A black-and-white photo of a person mid-air in a Superman-style body suspension pose, supported by multiple hooks in their back and legs, smiling joyfully toward the camera. They are suspended horizontally in a large indoor space with high ceilings and visible rigging. A group of onlookers—some seated, some standing—watch with expressions of admiration, amusement, and support. The atmosphere is lively and communal, capturing a moment of shared experience and transformation.

Mastectomy Memories

Many, many thanks to Ely for sending in the story behind his double mastectomy..

Ely, before surgery in November 2005.

My big breasts grew when I was like ten years old, and I missed my flat chest badly. I always hated them, I even wore a waist trimmer and cardboard over my breasts in an attempt to flatten them. I had dreams about having my breasts removed in hospital. One dream I remember particularly vividly was one I had as a kid, in that dream I woke up with my flat chest sutured together with blue stitches. That dream became reality on November the 2nd 2005! I was very lucky to have a plastic surgeon perform my much wanted surgery.

One month after surgery.

I went to hospital at 5:30am with my mother and was taken to a room to be dressed in hospital robes, socks, and T.E.D. stockings.

The nurse questioned me and put all my details into her laptop. Soon after someone arrived with a stretcher, I was taken to pre-op room with other people who were waiting to be taken to the operating room. The anesthesiologist and nurses came and talked with me, they told me that they will be with me in the operating room and that I was due there at 8am. The nurse who was aiding the surgeon talked with me too and she told me that they knew exactly what I wanted and still remember the pictures I brought in and told me to not worry. The nurse then took me to the operating room on the second floor. I saw the door marked “O.R. 30″, for some reason I really liked that number! I was taken into the O.R. and they moved me from the stretcher to the table where the surgery would be performed, then they put an I.V. in my right hand. The last thing I remember was laughing, then I was out!

I woke up sometime later and saw that I was in the recovery room and asked for the time. I remember a voice telling me it 11:34am. I looked down at my chest and it was FLAT :)”

Five months after the surgery, topless and guzzling water at school.

My mother told me that my surgery was over by 10am and I was about to be taken to my room on sixth floor, when I got there I fell fast sleep for most of the day, I was woken up a few times by nurses coming in and checking my blood pressure to make sure I was doing okay and to empty my drain bulbs. A couple of times during my stay they give me a white pill with “512″ stamped on it, I still have no idea what they were! Around 5pm that day I decided to ask for a chicken pot pie and some pumpkin. I ate all of them!

Ely kicking back at the playground (summer, 2007).

The nurses thought I would throw up, but I didn’t :), I did feel a bother though because I had to call a nurse every time I wanted to use the toilet because of the I.V. and padded air things on my legs to prevent blood clots. Around 1am someone came and disconnected my I.V., then told me they would give me some antibiotics and that I could leave the hospital at 4am, I had some pancakes and more pumpkin pie to celebrate :). A little later my surgeon came in to check my incisions and said everything looked good. I couldn’t see any bruises at all, I was expecting my chest to be covered in them because I think I bruise somewhat easily. The surgeon then told me that it was time for me to go to home. My father came in to get me so I gingerly got back into the clothes I arrived in and prepared for home.

I’m so glad I wore the shirt with the zipper on the front, haha, I tried to put my black tank-top on and it was impossible, anyway, I got home fine and couldn’t stop smiling knowing that finally they had gone forever!

I still have some way to go (surgery-wise), but I’ve never been happier!

Thanks for talking Ely, and I hope the future surgeries and T injections go just as smoothly!

Comments

82 responses to “Mastectomy Memories”

  1. cere Avatar

    Soooo, is there an official word on if Ely is a man that was malformed or a woman who wants to be a man?

    I know it says “he” in the article, but many people who were born females call themselves “he”.

    Not trying to eb a dick, just trying to undersand the context of the article.

  2. Coley Avatar
    Coley

    According to this..

    Thanks for talking Ely, and I hope the future surgeries and T injections go just as smoothly!

