. My half sleeve by Bryan Harper. The back piece in progress is by Shane Munce and Chris Lee. I have an in-progress chest piece by Jon Clue and a crotch piece by Mike Fikes. The leg and foot work is from Shane Munce, Mike Derazmo, and Eric Stokes. And I also have some other work by various artists.


    My piercings from top to bottom include two 2ga upper ears, a 00ga upper ear, a 4ga upper ear, a 1ga conch, a 1.25″ ears (split and reattached by Steve Haworth), a 13mm Septum piercing, a 27mm by 14mm labret, three guiches in 00ga, 1/2″, and 5/8″ guiche, and a 1″ upper scrotal piece done in transcrotal style (i.e. partially stitched closed during procedure.)

    My carved silicone facial implants and eight large Teflon horns are by Steve Haworth with Jesse Jarrell having carved the facial ones.

    My chin branding is by Steve Haworth and my shin branding is by Alva in Jacksonville. The chest cuttings are by Frances and the knee cuttings by Ron Garza.

    I have a self-done partial subincision and a partial head splitting by Shane Munce. I have a self cut and reattached split tongue — I think that’s it.

    LIZARDMAN:  Future modification plans?

    JASON:  I’m thinking about possibly switching the Teflon in my chest out for silicone. And really that’s about it… I’m pretty complete with most of my projects aside from tattooing.


    LIZARDMAN:  Did you have an overall plan or idea for your mods or was it a piecemeal or evolution process?

    JASON:  Most of it was part of an overall plan, but like many things in life, some of it was spontaneous, and much of it evolved and changed naturally as I came up with better or different ideas. Even now that I’ve planned out the rest of my work, there is still loads of room for change and adaptation.


    LIZARDMAN:  Can you expand on the theme? I think because its not an obvious visual one it may be harder for people to pick up on immediately.

    JASON:  I am not sure I can get this across correctly, mainly due to not being done, but I’ll give it a go. I have a few different related themes. Starting at the face the blue dots are to honor the skies above, and the water below — a tribute to air and water. My face and neck is a representation of destruction and creation, the Big Bang with the symbol for “God” (as in a being, not the one in the bible) being in the center, and below on my throat, a goat with the same symbol of God, representing destruction. I’ve also incorporated plants and animals in between this to represent the here and now. On the sides of my head I have “Kill thine Idols” (as in don’t have idols before your perception of god or enlightenment). The other side states “life after death” in regards to passing from this life into another.

    My front torso is a huge face in progression formed out of different forms of plants from a cellular level to a lichen growth. As this piece progresses it will have more plant textures incorporated. This represents the organic process of part of myself growing out of me, a kind of spiritual peek through my inner window, ever reaching outward.


    My back section is a tribute to fertility (the “human” orchid — human vagina — as opposed to insect vagina emulation), represented with an orchid and various spiders. Once finished it will have incorporated a scene of various nebulas and birthing stars, all overlapped with webbing to represent how it’s all “tied together”. Growing off the orchid and encompassing my ass will be two large berries with fetuses growing inside them, fusing the concept of birth and growth with an organic plant-like fusion. I’ll leave it at that for the areas that are not currently done so as not to jinx it.

    Finally, my feet are once again a representation of destruction — and growth within filth. Shane Munce and I are currently working on them with tattoos such as three dimensional realistic zits, the worm from poltergeist, and eventually bruising, bloating, frost bite, gangrene, and so on.


    The rest of my body, arms, crotch, and so on carry a few token tattoos from friends — more representations, mostly abstract, of plants and animals. My knuckles read ‘Hard Love’, and my brother has the same tattoo. We got it to represent the way we were raised.

    I’ve also used implants and subincision, and eventually tattoos to give my genitalia an abstract, hermaphroditic, plant like appearance.

    LIZARDMAN:  Tell me about the lobe re-attachment?

    JASON:  Well, as to the “why”, one ear I had overstretched early on and suffered a thin spot. Later down the road I had a similar problem with the other ear during a scalpeling session. They both harbored thin spots but were holding in fine enough until I got too drunk on a rollercoaster ride and had my plugs forcefully jerked out of my ears. That made the thin spots too thin for comfort.

    About a half year down the road when I was getting my temple implants I asked Steve Haworth if he’d do my ears the next day. It went well, but one ear did not completely attach after healing, so six months down the road Shane Munce did a partial reattachment on it. I’d say the attachments were about 80% successful, and three years later I’m still happy with the results.

    LIZARDMAN:  You cut and then later reversed your own tongue splitting?

    JASON:  Yup, after the initial swelling went down, about two weeks to be safe, I realized it was grossly off center, I went back in and removed the scabby tissue from the center and bound it with a rubber band. In the first night the back reattached, and by the second day the front was fairly well attached. I have a small off center fork resulting from it and a crease that opens up a little bit. There is a hard piece of scar tissue in it to this day about five years later.


    LIZARDMAN:  So your motivation was simply the off center cut, not that you no longer wanted a split?

    JASON:  My motivation to reattach? Yes, it was literally like a quarter inch off center. That’s what I get for marking after the lidocaine.

    I had plans to do it again. I was waiting for the lump of scar tissue buried in my tongue to soften and go away. And while it has gotten smaller, its not softer and I’ve just not gotten around to going through it again. I want to make sure its done right and I have been focusing on other areas since then. I’m sure I’ll get around to it later, but with the scar tissue and all, I have some worries that it might not be the best of ideas, and could impede mobility or something. Only time will tell.

    LIZARDMAN:  So do you think you will go for a self cutting again when the time comes or is it something you now think would be better done by someone else for you?

    JASON:  More than likely I’ll go to someone else due to there possibly needing to be a bit of sculpting, because of the existing scar tissue and fork.

    LIZARDMAN:  What are your views on D.I.Y. versus going to professional practitioners?

    JASON:  If you want quality work with less risk and better chances of success, go to a professional. Many are even accommodating to “rituals” that people would like to have involved in their procedure. I personally don’t see much wrong with DIY if you’re aware of the potential risks, willing to live with a mistake if it happens, and so on. It is a wonderful experience to have that kind of responsibility in your own hands and bring it to fruition.

    LIZARDMAN:  Did the bad tongue splitting affect your views concerning D.I.Y. procedures?

    JASON:  Not in the least, I knew I was taking a chance, and lived with my mistakes. Success will only teach and show you so much. You have to make a few mistakes before you really start seeing the bigger picture.

    LIZARDMAN:  Do you differentiate much between the process and the product in terms of your modifications?

    JASON:  When it comes to my scars, it’s often in the “process” of healing that I find more fulfilling, whereas with everything else, it’s the end product and I don’t necessarily get much out of the process. I do find it emotionally relieving at times, but I this is more related to the idea that inflicted pain can help one displace personal stress along with the physical discomfort.


    In terms of getting something for original motivations or not, I’d say that is debatable in the sense that I may get it for one reason, but it could turn into a hundred others by the time I finish it, or on the flip side, I could have a incorrect hundred ideas of what it means, but once finished, its purpose is obvious.

    LIZARDMAN:  You keep a low profile outside of IAM and other online modification sites. Is this by design? And if so, why? Given the public nature of much of your work how hard is it for you to keep under the radar?

    JASON:  I like to think it’s by design, but I also think luck and circumstance plays a part. During the times when I’ve wanted to be more “public” it generally hasn’t fit into my situation. I’ve done some small TV coverage, a commercial or two, and some events but not much. I’m also not one to pursue things of that nature that don’t just fall into my lap. It really isn’t that hard at all to go under the radar. I use to get approached for things a lot, but one day it just kind of went away and hasn’t come back. So whatever I’m doing, it’s working.

    LIZARDMAN:  Others with mods as extensive as your own are likely to work in either the modification industry or as performers. Have you ever worked in either of those realms? Do you prefer working so-called ‘straight jobs’?

    JASON:  I absolutely prefer. Though the money and fame of being a modified celebrity are attractive, it is simply not my calling. Straight jobs are great, though I wouldn’t mind something a bit more unusual and creative from time to time.


    LIZARDMAN:  To what extent have your mods influenced your job selections and opportunities?

    JASON:  I’m not out there trying to get a vast assortment of jobs. I generally have a good idea of what places will and won’t hire me and tend to stick with those. Believe it or not, my work history and word of mouth have pretty much helped bypass any problems with getting hired initially.

    Public notice and fitting into dress codes are definitely limiting factors. Also certain employee environments may not be suitable. I tend to get along really well with college age employees, and am usually taken in fairly well. Granted, my eccentric personality and approachableness helps a lot in this area. Many skilled labor jobs tend to look past the work if you have the experience or capability to back it up.

    LIZARDMAN:  Were any comments made regarding there being consequences or resistance to going further than what you had when you were hired?

    JASON:  Actually, no, there hasn’t been. I’ve just done it and not asked for permission.


    LIZARDMAN:  Do you mind listing the jobs you have had in the past and their reactions to your modifications?

    JASON:  When I was just pierced and stretching I got a job as a Data Analyst. After being relocated to another office in Florida, I started tattooing my face. At first a few administrative employees (i.e. the important ones) were a little taken aback. But since I already had a reputation for being eccentric in appearance with my piercings and various hairstyles, it was pretty much looked over. I worked the graveyard shift and rarely had to deal with anyone face to face.

    After five years of that I left the job to pursue other interests and ended up working for TLA Video in Philadelphia. They didn’t care at all how I looked, as I was mainly doing sales and customer service over the phone and internet.

    When I moved to a smaller city in Vermont I had a bit difficulty finding work. I ended up working in custodial maintenance a few hours a day. After a good while with the company, and a few stints doing other oddball jobs like mortgage refinancing and working in a Thai Bistro, they hired me on full time working in the kitchen and bussing tables (or any other job they had, other than bartending and waiting tables). They didn’t mind if I was seen by customers, but they just hadn’t chanced me serving them.

    Then, upon moving to Maryland, I was very lucky to have known the kitchen manager at a TGI Friday‘s in Greenbelt (the third busiest in the nation last year or some such), which is where I’m currently at. When I move back to VT, I’ll probably start back up at my old job and possibly try and see if I can get on at another Friday’s.

    Most places just take me as I am. I’ve rarely had anyone complain or reject me. I do occasionally get the uncomfortable coworker but that works itself out over time. Right now I think my resumé and willingness to work in most environments keeps me an eligible candidate for employment.


    Jason wearing theatrical makeup as an experiment in disguise.

    LIZARDMAN:  Anything you would tell anyone else considering heavy or public mods that caught you off guard after you got started?

    JASON:  Hmmm…. What caught me off guard the most was the overall positive reaction I’ve gotten. Many people like the art a lot even if it may seem a little bizarre, basic, and unplanned — I’m not the best artist, but yes, it was all planned!

    I expected the negative comments; many of us with lesser mods know most of these. What I didn’t expect was people simply not noticing or at least not letting on to the fact. Online I’ve taken a lot more abuse than I generally get in person.

    Some people get loud, obnoxious, and sometimes jump right out of their seats. Expect to be touched, poked, prodded, and sneered at. Expect drunken people to run up to you and say “dude, you totally rock, much respect” — and then figure out a way to respond to such a comment without coming across as an arrogant prick!

    Oh, and no matter what your tattoos are, someone is going to ask if you’re the Lizardman they saw on TV.

    But, eventually there comes a time when all that goes away for the most part, and you get to start living your life like everyone else. You may look different and be different, but it all comes to how you fit into the community around you. That isn’t affected by how you look, but instead by how you act. That to me is what is most important and will get you a lot further than you think, even with a tattooed face.






    Erik Sprague

    because the world NEEDS freaks…

    Former doctoral candidate and philosophy degree holder Erik Sprague, the Lizardman (iam), is known around the world for his amazing transformation from man to lizard as well as his modern sideshow performance art. Need I say more?

    Copyright © 2006 BMEzine.com LLC and Erik Sprague / The Lizardman. Requests to republish must be confirmed in writing. For bibliographical purposes this article was first published March 14th, 2006 by BMEzine.com LLC in Toronto, Canada.



  • The alleged piercing-related death of a teen in Canada [The Publisher’s Ring]


    BME.com Press Release:
    The alleged piercing-related death of a teen in Canada


    Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did so. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.

    Mark Twain

    A seventeen-year-old girl in Newfoundland, Canada (at Booth Memorial High School in St. John’s) arrived at the hospital apparently

      UPDATES:

    The unsubstantiated St. John’s rumor-mill is telling me that the teen was pierced
    in a questionable envinornment by a non-professional. In addition, I am being told
    that she had given birth three months earlier. If this is true, the piercing would
    have had very high risks of developing mastitis even in a best case scenario.
    Assuming these rumors are true, it underscores the need for teens to be educated
    about body piercing in the same way that they are educated about sexuality, and
    the need for safe access to piercing by minors.

    I have also been asked about the source of the piercing statistics in this article
    (ie. “one in a million” chance). These are from comparing known numbers of these
    complications to known quantities of initial-piercing jewelry (and needles) sold as
    well as national statistics.

    suffering from a system-wide infection (“medical problems that were quite complex”). Two days later she died, and the staphylococcus infection that did it is currently being linked to a nipple piercing received some time earlier, even though no evidence of this link has been found yet. Chief Medical Examiner Dr. Simon Avis appears to be implying that the teen deserved what she got and that the Newfoundland government feels that giving pierced people medical care might be a mistake,


    “This is health dollars that are essentially wasted treating infections that shouldn’t have occurred because of some desire to have a piece of metal sticking out of your body. It doesn’t make much sense to me.”

    An investigation to more conclusively pinpoint piercing as the cause is underway.

    Can piercing lead to death and in what circumstances?

    It is true that you can get an infection from a piercing that kills you. However, it is also true that you might die from the same type of infection after getting a paper cut — freak accidents do happen, and any minor breach of your skin increases the chances. Piercing jewelry (or sutures in the case of an injury) slightly increase this risk because they give bacteria a place to anchor, but the risk of a fatal infection in body piercing is still less than one in a million. To put that into context (and I will do so in more detail later), a pierced person is significantly more likely to be struck by lightning than to develop a fatal infection from that piercing (and as a point of amusing trivia, there is a case of a pierced woman who was struck by lightning, but was saved from injury by her navel ring which diverted the electrical flow… but I digress).

    In addition, if a serious infection does set in, in most cases the infection should be obvious visually around the piercing. Especially in the case of a female nipple piercing, physical symptoms of the infection can be easily seen and felt, so it is very rare for these simple-to-treat infections to progress to something life threatening. The majority of the deaths that have occurred have involved secondary factors such as willful ignorance to recommended aftercare and ongoing complications, or even underlying medical conditions making piercing inadvisable (such as some types of heart defects).

    It should also be noted that the bacteria that is usually responsible for these infections lives on everyone’s skin and we come in contact with it daily — while it is theoretically possible to contract an infection at the studio during the initial placement, it is very unusual because all reputable studios have sterility control measures in place. Infections are usually contracted much later, “in the wild”, which is why piercees are given aftercare sheets instructing them on how to minimize these risks.

    So yes, it is in extreme cases possible for a piercing to have fatal complications, but it truly requires one-in-a-million bad luck (and usually poor judgement as well), and rarely involves a piercing studio as the cause.

    Comparisons and Statistics

    According to the US Consumer Product Safety Commission (cpsc.gov), children’s push scooters lead to nearly a hundred thousand hospital visits (mostly fractures) a year, including about twenty deaths. Bicycles add half a million hospital visits and almost a thousand fatalities. The National Athletic Trainer’s Association (nata.org) reports that nearly one in fifty students actually require surgery due to high school sports injuries. The National SAFE KIDS Campaign and the American Academy of Pediatrics point out that three million children fourteen and under are injured at school every year (about one in five). According to a study in Physician and Sportsmedicine, nearly forty students die from immediate injuries sustained during high school sports recreation.

    According to the National Highway Traffic Safety Administration (nhtsa.dot.gov), almost four thousand teenage drivers are killed per year (a quarter of them drunk at the time, but the leading cause is simple driver error). Almost half of these crashes involved other teens in the car, and I haven’t included those death numbers… And of course if you include adults in the statistics, you have about fifty thousand corpses.

    Or how about circumcision? According to the British Journal of Surgery, between one in fifty and one in ten circumcisions develop complications, and in the US, as many as two hundred and fifty infants die per year from elective circumcisions. Include adult cosmetic surgery and again you add many thousands more injuries and deaths. Where is the government and medical outrage for all of the injuries and deaths resulting from kids on scooters, circumcisions, needless road trips, and football games?

    I can go on and on, but the point is that there are many activities which are recreational and optional in nature that are extremely dangerous for both adults and children that we accept because we have been culturally conditioned to do so. We could make them much more safe, or eliminate them entirely, but we don’t. In order to make rational decisions that respect both a reasonable allocation of political time and money, and also the civil rights of the people affected — while still protecting the public from harm — we have to step back and be objective and fair.

    Civil rights issues involved

    Dr. Avis’s statement that treating the infections that pierced people occasionally get is a waste of tax money is making the statement that pierced people do not deserve the same rights under the law as other Canadians. Dr. Avis is lucky that he’s in Newfoundland rather than Ontario, because if he made that statement in Ontario, he could find himself on the end of a Human Rights lawsuit — I believe his statement is a low-grade hate crime, and certainly very inappropriate for a government official to make.

    In general people get piercings because they like them, and because it’s a cultural element of the group they are affiliated with. The Ontario Human Rights Commission points out that “minority group” goes beyond genetic race, and includes “specific traits and attributes, which are connected in some way to racialized people and are deemed to be ‘abnormal’ and of less worth [than the mainstream’s]”, and that these traits include clothing, grooming, leisure, and so on. They go on to warn that government policies and activities include subtle but systematic discrimination, just like we’re seeing in this case.

    It is also important to point out that as Canadians we enjoy not just freedom of speech and religion, but literally freedom of expression, which includes the right to be a pierced and tattooed person should you desire it. So not only are the statements (and actions in first demonizing the piercing) of Dr. Avis potentially hate crimes, they are also veiled violations of the Canadian Charter of Rights and Freedoms (Constitution Act, 1982).

    In Conclusion

    It should go without saying that the freak death of this student is a tragic event that we all wish never happened. But, the truth is that freak accidents do happen all the time, and all we can do is mourn and move on, and be reminded that even though piercing seems safe we always need to stay focused on cleanliness and health both during and after the piercing. Put in context, realizing that these deaths are extremely rare underscores the fact that body piercing is actually incredibly safe, and of all the activities a teen could choose for themselves, is one of the ones we need to worry about least of all.

    What is disturbing is the discriminatory response and official commentary. Because this case involves body piercing, an activity that is loved by perhaps one in ten Canadians but not really understood by the rest, the involvement seems to immediately call out the angry pitch-fork wielding crowd seeking to find a monster to scapegoat… all the while forgetting the fact that they ignore (and permit) the risks of radically more dangerous (and also avoidable) activities.

    In conclusion, please understand that while deaths can happen from piercing, they can happen from most activities, and looking at things objectively, piercing is one of the safest activities a person can undertake. As Canadians, we have the legal right to do so, and the right to have our government and health services support us. It is my sincere hope that I am misinterpreting Dr. Avis’s statements or that he has been misquoted. As a Canadian, I feel very strongly that it is the responsibiltiy of a government official to work hard to protect all Canadians, even those whose mode of expression and culture they do not understand, or perhaps even find personally repugnant or nonsensical.

    I just hope Dr. Avis and the Government of Canada agree.


    Shannon Larratt
    BME.com

  • Magnetic Implants: A Six Month Retrospective [The Publisher’s Ring

     

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    Magnetic Implants
    A Six Month Retrospective

     


    Life is “trying things to see if they work.”

    – Ray Bradbury

     

    In early 2004 BME documented the concept of magnetic implants for the primary purpose of sensory augmentation. You can read that article for an introduction and information on the originators, but the basic concept is that if you implant small magnets under the skin, they will move in response to an electromagnetic field and transfer this as sensation to the surrounding nerves. This in effect allows one to extend “vision” (or touch) into the electromagnetic spectrum, giving you a sixth sense that normal humans do not have — the first real “superhero” modification?Roughly speaking, magnetic implants break down into the following types:

    • Sensory
      I believe this is the most important type of magnetic implant (as I’ve described above), and it is what this article focuses on.
    • Sexual
      Magnetic implants placed inside the sensitive genital anatomy of a couple (so each partner has their own implants) have the potential of interacting, enhancing the feeling of body parts moving against each other to include anatomically internal sensation as well as normal external stimulation. It is difficult to say how perceptible these would be though, if at all. Paired implants in lips (also highly sensitive) are a related variation.
    • SymbolicAnother variation on couples implants is more symbolic than functional or erotic is paired hand implants, placed in order to create a magnetic bond as the two people hold hands. I do not believe that the static magnetic field generated by small implants is enough to be felt except as a placebo, so this would generally be something I’d consider purely symbolic in nature.
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      Couples implants on Steve Haworth and his partner Cookie
    • Functional
      Most of the magnets used above are too small to actually pick up anything larger than a small paperclip or staple. Larger magnetic implants are in theory able to pick up screws and heavier items, potentially making them quite utilitarian in nature. This is however complicated by the fact that placing a large enough magnet under a fingerpad is not entirely comfortable.

    In relation to the last type, sometimes people ask about whether magnetic implants could be used to hold a watch or eyeglasses or other appliance in place. The short answer is that this is not safe or viable. Even very slight compression (as you’d have between the internal magnet and the external device) can quite quickly cause the tissue to be choked off, die, and induce rejection. As a point of trivia, this is why it can be so dangerous for a child to swallow magnets — if two magnets clamp across the intestinal wall, they crush it and it leads to the development of a very dangerous hole.

    That said, the magnets involved are also very small, so attaching devices wouldn’t be easy because they’re just not powerful enough. The good thing about this though is that the magnets have zero effect on credit cards, hard drives, monitors, and so on.

    Personally I sought out magnetic implants for sensation — to experience more of the world around me and have a deeper understanding of physical existence — which brings me to Steve Haworth and Jessse Jarrell.

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    The location of my five (ten?) magnetic pellet implants
     

    Getting them done

    The first generation of magnetic implants have been manufactured by Jesse Jarrell (IAM:Mr. Bones, who you also know from projects like Kaos Softwear) and have been primarily installed by Steve Haworth (IAM:steve haworth), easily the most experienced implant artist in the world and one of the only ones that I trust to work on me. After making plans at the 2005 APP meeting in Las Vegas to do the procedure, it was just a matter of being able to synchronize our busy schedules. This ended up happening a month or two later as I was on a road trip from Chicago with my wife Rachel (IAM:MiL0) to our home at the bottom of the Baja Peninsula in Mexico.

    After discussing various placement options and configurations, we decided to try two different possibilities so I could help assess which worked best — a “grid” of four single magnets, and a set of five or six magnets stacked up and encased as a single unit. The magnets themselves are rare earth neodymium magnets (so they are quite strong for their size) and are encased in silicone to make them safe to implant (safer anyway). One of the magnets I’d had for some time, and the others were made to order that day by Jesse. The process of autoclaving can weaken the magnets, so they were disinfected using a chemical soak.

    While one could in theory implant the magnets using a needle follow-through method similar to a beading, we put them in place by first making a small incision in the tip of the finger and opening a pocket using one of Steve’s smaller dermal elevators. It took a remarkable amount of force to create the pockets. After each pocket was ready to accept the magnetic pellet, Steve (assisted by his partner Cookie; IAM:Miss Cookie) used the back of a taper to push them into the hole — this was quite difficult to do as the magnets themselves are about a third the size of a grain of rice, very smooth and slippery, and of course the hole had blood in it. But, after a little fumbling with them, they each were in place. Small sutures held the wounds closed and I was bandaged up. The five separate incisions and placements were all completed within half an hour, and while having the ends of your fingers messed with is certainly highly unpleasant, it was far easier than I’d anticipated.

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    The first incision being made and the pocket being created using a small spatula.

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    Inserting several of the small magnets — you can see how tiny they are!

     

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    Closing the wounds with single sutures.

     

    ABOVE PHOTOS BY RACHEL LARRATT

     

    They were quite tender for the first week until I cut the sutures out, at which point the pain went away almost immediately. If I touch the area they can be felt and are a little tender if pressure is applied, but not so much that they affect typing or most things I use my hands for. The incision points have left several tiny, almost invisible scars — nothing you’d notice unless you know what to look for. The implants themselves are not visible and do not distort the skin because they’re so tiny. As of this writing I have had the implants for six months.

    Effects and Sensation

    Jesse had told me that it could be a month before I’d be able to feel anything from the implants due to the surrounding tissue taking time to normalize, so I was surprised when I felt a strange sensation in my fingertips as I used my computer about a week after the procedure. My laptop at the time had dual harddrives and due to using a desktop CPU, an inordinate quantity of fans. Running my fingers through the air over the surface of the computer I could feel a faint vibration coming from each of these microengines, and this vibration changed slightly as the actions of the engines changed the electromagnetic field they were generating. It’s hard to exactly describe what it feels like — it’s definitely not as simple as “I can feel the implant vibrating under my skin”, which is true, but I am completely unaware of the presence of the magnets… It’s more like being able to “touch” the EM field. It’s very tangible, and the best way I can describe it is a combination of vibrating air and a strong sense of static electricity.

    Later on I started being able to sense other fields as well. Sometimes I can feel store security gates as I pass through them, although usually I can’t feel them at all unless my hand happens to pass very close. Only once (at an art gallery in Paris) did I experience a very obvious gate — it was turned up so high that it was almost painful at a distance of two or three feet, feeling very much like dipping my fingers into an ultrasonic cleaner; an extremely fast and aggressive vibration! My theory is that the system was malfunctioning, but of course no one else could possibly have been aware of that. Another device that generates a very strong field that I can feel from a distance is my microwave. What’s particularly interesting about that is if I put it on a variable program (ie. defrost and reheat a plate), I can feel the EM field’s vibration strength and frequency change as it passes through different stages in the cooking. I’m not sure if I should worry now that my Mexican-bought microwave is not properly shielded? Finally, I can also feel the vibration of power transformers and sometimes even emissions from power cables themselves. Our environment is sensually rich in ways most people are completely unaware of!

    So far with the limited number of people who’ve gotten these implants it seems like different people are more sensitive to different types of fields — personally I am most sensitive to motors. I don’t know if that’s due to subtleties of the placement and orientation of the implant, or if it’s something related to the person themselves. As I mentioned above, I have different magnetic configurations in each hand; four individual magnets in a grid in my left hand and a long single stack of magnets in my right hand. Surprisingly, my experience has been that there is absolutely no difference between the two. To me they feel completely alike. This also makes me believe that the differences that various people have experienced in what they can sense is due to their own innate nervous structure rather than the placement itself.

    Problems

    The biocompatibility of neodymium has not been investigated (so carcinogenic and mutagenic toxicity and so on are complete unknowns) but it is considered a generally toxic irritant and moderately poisonous with documented adverse effects. Really, no reasonable person should be asking for exposure to it by implanting it under their skin! Let me emphasize that this is a fundamentally risky act with unknown consequences.