    I’m assuming its a woman going to the ftm process… T injections would be Testosterone right?

  3. trolleyboy Avatar
    trolleyboy

    What amazing feedback for an obviously courageous individual! You go Ely! Your body is your temple so build it to the vision that YOU have. Reward yourself any way you like but watch that pumpkin pie!

  4. Bill Avatar
    Bill

    45. no one said anything about ely or not liking the double-mastectomy. we are all being very supportive and happy for him. so i’m not sure what you are talking about. the argument is whether breast augmentations are mods worthy of being posted. i think they are definitely mods, obviously… but they just don’t interest the people on modblog. it’s not the same mod we accept as blog worth i guess.

  5. Bill Avatar
    Bill

    and 49… that is NOT necessary whatsoever. it’s obvious that he loves his body. and if you’re going to say things like that, at least spell it correctly.

  6. BeccaTheCyborg Avatar
    BeccaTheCyborg

    Yay Ely! The last picture is so beautiful and serene-looking.

    Congrats, and good luck on future progress!

  7. Cosette Avatar
    Cosette

    Wow, it looks incredible, even the nipples came out well.

    Ely, congratulations! It’s wonderful to hear that your family’s supporting you through this, too. Good luck during your future procedures!

  8. Caitlin Avatar
    Caitlin

    It must be so freeing to be able to go around without a shirt in public (and to be living the life you want, as well, of course). Congrats!

  9. trixie Avatar
    trixie

    i think it’d be pretty dumb if roo posted every tattoo in existence. check the galleries for that! <3

  10. Kalinkina Avatar

    That’s really fantastic! Congrats and best wishes for the future!

  11. Jimbo Avatar
    Jimbo

    @#51 & #51 – Ely is a transman – going through transition (with surgery and hormone treatment) to change his body from female to male.

    @Bill – gender reassignment surgery is NOT elective surgery. Elective is something you can easily live without but choose to do anyway. I have never met a transsexual who had that level of choice. I sure don’t.

  12. oppositronic Avatar
    oppositronic

    i especially like the pic w/ the water bottle and the glasses. it’s so cool that you can just max out in the park now (i’m assuming you didn’t really enjoy hanging out at the park with your shirt off before the surgery)

  13. praxis Avatar
    praxis

    This is great. I really like how the photos show the progression of the healing process. We don’t see enough of that anywhere on the internet. Congrats on reaching your goal Ely! And on the topic of breast augmentation in general… my fake boobs have been featured on Modblog like 6 times. Sure, piercings and tattoos were in the photos, but lets be honest, my pictures were posted because they featured nakedness. Some people in this forum seem to think that modblog is a place where only hardcore or uncommon mods are posted. others seem to think modbog is all about “real” mods and the mods are always the point of the posted photo. That’s just not true. There are a hell of a lot of nostril piercings and nipple piercings up on this page, and a lot of photos posted because the modification happens to be attached to a hot naked girl. And people complain about it , and other people “woohoo!” about it. Point is, the editors of this site post what they want with “modification” being the loose rule that guides what is posted. I think people have a right to complain and people have a right to “woohoo” and if you want to see pictures of fake boobs, no need to google anything, just look through the modblog archives.

  14. weefaery Avatar

    I thought elective surgery was any surgery done that wasn’t an emergency (life-threatening). Yes, you might say his state of mind might make it an emergency, but it isn’t the type like a gun shot wound where they would die if they *didn’t* have surgery.

  15. Disasterous Avatar
    Disasterous

    You’re right, not every tattoo should be posted,
    but maybe some people do come to ModBlog to look
    at other people’s tattoos and get inspirations on them.
    If someone is HEAVILY tattooed, that doesn’t make
    it simple, and maybe other people would appreciate it.
    I have a friend that sent in a very nice photo
    that also got turned down, with unique piercings,
    it’s not just about tattoos
    it’s about people in general.
    The site would get cluttered, understandable,
    but I would rather look at unique rituals taking
    place and piercings/tattoos than breasts
    being made smaller, in which a lot of people have done.
    Don’t get me wrong, I did find Ely’s story to be amazing,
    and I’m so glad he’s happy, but there are other stories
    worth being posted on modblog too.