    In order to keep the neodymium from coming in contact with the skin, the magnets have to be coated with something inert. In my case and in the case of all the others that I know of, this is achieved by coating them in a sheath of biocompatible silicone (the same type of medical silicone that is used for everything from chin implants by plastic surgeons to 3D-art by non-medical practitioners). Unfortunately so far this solution has not been entirely ideal.

    In my own case, I found myself with a hankering for pickles one afternoon and needed to open a jar of them on which the lid had become stuck. I grasped the jar with my right hand and the lid tightly with my left and turned. As I did so I felt a pain around one of the small magnets in my left hand as shearing forces tore across the magnet and its sheath… I realized immediately that I’d just “peeled” the silicone off of the magnet. There was a slight inflammation and soreness over the next week but it settled down fairly quickly. However, as time has gone by the surrounding tissue has blackened, confirming my theory that the neodymium was exposed to flesh. I haven’t decided yet what to do about this problem. A reasonable person would probably choose to remove at least the compromised implant, but I’m not a reasonable person. So for now it has become another experiment. I worry as well that my stacked magnet is going to break in half if I hit it wrong.


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    You can see the discoloration from the compromised magnet.
     

    In addition to damage to the silicone sheath from shearing forces and impact damage, the current method of production — hand dipping in liquid silicone — is problematic because it can very easily result in thin patches that are sensitive to the point where they become compromised during the process of insertion. If a mold is eventually made for casting the silicone sheath this problem should be all but eliminated.

    Unfortunately I am not the only person to have experienced complications. My friend Monte Vogel (who you know from BME’s QOD and as IAM:MONTE) had to remove an implant from a client’s lip. I should note that while he removed it, the implant was put in place by an inexperienced practitioner in Minnesota using a traditional beading style procedure (ie. piercing with a 12ga needle and following this with the magnet). Somehow during the procedure it seems the silicone sheath (already extremely thin in spots due to hand dipping) was compromised, exposing the neodymium to flesh, and this was compounded by problems with migration.

    BME: What necessitated removing the implant?

    MONTE: It had moved into the upper tissue layers and looked like a growth or cyst just under the tissue, and became both a visual and physical nuisance.

    BME: What was the removal procedure like?

    MONTE: I used a #11 scalpel to gradually cut my way into the area, blotting it with gauze as I worked. Extra precaution was taken going in so that I wouldn’t damage the implant since we didn’t know at the time that it had been compromised. When I got to the area all I saw were little black flecks. I gently tweezed out the ones that I couldn’t pick away with the scalpel blade tip. Below these pieces was the majority of the implant.

    I never saw the implant before it was placed, so I don’t know what it looked like originally. What I removed was the small magnetic piece with half of the silicone casing still attached to the back side with no other silicone pieces to be found. The silicone was translucent making it impossible to see. Imagine dropping a contact the size of half a pin head — the original intact pellet implant was small enough to be placed with a 12ga needle.

    BME: What was the condition of the surrounding tissue?

    MONTE: The surrounding tissues that had been in contact with the exposed side of the implant had stained a darker color. This made it even harder to find and remove all the little flecked pieces but I spent extra time to make sure that I removed everything I could see and find.

    BME: Given what you’ve seen, what’s your assessment as to the viability of this procedure and type of implant?

    MONTE: The implant’s thin silicone coating is very fragile, and with all of these potential points of compromise it is hard to say how safe any procedure of this type would be. This is definitely not something you would want to have an inexperienced practitioner do. Know the risks and reduce them as much as possible.

    My own assessment as to the viability of these implants is that figuring out a strong and durable sheath is essential. I would strongly recommend that perhaps even an alternate polymer, or at least a much harder silicone, is required to safely implant neodymium or another potentially toxic substance into the body.

    Conclusions

    First of all, let me say that I’ve been very happy with my magnetic implants so far, and that I understood the risks (and accepted the unknowns) coming into this. The experience of developing another sense (or at least a pseudo-sense that extends my ability to “touch” in new directions) has been very exciting and illuminating, and I wouldn’t want to give that up. For me the effects have been more of a curiosity and growing experience than something objectively “useful”, but Jesse Jarrell who has a more electrically-oriented life tells me that he’s been finding them genuinely functional:

    “I find I use mine more and more as a true tool or utility, especially since I have moved into a new warehouse and have been doing a lot with wiring and construction, where the sense actually comes in handy surprisingly often. I think professional electricians would get a lot from these.”

    That said, it is not a procedure that I can recommend in good conscience until the containment problems (the delicacy and potentially short lifespan of the polymer sheath) are solved. I believe that knowing what we know now that implanting the current style of magnetic implant is irresponsible and reckless. However, once this problem is solved, I recommend these implants whole-heartedly. In terms of the configuration that I recommend, I believe that groups of single, small magnets are far safer than and just as effective as the stacked groups.

    Jesse concurs and gives us a hint as to his future developments,

    “My thoughts for improvement have gone towards more and smaller magnets. We may be getting our own parylene coater soon [ed: parylene is a biocompatible dielectric coating that is commonly used to shield non-compatible medical implants from surrounding tissue], so that would allow for a much thinner but still robust coating.”

    “I like the idea of a dispersed magnetic dust — lots of tiny units spread across an area. It wouldn’t be the easiest to install or remove, but I think it would yield the best sensory results. I also think longer thin strips of tiny magnets might be a nice compromise for installation and removal ease.”

    I definitely like the idea of an implantable magnetic dust that could sensitize large areas of skin and look forward to seeing where functional body modification goes in general. For me, I probably have to steel myself for some serious discomfort and take scalpel to fingertip and remove the problematic implants. I wonder how blind I will feel having been given this extra vision and then losing it again?

    If you’re interested in having magnetic implants done yourself, or are a practitioner looking to buy them, my advice would be that you contact Steve or Jesse directly. Links to their IAM pages are above, and you can also visit stevehaworth.com and jessejarrell.com directly for alternate methods. Good luck everyone, and if you try something, please be sure to let BME readers know how it went for you!

    shannonsig
    Shannon Larratt
    BMEzine.com

     

  • BMEZINE.COM 2005 Year-End Awards [The Publisher’s Ring



    BME.COM 2005 Year End Awards

    Thanks for another great year! With your help, BME continues to go strong as it enters its twelfth year. In this wrap-up article, I’d like to thank a few specific people who helped BME grow in 2005. These lists are just the best of best (or the biggest of the best if you’d like) — thanks must also go out to the thousands and thousands of people who made smaller but still important contributions, to say nothing of the paying members and BMEshop customers who make it possible to keep the servers online.

    In 2005, BME received about 60 gigabytes of image submissions totaling approximately 300,000 files. Of those, 188,485 images met our standards and were posted to the site. These successful image submissions came from 24,257 people and were posted in 151 separate updates. Along with those pictures, 7,234 stories and articles were posted and reviewed by site members, and 4,803 articles were posted to the BME newsfeed — almost all by volunteers.

    Overall top image contributors

    The competition was fierce this year and the numbers are quite staggering. BME/HARD members were competing with both professional piercers and with event photographers for the top spot. Below are the winners for the overall top image contributor of the year:


    1. 4,171 images


    Big Rick


    2. 4,159 images


    stained steel


    3. 3,733 images


    kokomi.3k

    4. 3,242 images


    KitanoKaryuudo


    5. 2,044 images


    RussFoxx


    6. 1,990 images


    perk900

    7. 1,523


    vampy


    8. 1,354


    VEAL


    9. 1,353


    Allen Falkner


    10. 1,229


    peo52


    11. 1,150


    hypermike


    12. 909


    stainless

    13. 872


    dispel


    14. 859


    Lexci Million


    15. 848


    KIVAKA


    16. 833


    Urban Soul


    17. 832


    Joao Caldara


    18. 824


    bena

    19. 762


    jonathanpiercing


    20. 712


    Hornet


    21. 708


    giselle


    22. 653


    bastard


    23. 612


    Ars Bonus Gallery


    24. 607


    wildirishrose

    25. 559


    joker


    26. 510


    UREA


    27. 507


    freakypumper


    28. 504


    j_scarab


    29. 501


    Rings of Pleasure


    30. 489


    Anonymous

    31. 475


    Anonymous


    32. 468


    nobcatz


    33. 450


    Guerella


    34. 441


    Crazy Glamour


    35. 434


    RAFAEL


    36. 431


    Efix

    37. 411


    rwethereyet


    38. 406


    deb


    39. 397


    HeadlessLego


    40. 391


    mc4bbs


    41. 384


    Vex Hecubus


    42. 354


    holey13

    43. 353


    matt bruce

    44. 336


    Bea und Lehni


    45. 326


    Tranquility

    46. 325


    holierthanthou

    47. 320


    piercer_dave

    48. 313


    rollsplitt

    Top image contributors per month

    And let’s break it down by month as well:

    January


    1. vampy (871 images)
    2. Big Rick (520 images)
    3. matt bruce (216 images)
    4. KIVAKA (210 images)
    5. kokomi.3k (171 images)

    February


    1. VEAL (241 images)
    2. Big Rick (232 images)
    3. KIVAKA (173 images)
    4. 667 (170 images)
    5. Anonymous (137 images)

    March


    1. stained steel (276 images)
    2. Big Rick (240 images)
    3. kokomi.3k (174 images)
    4. Anonymous (144 images)
    5. Crumbs (132 images)

    April


    1. stained steel (1,268 images)
    2. Allen Falkner (796 images)
    3. kokomi.3k (337 images)
    4. KitanoKaryuudo (318 images)
    5. bastard (251 images)
    May


    1. hypermike (486 images)
    2. stained steel (448 images)
    3. kokomi.3k (419 images)
    4. KitanoKaryuudo (271 images)
    5. rollsplitt (201 images)

    June


    1/2. Big Rick (448 images)
    1/2. stained steel (448 images)
    3. kokomi.3k (419 images)
    4. gastaum (221 images)
    5. KitanoKaryuudo (191 images)

    July


    1. Big Rick (1,346 images)
    2. perk900 (707 images)
    3. RussFoxx (685 images)
    4. KitanoKaryuudo (615 images)
    5. Anonymous (454 images)

    August


    1. kokomi.3k (916 images)
    2. Allen Falkner (553 images)
    3. giselle (397 images)
    4. dispel (356 images)
    5. vampy (276 images)
    September


    1. stained steel (954 images)
    2. Big Rick (436 images)
    3. RussFoxx (348 images)
    4. Anonymous (309 images)
    5. dispel (256 images)
    October


    1. Big Rick (704 images)
    2. kokomi.3k (412 images)
    3. KitanoKaryuudo (322 images)
    4. deb (277 images)
    5. Crazy Glamour (160 images)
    November


    1. KitanoKaryuudo (767 images)
    2. RussFoxx (580 images)
    3. bena (488 images)
    4. Anonymous (404 images)
    5. mc4bbs (282 images)
    December


    1. stained steel (823 images)
    2. kokomi.3k (624 images)
    3. KitanoKaryuudo (433 images)
    4. VEAL (304 images)
    5. wildirishrose (243 images)

    Top image contributors per section

    To make it more fair, I’ve also broken down the winners per section. Most of the names are still familiar, but this also shows you some of the niche contributors who helped keep some of the more difficult sections alive:

    Tattoos


    1. Big Rick (3,528 images)
    2. bastard (629 images)
    3. j_scarab (260 images)
    4. babakhin (186 images)
    5. Efix (158 images)
    6. Anonymous (152 images)
    7. RAFAEL (150 images)

    Piercing


    1. stained steel (1,464 images)
    2. KIVAKA (675 images)
    3. Lexci Million (337 images)
    4. piercer_dave (214 images)
    5. holey13 (199 images)
    6. holierthanthou (199 images)
    7. alienboy (150 images)

    Scarification


    1. perk900 (433 images)
    2. hypermike (360 images)
    3. Joao_Caldara (318 images)
    4. matt bruce (294 images)
    5. stained steel (204 images)
    6. UREA (152 images)
    7. vampy (144 images)

    Ritual


    1. stained steel (2,090 images)
    2. RussFoxx (1,930 images)
    3. Allen Falkner (1,347 images)
    4. vampy (1,115 images)
    5. bena (718 images)
    6. stainless (663 images)
    7. dispel (661 images)
    Culture


    1. perk900 (1,145 images)
    2. Big Rick (643 images)
    3. newaddict (257 images)
    4. spot (197 images)
    5. Allen Falkner (176 images)
    6. Lexci Million (169 images)
    7. B-boy (162 images)
    BME/extreme


    1. jonathanpiercing (511 images)
    2. mc4bbs (391 images)
    3. emilio gonzalez (214 images)
    4. old soldier (173 images)
    5. stardust99 (165 images)
    6. Anonymous (141 images)
    7. Anonymous (124 images)
    BME/HARD


    1. kokomi.3k (3,733 images)
    2. KitanoKaryuudo (3,218 images)
    3. VEAL (1,264 images)
    4. peo52 (1,229 images)
    5. Hornet (712 images)
    6. Urban Soul Bonus Gallery (692 images)
    7. Ars Bonus Gallery (612 images)

     

    Most diverse image contributors

    While some contributors tended to submit in just a few categories of BME, other people submitted to many different galleries (piercers especially). In 2005, 739 galleries were updated at some point during the year. The following people deserve recognition for having an active involvement in a wide range of activities covered on BME:


    1. stained steel (71)
    2. holey13 (62)
    3. KIVAKA (55)
    4. Lexci Million (55)
    5. Efix (50)

    6. j_scarab (50)
    7. alienboy (47)
    8. babakhin (43)
    9. holierthanthou (42)
    10. redneckzombi (42)


    11. HollywoodPiercer (42)
    12. el tio pincho (40)
    13. Joao_Caldara (39)
    14. bob-omb (39)
    15. RAFAEL (38)

    Most consistent image contributors

    Some people submitted only occasionally but in large numbers — for example, folks who documented conventions and events. Others contributed on a more constant basis, meaning that any given update was likely to have an image from them. Of the 151 separate updates posted to BME in 2005, the following people were represented in the largest number of them:

    1. KIVAKA (61)
    2. Lexci Million (60)
    3. j_scarab (55)
    4. alienboy (51)
    5. Joao_Caldara (45)

    Top experience authors

    I was blown away by the number of articles some people wrote this year, with the top place being a tie of a story submitted on average every twelve and a half days for the entire year! Here are the top authors of 2005:

    #1. 29 stories


    kyo
    #1. 29 stories


    cuthalcoven
    #3. 21 stories


    aniorange


    BlueStar (18)



    psychonautje (15)



    Lozza_mc (15)



    \wolfbane (15)



    Skip3s (14)


    Paindreamer (14)



    hunterjackson (12)


    Anonymous (11)


    Ebowlotus1960 (11)


    WarMaiden (11)


    Anonymous (11)


    Flutterfly (11)

    Honorable mentions (10 experiences): gothicphoenixx, d’Latta, and Orilind.

    Top experience reviewers

    When experiences are posted they first have to move through a moderation process whereby members of the site determine what should be posted and what needs to be sent back for revision first. Of the 7,526 experiences that were posted, the following list shows which reviewers were successfully involved in getting those ones posted (so this doesn’t include the experiences that were rejected):

    1. Ebowlotus1960 (3,387)
    2. deadly pale (2,759)
    3. cuthalcoven (2,618)
    4. Frisky_Vixen666 (2,608)
    5. dressxupxdollie (2,442)
    6. Yknits2001 (2,374)
    7. Skip3s (2,159)

    Top BME newsfeed contributors

    BME’s newsfeed is maintained by a small team of volunteers (anyone can submit stories) who troll news sites finding any articles that might be of body modification interest to readers of BME. The following people posted the greatest number of stories to the newsfeed:

    1. rebekah (2,337)
    2. Ebowlotus1960 (881)
    3. CajunChefClay (392)
    4. piercedjenny (336)
    5. Frisky_Vixen666 (334)

    BME/News Interns and Staff

    In 2005, BME brought on two interns to develop content for BME/News. Much thanks to them for their hard work and articles, and good luck on their future ventures, writing and otherwise:



    snackninja
    Read all of Jordan’s articles


    typealice
    Read all of Gillian’s articles

    In addition, the following people maintained a column in 2005 on BME:



    The Lizardman



    Jim Ward



    FREE



    Fakir Musafar



    Princess_Poop

    QOD Staff

    As it has for years now, BME’s QOD staff tireless answers body modification questions from the public. Here are the members who posted regularly over 2005:



    MONTE



    Gary



    shawn.spc



    spikesandstuds



    amorphous


    LexTalonis


    vampy


    The Fog


    j_scarab


    Lassi

    BMEshop

    BMEshop is a small family business that runs independently from (but is still partnered to) BME. Here’s who makes sure that your BME swag and body modification gear gets to you quickly and at a fair price:



    badseeds


    tcie

    BME Core Staff and Volunteers

    And, of course, BME’s core staff of volunteers and employees:



    badur
    Badur’s done a wide range of things for us including being held hostage by a hostile ISP!



    CT
    CT helps with server maintenance, especially with our IIS servers.



    PhilipBarbosa
    Phil does much of the day-to-day image processing.



    1101001
    Jon maintains and administers many of our UNIX servers and also does development work.


    dita
    Dita runs BMEjapan.com


    Jen
    Jen handles customer support email and manages the experience moderation system.


    Rachel
    Rachel runs the business and financial end of BME and also does server maintenance, installation, contracting, moving, and more.



    glider
    That’s me, Shannon!

    I have almost certainly forgotten people from this list, and for that I apologize! I’ve also I’ve left off related projects like wlfdrgn‘s IAM scholarship, Shawn Porter‘s SPC, and Crow‘s Modified Mind, folks that contribute to ModBlog, that all deserve their own credit as wel.

    But what did they win?

    Everyone you saw mentioned on this page gets a limited edition 2006 BME staff shirt (in whatever color they’d like). The design is based on military unit shirts for those of you who don’t have family in the armed forces, and the latin on the front says “free will”. Anyway, if you see someone wearing one of these, you can bet that they made significant contributions to BME (or perhaps robbed someone who did), and thus influenced the future of the body modification community with their input (thus “PROPHET”) on the back.



    But wait — there’s more! You know I love making t-shirts, so instead of just one staff shirt design for 2006, I’ve made two for winners to choose from. If they appear on this page once, they can choose one of the two shirts, and if they appear more than once, they get both. Shirt number two (available in any color but black or white) is a picture of BME’s pinup of the year, Eva (KitanoKaryuudo) — click here for a closeup:



    In addition, the top five image contributors won $100 gift certificates to BMEshop, as did the top three experience authors. Oh, and everyone here got free access for a year (not that they need it since they contribute so often). I wish I could give out more prizes!

    Thanks again everyone for a great year. Big things are in store in 2006 on a lot of levels; a new content management system, a rewrite of IAM, some new sociopolitical projects, tons and tons of free stickers, and more. I think you’ll like what’s coming…


    Shannon Larratt
    BME.com

  • SMUT: A Look Inside BellaVendetta.com [Guest Column – Stepping Back]

    “If I'm going to sing like someone else, then I don't need to sing at all.”
    Billie Holiday


    Do you have a necrophilia, fire, asphyxiation, bathroom or medical fetish? Do corsets turn you on? Feet? BDSM? How about menstruation? Uniforms? Clowns? Allow me to introduce BellaVendetta.com, a place where you can find all of these things and much more. It’s the place for fetishes that no one wants to admit they have.

    BellaVendetta.com started in late 2003, and has been growing ever since. Bella (IAM:BgirlyPrincapessa), owner of BellaVendetta.com had been watching the “alternative porn” industry grow and was excited to see tattooed and pierced women being more involved with pornography, but she felt there wasn’t enough self-expression happening. Tired of seeing girls with lip rings getting naked in their dorm rooms and other porn clichés, she was interested in seeing the darker side of girls’ sexualities.

    After much deliberation, she took the plunge into entrepreneurship and BellaVendetta.com was born. It probably won’t come as a surprise, but Bella had a lot of problems launching her site. Primarily, she couldn’t find a billing company that would do business with her because of the content, which meant she couldn’t sell memberships. With help from BME’s own Rachel Larratt (IAM:Rachel), Bella was able to find a cooperative billing company and now the people of BellaVendetta are ready to show themselves to the world. Celebrating with a launch party on October 26, in Brooklyn, NY, and everyone’s invited!

    One must wonder if the billing company problem is going to be the last of Bella’s problems. Bush’s War on Porn certainly poses a threat to the future of sites like Bella’s. Bush has enlisted the FBI’s help to try to stop pornographers— regular, run-of-the-mill pornographers— the ones who make porn for adults, featuring consenting adults. It’s all over the media, and it’s something to think about and in this case, rebel against.

    Bella Vendetta offers a safe place for people to explore their kinkier side, and within its pages you’ll find some of the most controversial porn on the market. Let’s all welcome BellaVendetta.com to the industry and wish them the best for the future; and especially with winning the fight against her own government’s goal to close websites like hers.

    Bella Vendetta (IAM:BgirlyPrincapessa), portrait by Gina Wilk

    BME:  What’s your background, Bella?
    BELLA:  I’m twenty-four years old and I grew up all over the northeast of America. I didn’t graduate high school because I felt I was getting a better education by reading a lot and doing various apprenticeships with people I wanted to learn from. I eventually got my GED and went back to the high school I dropped out of and taught a creative writing and a film making course. For the past few years, I’ve done a lot of different things: I’ve travelled around the United States, ran an organic farm and restaurant, attended college, and done costume work for the Berkshire Opera Company and Shakespeare and Company. I own a fashion design company called MyOwnBrain Productions, and am an active member of the Rites of Passage suspension group.
    BME:  How did BellaVendetta.com (BV) start?
    BELLA:  With the alternative porn boom a few years ago, I began submitting photos of myself to various sites but I didn’t get very good feedback: my sets were too extreme, they didn’t want me using real blood or they thought I looked too much like a skinhead. There were a few who accepted my photos, but I didn’t like the way they did business. I had always had the idea to start my own erotica site, but because it seemed like so much work I didn’t know if I should bother.

    I had a boyfriend who didn’t want me to model, so I didn’t for a very long time. He and I eventually broke up, and around that same time I was watching my mother die of cancer. She died very young with many things unfinished and so many things she had wanted to do. I thought fuck it, the time is now, I need to just get on with this. My mother always pushed me to go for what I wanted, even if she didn’t agree with it.

    BME:  Why didn’t your boyfriend like you posing nude? He ended up having a large part in BV, didn’t he?
    BELLA:  He couldn’t understand how I could be comfortable flaunting my sexuality. One day I found out that he had lied and cheated on me. I wanted him to pay for what he had done, for making me feel cheap, for destroying my trust and for every injustice any female has ever suffered. As I yelled at him, I found myself hitting him over and over again. I imagined my fists going thru his skull and into the wall behind him. It was not a pretty scene; a pissed off little Italian girl in boots and braces who has a bit too much rum in her system. He was spitting up blood, blood was sprayed all over the kitchen walls, blood was all over my hands, and you know what? It was hot.

    He told me I looked sexy covered in his blood, I agreed and hit him a few more times until he turned his head and I connected with the side of his skull. I felt my hand break and I got even more pissed off, so started kicking him. I didn’t stop until someone jumped in and stopped the fight. When we were done it looked like a murder scene.

    I kept the blood-stained white tank top I had been wearing as a trophy. I wanted to write something on it, and one night it hit me: “BELLA VENDETTA”

    It’s Italian for Beautiful Revenge.

    Bella Vendetta became a good response to a lot of things after that. I wanted revenge for everything— for our society, our country, our culture. I wanted revenge from every magazine or website that’s rejected my pictures because they were too racy. I wanted revenge and I wanted it to be beautiful.

    Medical fetish?
    BME:  Do you regret hurting him?
    BELLA:  No, not at all: he got what was coming to him. I wouldn’t tell everyone to go out and beat someone up who fucked them over, but I have always been a fan of vigilante justice. It was probably not the most adult way to handle things, but when love and passion are involved there’s not much room for ration. When I broke my hand, I had to quit my day job which pushed me to create BV so it really helped me in a lot of ways.
    BME:  What did he say after it was all over?
    BELLA:  He cried and ran away. But we’re friends now and he’s actually going to model for BV!
    BME:  Who are the BV staff?
    BELLA:  The original cast of characters for the Revenge Krew (both photographers and models) were all close friends of mine, who thought it was a great idea and were more than willing to help. I don’t often approach people that I don’t personally know to work for the site; most of the people on there who aren’t close friends of mine have approached me and wanted to shoot for the site. Every once in a while I’ll come across a really stunning model or photographer and I’ll ask them to participate, but I haven’t had very good luck with that.

    Autumn

    Bertram

    Bastard

    Dementina

    FetishBaby

    Su


    Just a few of BV’s models.

    BME:  Why do you think they aren’t interested in working with BV?
    BELLA:  Generally when someone you don’t know writes you and says, “you’re pretty, you should model for my website but I can’t pay you” the response isn’t very good. Not that I would approach any model in those words anyway, but I understand and respect anyone feelings if they don’t want to model. The only time I get frustrated is when I approach a model and they say no without even going to the site, seeing what it’s about or hearing what I have to say. Some people hear the words “adult oriented” and immediately think they’re going to be exploited or taken advantage of.
    BME:  No one on your site is paid?

    BELLA:  No, nobody is paid! That’s part of the beauty of it. Everyone involved is doing it purely for the love of quality erotica. The only people who have been paid are web designers and programmers. Don’t get me wrong, I think people should be paid for their time and talent, so as soon as some money starts coming in from this project I definitely want to compensate people. But it’s been such a beautiful experience seeing people make art/porn/erotica because they really want to.

    If I was able to pay models I think it’d make more people want to pose, but I don’t want anybody whose sole reason for posing is to make money. Anyone whose first question is “how much are you paying” is someone that probably won’t fit well into the site. My main concern with money right now is making back what I put into getting the site up. Once that happens I hope to make a little bit of profit, but I’m not trying to get rich off taking advantage of anybody.