  16. ovaryaction Avatar
    ovaryaction

    dear ely:
    congrats!!! super happy for you.

    dear a lot of people:
    way to ruin the focus this post.

    dear roo:
    thanks 🙂

  17. Jess Avatar
    Jess

    Good for you, Ely. This is not an easy road to travel but you are blessed to be on it and to have the support to make your trip a little easier.

  18. sparrowgirl Avatar
    sparrowgirl

    Go, Ely!!! 😀 They look great! Good luck with the rest of the process.

    (Also kudos to ovaryaction for stating so succinctly exactly what a lot of us are thinking right now.)

  19. Wilder Avatar
    Wilder

    Huge congrats!

    I’ll be there eventually, too. 🙂

  20. ELY M. Avatar

    ristintin: I was 29 at the time of surgery.

    about breast enlargements:
    praxis is right. The breast enlargements have been featured on modblog before. I have seen MTF breast surgery on this modblog 1 or 2 times before.

  21. adsh Avatar
    adsh

    as a gynocomastic male i found this story inspirational – i’m in my mid 20s and havent bared my chest in public for a very long time, not because i dislike people staring at it or whatever, but simply because i dont feel comfortable within myself about it…
    i hope one day to have the money to afford breast aggmentation (in my case it would also be a double masectomy), but untill then i shall continue to hide what i see as my mis-fit body, and deal with the internalized self-deprocating/self-distructive thoughts the way i always have – minute by minute and day by day..
    kudos Ely for living your life as you want to, and thank you for sharing ur story…

  22. Stellan Avatar

    Kudos, man!
    Very inspirational and heartwarming story!
    I am very happy for you.

  23. Nickk Leading Avatar

    wow so much has changed good luck to you roo

  24. Alice B. Avatar
    Alice B.

    Dear Ely,
    well done, you look ace!! Thanks for sharing your story with the rest of us. I hope you’re happy and wish you all the best!! 🙂

  25. Miaoudeminou Avatar
    Miaoudeminou

    I’ve always thought of getting mine reduced. They’re not HUGE but to my body I’d like them a bit smaller (instead of a DD to be about a medium C). I’ve always been called “boobs”, “tits”, “that girl with the boobs”…etc by school mates because of them.

  26. Jill Vicious Avatar
    Jill Vicious

    I’m really happy for you, Ely!

  27. Kat Avatar
    Kat

    Alright, I’m a bit confused…was this a F2M related surgery, or was this a case of severe Gynemastia? {I believe that’s what it’s called} ^^; Sorry If I’m a bit slow.

  28. Deicloves Avatar

    Ely — congratulations! It’s fucking amazing that you were able to achieve your dreams (literally!) and that you’ve decided to share your story with us. Kudos, and good luck with all in the future.

  29. Helen Avatar
    Helen

    Congrats on finnaly having your dream come true ^_^

  30. Roscoe at Johnson Tattoo Avatar

    I’m confused, also. Is this a male mastectomy or a Female to Male transgender case?

    Either way, like adsh, I have man-boobs (biproduct of low-testosterone condition), and have suffered silent shame for many years. I don’t have the money to have surgery to reduce them, so I’ve just learned to accept my shape. I sometimes joke about them (especially when I hear women complain about their perceived lack of boobage), but this self-depricating humor often elicits more awkward discomfort than it diffuses.

  31. Meredith Avatar

    Roscoe: This is FTM transgender.

    Also, I believe Ely is the first deaf person we have had on ModBlog, besides myself! (I am only HOH though.)

  32. Gato Avatar
    Gato

    Congrats!!! I am happy for you to be ok and very nice history,keep it up always !.

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