    BME:  You also have erotica writers, including yourself?
    BELLA:  I do a lot of writing for the site. All the news updates are by me unless otherwise noted, all the descriptions of photosets are be written by me and I do a lot of the erotica writing. Writing is something I don’t even think about anymore, it’s just a part of me. The ability to create mental images and convey emotions with words has always fascinated me. It’s just something I need to do at this point. But what I love even more than writing is reading work, and doing performance poetry and slam competitions and things like that.
    BME:  You’ve got a lot of writing experience, actually. You participate in a few other publications, can you tell me about those?
    BELLA:  Day Xanadu is my personal zine that I’ve been doing for ten years. It’s about my life in general— sometimes there’s political stuff in it, sometimes reviews of others writing, poetry, rants, angry feminist musings and just about everything in between. I usually have one or two contributing artists and/or writers in each issue. It’s the one medium I have where there are no defining lines. It’s an incredibly personal publication. You’ll find things in there about me that I probably won’t even discuss in person, but it’s developed a pretty loyal per-zine following and I’ve grown completely comfortable saying anything and everything in there. I’ve been published in other zines around the world and my writing has also been featured in three spoken word cassettes, read by other people. Raped by a Poet, Best poems of 2001 and on the air of an Italian radio station.
    BME:  How many models, writers and photographers do you have?
    BELLA:  It’s constantly changing, but currently there are about twenty-eight models and forty photographers. I have a lot more waiting for paperwork and other legal nonsense to go through and a lot more models/photographers on my “dream” list that I’ll ask once the site is up and running.
    BME:  How do people apply to be involved in the site? What kinds of things do you look for?
    BELLA:  There are sections on the site where you can fill out an application to be a member of the Krew. You don’t need to have a professional portfolio, and you don’t have to be published anywhere else, but you do need to have a sample to share with us and let us know what you’re capable of doing. There’s no real formula for what we’re looking for because we have really diverse people involved. Some of the writers write for major publications, some have never published a story in their life. Some models are well established and some are trying this for the first time. The only thing that’s a must is creativity.

    Laura (IAM:.onyx) is one of BV’s main writers.

    “His arms pulled me into him, as I nuzzled the side of my face into his chest. His hands motioned down my back and over my ass, squeezing it softly. He slowly moved his hands over to my hips and began sliding them onto my inner thighs. Kissing my neck softly as the warm water fell down his scalp through his hair and onto my back. I turned around facing the corner of the shower reaching my hands up as far as I could reach, with my back arched and my bottom angled up I leaned into the wall…”

    I’d never written erotica before BV. The closest thing I’d come to writing erotica was when I was thirteen and I’d write short stories about boys that I had crushes on— what I’d want to happen and what had happened. I’m not sure if that counts as erotica though. I know one of my English professors would be very surprised to hear that I was writing professionally— she had wanted me to go to an E.S.L. (English as a Secondary Language) office to get some help with my errors!

    When I heard about BV, I wanted to help in any way I could. They needed writers, so I tried it out. Since I started writing I’ve had friends of mine suggest I write for gay and lesbian magazines or to start a book of my own consisting of my short stories. I write as often as I can. Every time I get an idea I start typing feverishly. I never have storyboards for my writing— it just comes out naturally. Thank god I’m a fast typer! So far I’ve donated eighteen stories, and the feedback is great.

    I write the way I like to read erotica. For example, when I read romance novels I always search for the sex scenes and only read them. I like fewer introductions and buildup and instead just getting right into the good stuff. I expose what I’ve experienced, dreamt of and longed for. In the future, I’d like to do a little bit of modeling. My dream photo shoot involved lip sewing, but for now, I’ll leave everything racy to the written word.


    Juicy (IAM:PiercedPuff) is a twenty-two year old from New Jersey and is one of BV’s star models.

    When I was eighteen, I started taking pictures for fun to send into BME. They were mostly of play piercing sessions or BDSM play because that’s what I wanted to see on BME or in BME/Hard galleries. My style of modeling is somewhat paradoxical. I get anxious when I have to call to order pizza or talk to strangers, but I have naked pictures on the internet! One shoot I’ll feel like stepping on someone’s throat and spitting on them, and the next I’ll want to wear my Eeyore toe socks and cuddle with teddy bears. Modeling gives me a lot of self-confidence and has allowed me to come to terms with the things I don’t like about myself. I can now walk around without makeup on or wake up in the morning with my hair silhouetted around my face like a helmet and still feel beautiful.

    I met Bella at a suspension convention and asked her if she’d like to take my picture. I’d modeled before; I’m on a few sites like www.insex.com and www.citykittie.com, and am even in a ModCon book. After meeting her, I modeled for her production company www.myownbrain.com and she became one of my few close friends and a personal inspiration. She embodies so much that I want to be: I love that she makes me stand up for myself and she’s taught me that it’s okay to tell people who hurt me to fuck off.

    You can currently see galleries featuring me in a carpentry porn set, catheter blood bath set, an emo love set with Bella, rooftop liquid latex, getting beaten on a boat by Bella and bowling alley porn with Bella. In the future, I want to do a set where my boyfriend kidnaps me with his van filled with Eeyores and candy, a daddy’s little girl scarification set, tons of play piercing shoots, and I’d love to take dirty pictures at my movie theater after hours, and a Star Wars porn set with light sabers.

    I love posing for BV because I’m not conventional. “Alternative” photographers are sometimes not even into the stuff I am. Most people aren’t into real blood play and they’re not often into taking pictures of me when I’m really scared and crying. Bella is, and that’s one of the reasons why I love her. I’m only interested in modeling now when I can have fun with it. I don’t want to pretend to get tied up and have the cheesy look of surprise on my face for some porn site, I don’t want to get half naked and sit on some bed pretending to cry. I’m a creep and I want to take creepy pictures. I want to put my hair in pigtails and have Bella tie me up until my mascara is genuinely running down my cheeks and blinding my eyes, until my muscles are actually cramping because I can’t move and I am squirming, I want to be able to beg her to stop and honestly be scared when she laughs at me. Bella would never ask me to pretend to look scared, she’d make it happen. And that is why I love Bella Vendetta.


    BME:  Can you give me a beginner’s guide to BV? What kinds of things can you find within its pages?
    BELLA:  There’s about forty different kinks, and we’re still growing! Some of them are:

    80s Trash: Roller-skates and prom dresses, leg warmers and cheap plastic jewelry.
    Bathrooms: Public restrooms, bubble baths and shower scenes.
    BDSM: Bondage, discipline, domination, submission, sadism and masochism.
    Blood Sex: Play piercing, vampirism, and cutting. Currently all the blood play is real blood. Any sets involving special effects makeup or fake blood is in other categories.
    Boots and Braces: Steel toes, suspenders, face smashing, shaved heads, white laces and bleached jeans.
    Clowns: rubber chickens, face paint, clown shoes striped socks and big red noses.
    Deprivation and Asphyxiation: Choking, strangulation, sensory deprivation of any kind, blindfolding and auto erotic asphyxiation.
    Food: Food smearing licking, worshipping, insertion and cooking.
    Foot Worship: Forced foot worship, foot portraits, cute toes, shoes, pedicures and foot bondage.
    Genderfucking: Crossdressing, role playing, strap-ons, sissy boys in tutus and butchy women in suits.
    Graveyards: Cemeteries, fucking gravestones and making imaginary love to the dead.
    Menstrual art: This section is aimed to revolutionize menstruation. It’s revenge for any commercial girls have seen telling them their period is dirty and for any man who wouldn’t make love to them while they were on the rag.
    Necro: Zombie porn, the undead, crime scene victims, sex where one partner plays dead and murder sets.
    Pinups: Glamour shots, rockabilly kings and queens, classic beauty and cheesecake glam. Vintage girdles and nylons with backseams, fingerwaved hair and open toed pumps.
    Smoking: Cigar, cigarette, blunt, joint, pipe, bong and gravity bong smoking.
    Uniforms: Nazis, nurses, flight attendants, postal workers, military personnel, police officers, cheerleaders, waitresses and catholic school girl uniforms.
    Water Sports: Golden showers, urination and women who can pee standing up.

    (L to R) Age play, BDSM, smoking and menstruation kinks.
    BME:  That’s a lot of different subjects. How did you come up with all of them?

    BELLA:  I came up with about eighty-five percent of them, and they all turn me on and it’s the kind of smut I want to see. The rest have been ideas models have had or that fans have written in with. The main idea of the site is to show what gets the models off. No one is does anything they don’t want to do.
    BME:  How do you avoid fake situations— how do you make sure that the girls kissing girls are actually attracted to each other, and that the blood play is real etc?

    BELLA:  I believe that a key factor in anything being fake is money. Because there’s no money involved people are only doing things they actually want to do. There is some fake blood on the site, but we make sure to keep it separated from the real blood play. The girls kissing each other are actually into each other— they’re friends or lovers and they’ve planned to do a shoot on their own accord for no other reason than they think it will be hot. Nobody is paying anybody else to act like they’re interested.
    BME:  What has been some of the feedback on the site?

    BELLA:  People love it! Girls write and thank us for making a site they can look at and not feel bad about, and men write and say thank you for making the kind of site they’ve been dreaming about. Photographers and models tell us that they really like what we’re doing and often tell us that they’d love to be a part of it.
    BME:  You have some very risky subjects though— you must get some negative comments.

    BELLA:  Of course. Most of the hate mail I get is about the age play, necro fetish and substance abuse sections. There was also a message board that had a pretty heated discussion about how nasty the menstrual art section was. I just tell people that I’m sorry they have a problem with the content, but if they want some more vanilla pornography they should try burningangel.com (which I also model for) because it’s my favorite alternative porn site.
    BME:  You seem to have tapped into an unseen market. Who do you see as your competitors? BME/Hard? Suicide Girls?
    BELLA:  I don’t think that BME or Suicide Girls are competition actually. Both sites are doing completely different things than BV is. I can’t find any other site where there’s such an extensive collection of fetishes and hopefully this will help us succeed. One of the things I really love about the adult industry is that there is no competition because there’s room for everyone in the industry.
    Bella, portrait by Gina Wilk.
    BME:  You were very public with the problems you were having getting the site up and running. You were even considering taking down BV. What changed your mind, or what convinced you to keep going with the site?
      I was feeling very burnt out about the whole thing. I was working ten hours a day, every day, on the site and it felt like it was never going to be launched. I couldn’t find anyone to do the billing, models were flaking out left and right, I had an intern who was making my life more difficult instead of easier, I was chasing after people for paperwork and photos they had promised and the relationship I was in was completely falling apart because of out different stances on pornography and sexuality in general. It just didn’t feel worth it anymore. I started the site as a personal journey for myself, and in the process it felt really good to help other people explore themselves and feel accepted too. But at the time, it just felt like nobody really appreciated all the work that was going into everything. So I sent an email out to everyone in involved with the site and asked them if BV had done anything positive for them, and if so, what was it, and did they want to continue with the site and why. The response I got was overwhelming. Every single person wrote back with long explanations of how much they have learned through this whole process, how much they love the site and the community surrounding it. More than a few of the emails brought me to tears. I realized that just because people don’t always openly express their support and gratitude doesn’t mean it’s not there. Everyone had very long and complex explanations as to why they were involved in the site in the first place. The shortest response I got was from one of my models in France, and she said in her broken English, “I so sorry you have problems. Please do not give up, for me, Bella Vendetta is freedom!”

    After all was said and done I felt like I really just needed to finish what I started. I’m not the type of person that gives up, I was just having a moment of weakness. But I think it was important for me to step back and reevaluate why I was doing this and figure out the direction I wanted the project to take. It always seems like just when you want to give up everything falls into place and a fresh opportunity presents itself.

    BME:  Who came through for you at the end?
    BELLA:  Everyone involved with the site came through in a big way, just being honest and sharing their experiences with me. On a personal level, the web designer, Mitcz, really came through for me, reminding me how important this was to me and all the work that had gone into it. Surprisingly enough, my sister and my aunt both thought I should keep the site and not give up, and it felt good to have some support from family members. Shannon and Rachel Larratt (IAM:glider) and (IAM:Rachel) also helped me a lot. I am forever indebted to them because of that. One of my new models really came through and helped me work really long days resizing photos and picking up where my flaky intern had left off.
    BME:  Speaking of your web designer, for the launch of the site you did a complete overhaul on the site. It looks great.
    BELLA:  The site design was completely redone by Reverend Mitcz (IAM:mitcz).A lot has changed since the original design. I went through a lot of people trying to get the right feel for the site and I had a really hard time finding a professional designer that understood what I was going for, and Mitcz has really done my vision justice. He’s been wonderful to work with on many levels. He’s a good friend, knows the porn business, marketing and design inside and out (he’s also the chief designer of vivid.com) and he’s got a seriously twisted mind. Our site isn’t quite ready to sell memberships yet because we’re having a hard time finding a billing provider that’s okay with our content. We’re working on it every single day, so as soon as we find one, we’ll be open for business.
    BME:  You’re having a release party- who’s invited, who’s coming, what’s happening?
    BELLA:  We’re having one hell of a celebration! Everyone is invited!!! Lots of the models and photographers will be there and some of the Krew members are coming all the way from Los Angeles to attend. Lots of the models are performing that evening; there will be a burlesque show, a rope bondage demonstration, a fire performance, a play piercing performance, a strip show, live band, a flesh hook pull raffles, giveaways, and merchandise for sale. It promises to be a fun filled action packed evening. It’s in Brooklyn, NY and I’d love to cram as many people as possible into this space to witness the insanity that I’m sure will ensue.
    BME:  Back to the site. What do you think will be the most popular section?

    BELLA:  Honestly, I have no idea. I think a lot of people come for the blood play because there aren’t many places you can find it. I hope that someone will come looking for a particular section and then discover they like looking at something they never considered sexy before.
    BME:  What’s the best thing about running BV?

    BELLA:  It’s fun! It’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me honestly. My favorite thing is getting letters from fans, models and photographers thanking me for making a site that lets them be who they want to be, or for making a site filled with the kind of smut people actually want to see.
    BELLA:  With the United States government cracking down on porn sites, in their War on Porn, BV is in danger. Are you worried about this? How much does this effect your decision to launch BV and how will you avoid being prosecuted for owning/operating BV?
    BME:  Yes, I believe my site is in a lot of danger. Sites are getting shut down left, right and centre. All this legal nonsense recently definitely made me wonder if right now is a bad time to launch the site, but I think right now is actually the perfect time. This is what the world needs: people who aren’t ashamed and who aren’t afraid to push limits.

    I don’t think I can fully avoid being prosecuted. I have to be prepared for at least some legal repercussions, and luckily all of my legal paperwork is in perfect order. Maybe what this industry needs right now is someone willing to stand up for what they believe in. Who is the US government to tell us what we are allowed to find sexy and what is “obscene.” I find it obscene and offensive that so many other “alternative” porn sites are altering the shoots they have up for fear of legal problems. I want to accurately represent this subculture, not hide behind a lot of pretty pictures, not tell my models that it’s wrong of them to have age play fantasies, etc. This is a community of consenting adults making art to share with the world, and I’ll stand by that 100%.

    BME:  With that, what’s in the future for BV?

    BELLA:  World domination. Straight up.
    I want to change the way the adult industry is run. I want to make a safe place for people to show off their smutty side. And I also want to do a line of video and a lot of live performances. I can’t get into it too much because the details are surprises that I’m not ready to let out of the bag, but I see the live performances as a three ring circus but with nudity and the videos will be quality with actual story lines and amazing performances by our talented Krew.
    BME:  What specific changes do you hope to see in the adult industry?

    BELLA:  I’d like to see more realism and seeing women running things more often. It’s such a male dominated industry, which is funny to me, because it thrives on women. It’s all about what men want to see women doing, so I’d really like for people to become interested in what turns these women on. I think the majority of the adult industry is a lot of men telling women what to do because they think that’s what other men want to see. But I know plenty of men who don’t like blonde girls with cum on their faces. If that’s what turns you on, that’s great, do your thing, but that’s not what turns me on, and I know there’s a market for “intellectual” pornography, if you will. There’s a fine line between erotica/art/porn as it is already, so I’d like to see that blurred even more. I’d like to make people question themselves, “Wow, does this really turn me on?” There’s no thought process behind most porn: it’s penis and vagina and it’s meant to get you off as quickly as possible. What’s really refreshing to me about this whole alternative porn movement is that it’s actually making people think. BV is all about doing things differently. I’d like to kick things up a few notches.
    Although BellaVendetta.com enters into some of the “faux pas” subjects of pornography, it’s always done in a safe and responsible way. All of the models posing are of legal age, and most importantly— they’re doing it because they want to. No one is waving dollar bills in their faces and bribing them to do things that they don’t feel comfortable with. It may push people’s sexual limits, but does it in a harmless way. I wish Bella and her Krew luck and success with avoiding crack downs by the US Government and FBI, and hope they have a long and prosperous future in the real alternative porn industry.

    — Gillian Hyde (IAM:typealice)


    Gillian Hyde (IAM:typealice) is a vagabond, though her roots run deep into Nova Scotian soil. She’s lived and worked on three continents since 2001, and has never lived anywhere for longer than eight months since the age of 16. She loves fonts, puns, being barefoot and office supplies. Calm to her is the roar of the ocean.

    Online presentation copyright © 2005 BMEzine.com LLC. Requests to republish must be confirmed in writing. For bibliographical purposes this article was first published online October 11th, 2005 by BMEzine.com LLC from La Paz, BCS, Mexico.

  • Adiós! Gillian Hyde’s Last BME Article: Your Questions Answered [Guest Column – Stepping Back]

    “I took the road less travelled by, and that has made all the difference.

    —Robert Frost


    Before working for BME I couldn’t bear to look at knee suspension pictures. Two weeks after working for BME, I was announcing to the world that I had bitten off my boyfriend’s ring finger at the same time he had bit off mine as an act of love. To say that my life has changed would be an understatement.

    Sometime in November of 2004, BME advertised that they were going to be hiring their first official employee— a journalist who would be in charge of writing articles for BME/News and I immediately sent in my application. In early December Shannon sent me, along with seven other applicants, a message saying we’d made it to the second round. I was ecstatic.

    The next step of the process was to write an article to prove that we could handle the responsibilities the job would entail. To be completely honest, I had no idea what I was doing. I’d never written an article before, never conducted an interview— I felt completely out of my element, but after a bit of encouragement and patience from Shannon and Rachel, my first article was published. Mothers with Mods, my interview with IAM:Orinda, and I got very good reviews in the comment forum accompanying the article, and on the poll on the main BME site asking the question, “Which of the writers do you think could do a good job as BME staffers?” I was winning with forty-six percent of the 2000 votes— twenty percent higher than the closest person behind me.

    And then there were three. Jordan (IAM:snackninja) and Matt (IAM:volatile) were the other finalists, and up until that point, our identities were anonymous. It was nice to be exposed and take credit for our work. A few days later it was announced that Jordan (author of the Keith Alexander article) and I were both chosen to become interns.

    In early March I sold my Vespa moped, broke my lease, left my boyfriend, friends and small mountain town in British Columbia and moved to Mexico.

    It would turn out to be one of the most life-altering things I’ve ever done.

    I’ve been lucky to talk to hundreds of new people because of my internship with BME and I decided that for my final article I’d let them ask me anything they want to know. I’ve been asking questions for six months, I think it’s time that I answered some.

    Gillian Hyde

    DREAM WEAVER Do you feel you were the best candidate for this internship given the other talented applicants and do you feel you’ve grown as a writer/journalist during this internship?
    GILLIAN:  I think most of the candidates were talented and they could have done just a good of job as I, if not better, but yes, I believe I was one of the two best candidates. I felt a woman’s voice was lacking on BME, and I think I was able to fix that, if even for a little while. While Shannon enjoys exploring and exposing the really interesting “freaky” stuff, I think I contrasted that a little— I gave an educated “outsiders view” while still being involved in the industry and community.
    SAVAGERABBIT Do you feel you gave the internship all you could? What would you have done differently?
    GILLIAN:  If I could have done things differently, I would have changed my path about seven years ago when I graduated high school. A degree in English or Journalism probably would have helped me succeed at this job. I’m sure that attending some BME events or gotten more modifications, witnessed a suspension, seen a split tongue in person (none of which I’d done previous to getting the job) — generally gotten more involved with the community as a whole would have helped. I came into this position with my eyes wide open, but in some ways I felt more out of touch with the body modification scene than ever. I’d never heard of some of the most popular IAM members, I didn’t know what events were coming up and any BMEfest or Bar-B-Q stories were totally lost on me. I probably had Shannon and Rachel worried that they’d hired the wrong person when they noticed that I wasn’t following the conversation when it came to BME and IAM gossip or news. At the same time, I came into this position unbiased towards people and eager to learn without having preconceived notions about anything or anyone.
    GOAT What did you not enjoy about working for BME?
    GILLIAN:  The pressure was the hardest thing to deal with. I work with some very talented writers, and I came into this job never having interviewed someone before and never writing more than essays in university six years previous. BMEzine.com gets millions and millions of hits a day, so there was always a lot of internal pressure to write about interesting things in an interesting way. I wanted to impress people and for the first couple of months I felt like I had no idea what I was doing, which was extremely frustrating. Now that my internship is over, I feel like I could easily continue— I’m pretty comfortable writing now, and for that reason, it’s a little sad that it’s coming to an end.
    IMMORTAL BELOVED How did you choose the topics for your articles?
    GILLIAN:  At the beginning of our internship, Shannon gave Jordan and I a list of about a hundred people that he was interested in featuring in an article. We scavenged that list and checked off the people that we wanted to do interviews with. If I found someone or something myself that I thought was article-worthy (the Taking it to the Next Level, Marked For Life: Tattoos Behind Bars, Quilt of Life, No Boys Allowed — Introducing the All Grrls Suscon and the All Grrls Suscon 2005 Video Report articles were my ideas), I would approach Shannon with the idea and he’d either approve or deny it.
    ATHENA How did you go about research, building, editing and reworking a piece?
    GILLIAN:  I was always working on at least three articles at a time. I loved researching. I’d usually start by talking to Shannon about the person or idea, and he’d suggest different things to ask and tell me a brief background of the person or topic. Once I had a bit of direction, I’d read as much as I could about it; if they had an IAM page, I’d read every diary entry and create questions around the information Shannon had given me and what they’ve told the online public. With the exception of Quilt of Life and Kivaka: Bedside Manner Like a Nun, as they were both phone interviews, I’d email an initial set of questions to get a feel for what direction the article would go in. I’d usually have an idea about how the article was going to go before writing the first set of questions, but generally I’d wait until I got back their answers to focus on one area. The email interview process would normally be composed of three different sets of questions and answers and depending on people’s schedules, they’d often take anywhere from a few days to a few weeks to get back to me. Once all of the answers were in, I’d read everything over several times, write an intro and format the Q&A section so that it looked like we were having a conversation, which was very important because it added fluidity to the article. It involved rearranging, cutting up or combining answers and rephrasing questions or answers. After the article was complete, I’d put it into HTML and edit the photos and insert them into relevant parts of the final draft. Each article took anywhere from twenty hours and up, the most time consuming part (outside of waiting for answers) was proofreading and editing.
    GLIDER What skills do you feel that you developed while writing/interviewing, and what skills do you feel didn’t develop as much as you’d have liked?
    GILLIAN:  My ability to go into depth in my articles has improved. I had a hard time asking tough questions, or trying to push people out of their comfort level in order to get the whole story. It’s very difficult for me to pry, especially over email. I didn’t want to piss people off, so I ended up asking a lot of safe questions— which didn’t always work when people want to read about controversial topics. I think that my style of writing and chosen topics appealed to a certain demographic. Jordan, you (Shannon) and I all have very different techniques of writing, and we’re all interested in writing about different things. I think that a few of the people that I interviewed wouldn’t have been as comfortable talking to men about some of the topics as they were with me (Quilt of Life and No Boys Allowed — Introducing the All Grrls Suscon and the All Grrls Suscon 2005 Video Report would have been impossible, for example). I would have loved to be more of a versatile writer, but I am happy with who I spoke with and what I wrote.
    GLIDER If BME runs another ‘Intern Search’ what advice would you have to people applying?
    GILLIAN:  Stand out. Let Shannon and Rachel know how you’d like to see BME improve, and convince them that you’re the best person for that job.

    Love the industry. Know as much as you can about the people, events and practices— anything that has to do with body modification.

    Have an open mind at all times. Don’t be judgmental about anything body modification related. You don’t have to participate in it yourself, but you have to accept that other people may do it and it’s probably important to them.

    Ask interesting questions. Don’t be afraid to push people’s limits.

    Work independently and work hard. Shannon and Rachel work very hard on their responsibilities within BME, the last thing they want to do is to have to worry about whether or not their employees are doing their job. BME should be your life, just like it is theirs. Shannon and Rachel’s lives revolve around BME and have for over ten years, so they want people who will work just as hard as they do.

    MONICA What is the “behind-the-scenes” at BME like?
    GILLIAN:  Surprisingly normal and often boring! Most of the time that I lived in Mexico I spent ignoring Mexico and lived in my computer instead. Clive once said, “Working in Mexico is a lot different than vacationing in Mexico.” Working for BME required us to be online for the majority of the day. If any of us needed to talk, we’d be more likely to IM each other rather than call or visit the person. The entire BME family (Shannon, Rachel, Nefarious, Jon, Jordan, Clive, and I) would meet for dinner every night. We ate a lot of tacos. Occasionally we’d have chili, but ninety-nine percent of the time we’d eat tacos. You can tell there’s a good cook in the house when you can eat tacos every night and not get tired of them. Over dinner we’d gossip about IAM members or work on our ideas for articles, talk about current events or past experiences. Sometimes we’d drink and talk for hours.
    PERK900 The All Girls Suscon article that you wrote seemed to be a heavily debated topic, both online and off. Did the fact that it would be a “controversial” topic make it more appealing to write? Did you find it difficult to “step back” writing this one specifically?
    GILLIAN:  Both of the All-Grrl Suscon pieces were my favorite ones to do. I knew that they’d be controversial and it definitely made it more appealing to work on. I was able to “step back” while writing the first article because at the time I’d never seen a suspension before and I didn’t attend last year’s event. The fact that I am a woman could only take me so far in defending the event because I didn’t personally know how women were treated in the suspension community, but I really enjoyed being able to voice the opinion of some women who felt that they were being oppressed. I hope that the articles can bring a positive change to the community and allow men see that women don’t always feel like they’re treated like equals.

    It was a lot harder to “step back” from my video-article because I specifically wrote it from my point of view as a first-time-Suscon-attendee. I went to the event hoping to capture the emotion and vulnerability that goes hand-in-hand with suspensions, and I think I accomplished that. I wanted to do a video of the day’s events so the people who felt excluded (men, specifically) would feel better about the event and so they could get a feel for the atmosphere when it’s just women involved.

    HOLYJESUSBONER Did you ever (somehow) walk in on Shannon and Rachel naked? Did you try?
    GILLIAN:  I’m happy to say that I’ve never seen Shannon or Rachel naked, but I didn’t live with them so it was fairly easy to avoid. I did live with Jordan however, but all of my plans to see him naked were foiled by my other roommate, Clive.
    HOLYJESUSBONER Were you friends with Shannon or Rachel before the internship?
    GILLIAN:  I’d never spoke to either of them on the phone, let alone met them previous to flying down to Mexico. I don’t think I ever spoke to Rachel online before the application process, and had only ever private messaged with Shannon a few times.
    PERK900 What was the most rewarding experience of your time spent as a BME intern?
    GILLIAN:  BMEfest. I loved meeting everyone who came to Mexico. I hadn’t met many IAMers before, and at the end of June I was overwhelmed with new faces. The entire day of BMEfest was special— from swimming with the sea lions, to visiting the deserted beach, to the after-party. I met wonderful people and had really interesting conversations and drank too much and had a lot of fun.

    I also loved seeing the feedback in the forums after each article was published. The act of having my work published felt like an accomplishment alone, but to have people say such positive things about my work (on BME and on other sites) was really wonderful, in a completly narcissistic way. Any criticism I received allowed me to fix the things that needed it and made me work harder.

    ERICA Why are you leaving BME?
    GILLIAN:  My internship position was only ever planned to last six months, which is now complete. I’ve moved to the British Virgin Islands and don’t really have the time necessary to write full articles consistantly. You haven’t gotten rid of me yet though! I plan on writing the occasional piece work for BME, but I will be taking a break for a while.
    BMEfest, one of the best days of my entire internship.

    PERK900 Not to sound derogatory, but one would say you’re “lightly modified.” Did you find this debilitating as you were now a voice of the “modified” community?
    GILLIAN:  I figured someone was going to bring this up. To be honest, I was concerned about my “under-modification” hindering my ability to get this job, but the more I thought about it, the more I realized that I represent a large part of this community. Not everyone on IAM is heavily modified— there are a lot of people who look like me and it doesn’t make me less a part of the community. I am knowledgeable about body modification and most importantly, I am open-minded about it. I don’t find my lack of modifications “debilitating” at all.

    The reasons why I’m not more heavily modified are because I have a hard time committing to things, I’m a minimalist and I travel too much. I haven’t lived somewhere for longer than eight months since I was sixteen. I have never owned a cell phone or a car. I’ve broken every lease I’ve ever signed. I don’t currently own a plant, a table, a television or any of the other things that most people own, and I love it. If I can’t even commit to those things, I certainly cannot commit to a tattoo or other major work.

    Because I don’t spend a lot of time in one place makes it hard to find professionals that I can trust. I don’t want to be tattooed by a stranger and it’s hard for me to find symbols to put on my body that represent things in my life because I’m constantly changing.

    My lifestyle requires a lot of money, so when I have it I’m more likely to spend it on plane tickets or other travelling expenses. The things I’m most proud of having in this world are my ticket stubs, my journals and my photographs.

    PERK900 Did this illicit any kind of adverse reaction from interview subjects or “heavily modified” individuals whom you came in contact with during your internship?
    GILLIAN:  None at all actually, and it surprised me. Until you asked me this question, no one had said anything about me being only “slightly” modified. I think people realized that BME had hired a writer, not someone who looked modified. I’ve been a member of this community for longer than a lot of people who are more modified than I, and I feel comfortable where I am modification-wise. Which brings me to this question…
    Some of my “minimal” modifications.

    CERE Who had the first tongue split you ever saw?
    GILLIAN:  Yours, baby! You’ve never let me forget it and you felt it necessary to tell everyone about it during BMEfest, which was slightly embarrassing! I can still hear your voice yelling, “You work for BME and you’ve never seen a split tongue? You live next door to Shannon, who has one, and you’ve never seen one? How in the HELL did you get your job?”

    Cere was the first and only person to react to my lack of experience and mods (at least to my face), but I expected it from him— and I was honestly glad that someone finally brought it up, because I knew he wasn’t the first person to think it. It was nice to have it out in the open.

    REBEKAH Are you considering more mods? If so or if no, because of anyone you’ve interviewed?
    GILLIAN:  I am planning on more modifications, specifically more tattoos. I plan on starting a comma trend on my body. My only tattoo is of a comma, which means “silent pause.” It’s the only symbol I’ve found that truly represents something consistent in my life: the moments where everything changes. It’s the before, comma, after moment. The comma on my lower abdomen represents my first time travelling when I was getting frustrated with the fact that I was just another tourist, looking at all the same monuments that millions of other people had seen before me. It wasn’t until my “comma” moment that I realized that it didn’t matter how many other people had seen the same things that I was seeing— I was the only person in that space and time, and that’s all that mattered. From then on, my entire trip changed, and my addiction to travelling began.

    I’d love to get a ribcage piece of a large baobab tree with a comma incorporated to represent the time I spent living and working in West Africa’s The Gambia.

    I’ve nearly run out of places to pierce, but I love nape piercings and will probably get it done at some point.

    My dream modification is to get my ears pointed, though I’m not sure if I’ll ever go through with it. I love the way it looks and I’ve got small ears and I think it’d suit me.

    My only opinion that’s changed is about suspension. Before working for BME, I had no interest in suspension and basically no knowledge about it because of my complete lack of curiosity. After meeting Clive (of the Uvatiarru and one-hook, one-elbow suspension fame), things changed. I became more and more interested in it, and have basically decided that I’m going to do a suicide suspension the first chance I get. After seeing my first suspensions during BMEfest (most memorably the one by IAM:spot and IAM:brion), I was convinced it was something I’d like to do, and this need was increased when I went to this year’s All Grrls Suscon.

    DRAGON Is there any mod that makes you squeamish?
    GILLIAN:  Having a boyfriend who spent hundreds of hours editing videos for BMEvideo, I’ve seen things that I never thought I’d see in my life. The only thing that I got squeamish about was, surprisingly enough, finger amputation. Everything else— castration, nullification, skin peeling (though I admit, I was a little short of breath when I watched Lukas Zpira’s Like a Butterfly within the first couple of weeks of my internship), vacuum pumping, CBT— all of these things are easy to watch, nightmare-free.
    PERK900 Are there parts of BME that you disagree with or consider going too far?
    GILLIAN:  The only thing that I don’t agree with is self-cutting as a way for people to deal with problems. It’s a hot topic on BME, but my stance is that it shouldn’t be considered “body modification” unless it’s done primarily as beautifying scarification. I don’t think cuts from anger or frustration or sadness should be encouraged as a positive coping mechanism, mostly because it’s done out of rash feelings that will change over time. Emotional scars are hard enough to deal with, let alone physical scars from those emotions.
    THE LIZARDMAN What opinions or ideas you held about BME, modification, modified people, etc (if any) have been changed as a direct result of your internship experience?
    GILLIAN:  It’s really hard to remember the way I thought eight months ago because my entire world has been flipped upside-down, but the things I’ve learned are:
    If you meet someone who’s green and you’ve never seen them in any other colour, they don’t actually look different than anyone else.
    Even misspelled tattoos can have meaning.
    People in the body modification community are some of the nicest, open-minded and beautiful people in the world— but I didn’t need the internship to tell me that.
    SOMETRIPE

    How did moving to and living in La Paz affect your internship experience? Furthermore, was this effect positive or negative?

    GILLIAN:  Moving to La Paz was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. I drove scooters and a dune buggy, I saw the Pacific for the first time and swam with sea lions, I was near the beach and fields of cacti, I rescued kittens and avoided rain for the entire four months that I lived there, but the best thing to come out of La Paz was finding the love of my life, Clive (IAM:Rookie).
    Gillian and Clive

    HOLYJESUSBONER Why bother moving to Mexico to work for BME; would you rather have stayed home (could you have stayed home and still have managed to write all the articles you did)?
    GILLIAN:  Who in their right mind would pass up an opportunity to live in Mexico for six months? One of the reasons that I’ve travelled so much and have had such an extensive range of experiences is because I never pass up a good opportunity. Sure, I could have stayed in Canada to do the job, but the fact that part of the internship was to move to Mexico was one of the reasons I applied for the position in the first place.
    VOLATILE What’s next?
    GILLIAN: 

    One of the main reasons why Clive and I left Mexico early was because we wanted to move to the British Virgin Islands. Clive was born there and feels a strong connection to the island on which he was born, and I love anywhere that is hot and has the ocean, so it sounded like a good plan. We planned to stay in Canada until November and save some money, but because of some very cheap plane tickets, we flew down on August 30. We camped for a week and we’re currently renting a small apartment on the top of a mountain. We’d love to have visitors, so contact us if you’re up for a trip!

    Clive will be working at a day job while I focus on various web development work. (Shameless plug: if you’re looking for a web designer, please contact me!)

    My long term goals are to settle down a little bit. I’d love to own a sewing machine again and have a garden with peas and carrots. I want to have cats. I really want to live in a farmhouse somewhere near the ocean.

    GLIDER:  Will you and Clive be doing writing/video on your own projects in BVI? (ie. an expat’s magazine, whatever)

    GILLIAN:  I’d love to. Clive’s done a lot of video work and with my recent All Grrls Suscon mini-documentary, I feel confident that he and I could create another installment for Uvitaritu, or do something on our own. I plan on writing online about our time here, similar to MyGambia blog.
    SOLARIS You’ve been to all these amazing places and done loads of exciting things but is there any place or thing that you would want to do or go so badly that if you did it or went there that you could be content if you never travelled again after that?
    GILLIAN: 

    I don’t think any one place can really make you want to stop travelling. If anything, a terrible experience would make me want to stay in one spot for the rest of my life. Visiting different places makes me want to keep doing it— it never has the opposite effect. In the past six years I’ve lead a very full life.

    I’ve seen volcanoes in Italy, visited fetish bars in France, gone shopping in London, lived amongst some of the poorest people in the world in West Africa, worked for billionaires in Florida and millionaires in Luxembourg, gone on countless road trips through the United States and Canada, smoked hash in Amsterdam, sunbathed on black sand beaches in Greece, and most recently, camped in the jungle in the British Virgin Islands… I never want to stop, but I’ll probably slow down. My lifestyle is often exhausting.

    CERE If a dildo is inserted in a man’s ass but the words “good game” are uttered afterwards, is it still gay?
    GILLIAN:  No, it’s not gay. You can do anything as long as you say “good game” afterwards. If I grab your balls it’s not considered cheating on my boyfriend as long as I say “good game.” If you grab my boobs or ass, I’m only allowed to enjoy it if you say “good game,” etc etc. The power of “good game” is limitless.

    My experience working for BMEzine.com has been wonderful. I’ve been able to talk to the most interesting people, live in Mexico and work for a company that has changed the body modification industry. I’ve been a small part in something very big, and I have every one of you to thank. Thank you to those who agreed to be interviewed by me and let everyone take a peak into your life. Thank you to Shannon and Rachel who saw something in my writing and took a chance on me, and thank you, most of all, to the people who read my articles and supported me along the way.

    “For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.”
    Judy Garland


    Signing off,

    — Gillian Hyde (IAM:typealice)


    Gillian Hyde (IAM:typealice) is a vagabond, though her roots run deep into Nova Scotian soil. She’s lived and worked on three continents since 2001, and has never lived anywhere for longer than eight months since the age of 16. She loves fonts, puns, being barefoot and office supplies. Calm to her is the roar of the ocean.

    Online presentation copyright © 2005 BMEzine.com LLC. Requests to republish must be confirmed in writing. For bibliographical purposes this article was first published online, 2005 by BMEzine.com LLC from La Paz, BCS, Mexico.

  • Dermal Anchoring, The Dermal Anchor “Piercing” Procedure [The Publisher’s Ring]

    Dermal Anchoring


    “Today every invention is received with a cry of triumph which soon turns into a cry of fear.”

    – Bertolt Brecht

    It’s not often these days that I get to document a new type of body modification procedure — most procedures are long since invented — so I was thrilled when Ben from House of Color in Colorado Springs sent me the following two photos titled, “eye boogie”.

    The procedure, which he calls dermal anchoring, is something he came up with a few years ago and he feels he’s perfected over the last year. It’s starting to take off in Colorado Springs — Ben says he can’t make the custom jewelry fast enough to keep up with demand — and if it works as well as he says it does, perhaps that trend will spread even farther.

    Among other things, you may remember Ben as the third person to hold the Guiness World Record for the most number of piercings on a single person in a single session (back in 2001 it was 227 piercings). Running from that notoriety he’s settled down at House of Color (“the first shop I really call home”).


    Ben with a client

    BME:  I assume you first considered the options of surface piercings and transdermal implants which cover similar territory?

    BEN:  Surface piercings and transdermal implants are very solid procedures — surface piercings are great, but if there’s too much tension on the skin or if they’re too heavy, they reject — you can counteract this by piercing deeper and through more tissue, but this means a longer healing time, increased infection risks, and a look that might not be right for the location. And transdermal implants need a lot of skill, and if done wrong can cause serious problems — just look at the words alone: the big one is “implant”. That means it’s permanent, and to remove it is a lengthy and very painful process. BME:  Dermal anchoring seems similar to single-point pocketing? BEN:  Yes, it is very close, although the dynamics and the design of the jewelry are what make it different. Really, I developed this procedure on a dare! My friend wanted the outside of her eye done. I didn’t want to risk the rejection from a surface piercing, and we only wanted one bead showing anyway. I offered her an implant, and she told me to fuck off, adding that I was smart enough to figure out another way — so I spent a few months hitting the books and making jewelry prototypes.

    Cam was starting to become a pest about it, and eventually I was ready to try. The feeling of doing the procedure was overwhelming and made me sick to my stomach — I was so scared that if she moved, I’d hit her eye, and let’s face it — insurance won’t cover this.

    BME:  Was the procedure successful? BEN:  Yes, but unfortunately even after all that, the jewelry fell out in her sleep two days later. The jewelry was the problem — it wasn’t holding to the skin. I’ve been through six generations of jewelry design now — a few willing victims and a bit of trial and error development, and after the third or fourth time I started installing them in myself so no one else would get hurt — but I’ve finally got it right. I’m doing it in 18ga for anywhere around the eye, and 16ga to 12ga for other locations… I have five different kinds of jewelry in various designs up to high motion pieces that look like a scary fish hook… The geometry of the jewelry is the key to making it last.


    Dermal anchor jewelry

    BME:  How do you put the jewelry in? You said it’s simpler than a transdermal…

    BEN:  All it takes is a normal needle, the jewelery, and a steady hand. First you read the skin grain and watch the way it moves and bends. Let’s use the example of an outer eye — the grain is horizontal to the center of the eye. Lift the skin (eye closed) and insert the needle, without letting it come out the other side, going about a quarter of the way down on the needle stop. Then make a quick quarter turn and remove the needle, spinning it in reverse from your quarter turn. Next push the jewelry in place, and jiggle it lightly to move the flap into the crease in the jewelry. Finally, press down for about ten seconds.


    Dermal anchor procedure

    BME:  That’s really clever — how is the aftercare and healing?

    BEN:  Assuming the customer does what they’re told, they do great. For the first week they need to press on it six or seven times a day and cover it with a bandage at night, just until the anchor grabs the tissue better… Healing is really beautiful — minimal to no bruising, no blood after the jewelry is in… They just need to keep it clean with soap and saline solution every three hours. In dry climates like we have here in Colorado I’ve found it doesn’t dry out the tissues. BME:  And the success rate? BEN:  After I got the jewelry right, of the twenty or so I’ve done, the people who’ve taken care of them have had complete success. Those that haven’t taken care of it still tend to have the jewelry, but it shifts and moves out a little.


    So close to the eye!

    BME:  How do people react to dermal anchors when they see them?

    BEN:  “How is that in there?!” — they think it’s glued on… But most people really like them. A few piercers have tried to copy it but just managed to hurt and mess up their customers — of the shop whores in town got one done and then had to come to me two weeks later to remove it… and then asked me to do it right. I said no, which is good because I later found out her plan was to take it to another piercer so he could copy the jewelry…

    Co-workers have pushed me to release it to the world, but I’m taking things slow. It’s still really new and I don’t promote it too much. If people ask, I tell them about it — normally the pictures in my portfolio get the conversation started. My philosophy as a piercer is that if you’re doing this for the money, you’re going about it wrong. This is an art form, and that is how it must be treated. That’s when your best work will come out.


    Dermal anchor “ring”

    BME:  Have you observed any risks that are unique to this procedure?

    BEN:  Not really… without any upward pressure on the skin, normal rejection doesn’t even happen. I guess if you go to a mosh pit, yeah, but you could also have your teeth “reject” there too. It’s just really important that people take care if it — you practically have to staple the aftercare instructions to their shirt for them to remember… But that’s all there is to it. BME:  Any advice to piercers who’d like to try this? BEN:  Please call me. I’ll tell you whatever you need to know, or if you live in Colorado or are making a stop, come in and say what’s up… Don’t try and do these with just your skill under your belt unless you’re really good. I’ve seen what happens when some guy says “I can do that”, and it doesn’t look pretty.


    Multi-anchor star arrangement

    Ben can be reached at House of Color in Colorado Springs at 719-390-4128, or you can drop him an email at [email protected]. By the time you read this, he may already have his first batch of jewelry from his manufacturer (all of the earlier pieces were custom made by him). If there’s an interest they’ll add the jewelry to their catalog, so you can talk to him about that as well.

    Thank you to Ben for talking to us about this procedure, congratulations to him on being part of a that small roster of artists to contribute a new procedure, and I look forward to seeing more dermal anchoring in the future.


    Shannon Larratt
    BME.com

  • ONANISME MANU MILTARI II by Lukas Zpira [The BME Book Review]

    ONANISME MANU MILTARI II by Lukas Zpira

    FIRST, LOOK INSIDE… THE BOOK IS THE ART

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    A review by Shannon Larratt

    Lukas Zpira, as a person, is extremely stylish and fashionable, and this book, intended to capture his artistic vision, mirrors that aesthetic. But I must be honest with you. I’m not a stylish or fashionable guy, and it’s probably fair to say that I am actively unfashionable in fact. Not only that, but I don’t care much for modern art, and less for the explanations artists use to justify it — so much so that it makes it difficult for me to relate to this book, and for that I apologize.

    An enormous amount of effort has been done on processing and manipulating the photos and layout. In some ways this is good, because it captures the feel of Lukas Zpira as an artist, but, on the other hand, it also distorts the images so much that what most of us perceive as Lukas’s actual art, contained in the photos, is difficult to make out and is no longer able to speak for itself. Rather than presenting the pieces as they were created, the book retells them not as the world sees them, but as Lukas Zpira sees them. One could also argue that nearly all of the photos in the book have already been published online in a far clearer and more effective way.

    The text of the book I feel makes the same presentation error (or success), although I’m sure a great deal is lost in the translation (it is written with both English and the original French). Most of the writing is highly philosophical, abstract, and arty, and in some ways feels like it’s “trying” to be so. For me, body art is a very down to earth subject, and personally I like seeing it presented in terms that are honest and tangible. Since I couldn’t relate to most of the text, I found myself seeing it as boring, shallow, and misleading. Maybe I’m missing the point, or maybe other people are fooling themselves into thinking there’s a point a la The Emperor Wears No Clothes. I have no idea.

    While I do believe that this limited edition book is an essential addition to any body modification and body art library, I worry that Lukas Zpira has perhaps limited himself by presenting such a pure expression of his art — of himself — rather than opening a clearer channel for the uninitiated — or those like me with different tastes — to understand it. Or perhaps those people will never understand the core of what Lukas Zpira is saying — it’s not as if I’ve gotten better at choosing clothes that match as I’ve aged. If anything, I’ve gotten worse.

    But really, I’m looking at and reviewing the book in entirely the wrong way. It’s not a portfolio of Lukas’s work. It’s not a grounded discussion of scarification, piercing, and surgical body modification, nor is it supposed to be. If you’re looking for that, you won’t enjoy or find meaning in the book. But if you come into the experience looking to discover the essence of Lukas Zpira’s vision, independent of the corporal aspect of his work, you’ll find it. ONANISME MANU MILITARI II exists separate from the scalpels and the spatulas, and even separate from the skin that adorns its pages — it is a work of art in and of itself.

        – Shannon Larratt


    A Review by Jordan Ginsberg

    To give credit where it’s due, few artists in the body modification community have propelled themselves to “rock star” status quite like Lukas Zpira has. Really, he’s like the U2 of body artists: From day one, he’s made himself out to be the biggest, most interesting and important thing out there, and has done so with no apologies. Initially making a name for himself as a world-class scarification artist, Zpira quickly began winning crowds over with his sideshow-cum-fetish performance art group, ART KOR, which fused suspension and bloodletting with more traditional fetishistic aspects — such as Japanese rope bondage — in a far more sexual manner than many other performers were embracing at the time. Thanks to the uniqueness of his work, his larger-than-life attitude about himself, and his relentless touring schedule — taking his act and his art all over the world many times over — Lukas quickly reached veritable celebrity status.

    More than just a showman though, Zpira has always emphasized the philosophical backing behind the work that he does and the lifestyle he espouses, a body of thought that he’s dubbed “Hacktivism.” Rather than following the path of the modern primitives, Zpira’s Hacktivism seems to be the modus operandi of the cyberpunk-fakir — a methodology based on how these rites of the flesh relate to the future rather than their tribal histories.

    Onanisme Manu Militari II, Zpira’s new Hors-Editions book, is an unfortunate misfire in several respects, particularly due to its attempts to be too many things at once; unsure of whether it wants to be a photography-based coffee table book or a philosophical guide, the result is a messy synthesis of the two.

    The book is not an absolute disappointment, of course. Primarily a photo-based work, shots from a variety of photographers — including Zpira himself — are included, and by and large it’s all top-notch. Bright, brilliantly saturated colors contrasted with heavy shadows bring out the best in the subjects, whether they’re clients of Lukas’ bearing scars or implants he’s performed, or occasionally even Lukas himself. As a showcase of his work, the book works extremely well; Lukas is undoubtedly highly skilled, and brings to the table an exciting, unique style of scarification, as well as fresh takes on implant designs and other pseudo-surgical procedures such as ear-pointing and tongue-splitting, all of which get their time in the spotlight in the book. Often augmented with distressed filters and scorched backgrounds, the images themselves are generally striking and fascinating; sadly, they suffer from the book’s small format. Presented on standard 8.5 by 11” paper, high-quality glossy as it may be, photos such as these would have benefited far more from being published in a larger format, more traditional coffee-table book size. With shots as busy and full as these, each one should be treated more like an event than as just another page in a book, so to speak.

    Where the wheels really begin to come off, however, is the textual content. Again, Zpira is markedly philosophic in his background, and I wouldn’t suggest that he’s anything but authentic in his beliefs; that said, the written portions of the book largely come off as little more than pretension masking an absence of viable content. Though the text is limited to a handful of short essays — printed in both English and French — that are seldom longer than a single page, they’re as distracting as they are difficult to concentrate on. Now, this is not to put it all on Lukas — there are a number of authors featured in addition to Zpira, though their segments are essentially limited to discussing their (very, very similar) takes on Lukas himself, rarely reaching beyond fellatious back-slapping and sophomoric musings on any number of “cyber”-based compound words.

    Now, while not written by Lukas, the inclusion of these passages speaks as little more than blatant self-aggrandizement, which is not necessarily out of place altogether, but the extent of its presence here is somewhat suspect. Zpira’s portions, while marginally more substantial, are unfortunately disappointing as well—because they often suggest that there is more to the story than he chose to share. Ranging from the autobiographical and the political to the poetic and apocalyptic, the topics covered are broad in scope, yet all coalesce at a similar yet borderline incoherent point; south of “Be what you want to be,” but just north of “Evolve or die!”

    Zpira’s philosophy is almost transhumanist in some respects; not simply an acknowledgement that the human body is imperfect, it also embodies an effort to correct this biological error. Though, while transhumanists typically seek more medical and scientific-related fixes, the Hacktivist revolution is ostensibly an aesthetic one; a method of reinventing one’s self by reshaping one’s image and identity; better living through keloids, if you will. And of course, this is not to discount it, but to see it propped up as a grand calling of the future is mostly disingenuous, and tragically overblown.

    Finally, clocking in at a brisk 126 pages, the 40-Euro (roughly $50 USD) price tag is quite steep. Were it in a larger format and maybe 100 pages longer, focusing more on the photography and less on pretentious techno-babble, such a cost may be justifiable. It’s well produced, with a sturdy hardcover and unquestionably high-quality images, but the presentation simply does not do the art justice. While this is without question a must-have for admirers of Lukas and his work, those with little attachment or knowledge of him would likely be better off checking out his web site before spending the money on this book.

        – Jordan Ginsberg

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    This page and its contents are © 2005 Shannon Larratt – Reproduced under license by BMEzine.com LLC. All rights reserved. Requests to reprint must be confirmed in writing. For bibliographical purpose this review was published September 16th, 2005 in La Paz, BCS, Mexico.
  • If You Can’t Go… We’ll Bring it to You. The All-Grrls Suscon 2005 [Guest Column – Stepping Back]

    “It is the mind which creates the world about us, and even though we stand side by side in the same meadow, my eyes will never see what is beheld by yours, my heart will never stir to the emotions with which yours is touched.”

    George Gissing

    On August 20, 2005 I went to my first Suscon: the second annual All Grrls suspension convention. Outside of the article I’d written several months earlier about last year’s event and only ever seeing my first suspension eight weeks earlier, I didn’t know what to expect. Through conducting interviews with last year’s attendees and hearing entirely positive feedback, I knew the day would be special.

    The event was held in Toronto in a cozy, dimly-lit room with wooden floors and brick walls. The twenty-five attendees had travelled from all over the United States and Canada to be there. Rachel (IAM:tigertante) and Jill (IAM:feisty) were the organizers and wonderful hosts. They, along with the other staff, were competent, knowledgeable and organized.

    The absence of men felt somehow natural, but then again, I had nothing to compare it to. The girls who were nervous about being pierced or going up always had someone by their side; some supportive friends went the extra step and laid on the floor below the table while the hooks were being inserted, breathing deeply with them and holding their hands. Everyone was sensitive to the girls’ needs; allowing them to take their time if necessary, never pressuring them into staying up longer than they wanted to or coming down sooner than they were ready to.

    When the first article about the All Grrls Suscon was published, it sparked a lot of controversy. Some saw the event as discriminatory towards men, while others saw it as a proactive step towards getting more women involved in the suspension community. Regardless of people’s opinion about this event, no one can deny that it offers a safe and comfortable place for the experienced and inexperienced alike to hang.

    The thing that surprised me the most was the overwhelming emotion that hung heavy in the air. Excitement, nervousness, anxiety, intimidation, happiness, relief… although they were mixed feelings, they all felt warm. It was intense.

    It may be one of those things where you’d really have to be there in order to appreciate it… but then again, maybe not.

    To the tune of Svefn-G-Englar by Sigur Ros is a video of the the day— highlighting the emotions of the girl’s experiences— the thing that had the most impact on me.

    2005 All-Grrls SusCon Video Report (9 minutes)
    Download links (right-click and save the files):

    Windows Media Player
    High quality WMV (64 MB)
    Low quality WMV (28 MB)
        Apple Quicktime
    High quality QT/MOV (67 MB)
    Low quality QT/MOV (25 MB)

    — Gillian Hyde (IAM:typealice)


    Gillian Hyde (IAM:typealice) is a vagabond, though her roots run deep into Nova Scotian soil. She’s lived and worked on three continents since 2001, and has never lived anywhere for longer than eight months since the age of 16. She loves fonts, puns, being barefoot, and office supplies. Calm to her is the roar of the ocean.

    Online presentation copyright © 2005 BMEzine.com LLC. Clips of swinging superwoman suspension from iam:bonita80. Requests to republish must be confirmed in writing. For bibliographical purposes this article was first published online, August 25th, 2005 by BMEzine.com LLC from La Paz, BCS, Mexico.

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