A black-and-white photo of a person mid-air in a Superman-style body suspension pose, supported by multiple hooks in their back and legs, smiling joyfully toward the camera. They are suspended horizontally in a large indoor space with high ceilings and visible rigging. A group of onlookers—some seated, some standing—watch with expressions of admiration, amusement, and support. The atmosphere is lively and communal, capturing a moment of shared experience and transformation.

Pulling the Trigger

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146 responses to “Pulling the Trigger”

  1. Alice White Avatar

    This chicks a cool one 🙂 But her hair is getting so shaggy!!

    Anyway. Everyone takes their own risks being on the internet. And if there is anyone out there who’s doing their best to avoid triggers, certainly a blood-splattered place like modblog isn’t the place to be doing it.
    I think someone’s looking for an excuse to BE triggered, not to avoid them.

    That being said, I’m a big fan of cutting. I think people get too whiney over it in some cases. Btw, I always cut in conditions like that and have yet to get an infection. Actually think it may have strengthened my resistance <3

  2. Alice White Avatar

    This chicks a cool one 🙂 But her hair is getting so shaggy!!

    Anyway. Everyone takes their own risks being on the internet. And if there is anyone out there who’s doing their best to avoid triggers, certainly a blood-splattered place like modblog isn’t the place to be doing it.
    I think someone’s looking for an excuse to BE triggered, not to avoid them.

    That being said, I’m a big fan of cutting. I think people get too whiney over it in some cases. Btw, I always cut in conditions like that and have yet to get an infection. Actually think it may have strengthened my resistance <3

  3. v. Avatar
    v.

    Serenity – Congrats on making a rational, sensible and productive modblog post. It’s certainly one of the most intelligent things I’ve read on here lately.

    Dimruthien – STFU – if you are so upset about Shannon ignoring you (and who can blame, with the drivel you so often spout), vote with your feet, stop reading modblog, and find something new to whinge about.

  4. v. Avatar
    v.

    Serenity – Congrats on making a rational, sensible and productive modblog post. It’s certainly one of the most intelligent things I’ve read on here lately.

    Dimruthien – STFU – if you are so upset about Shannon ignoring you (and who can blame, with the drivel you so often spout), vote with your feet, stop reading modblog, and find something new to whinge about.

  5. auteurlife Avatar

    Serenity,

    “I know I know, a lot of people have found BME, done ’stupid shit’ and regretted it, but THAT IS NOT BME’s FAULT.”

    or

    . “sure, some people are depressed, unstable, and may push things further because of BME’s influence. ”

    thanks for negating your own arguement.

    i don’t want to start any shit because i know its been running rampant in there parts lately. I DO want to make sure that body modification and and purposefully hurting yourself are not the same thing.

  6. auteurlife Avatar

    Serenity,

    “I know I know, a lot of people have found BME, done ’stupid shit’ and regretted it, but THAT IS NOT BME’s FAULT.”

    or

    . “sure, some people are depressed, unstable, and may push things further because of BME’s influence. ”

    thanks for negating your own arguement.

    i don’t want to start any shit because i know its been running rampant in there parts lately. I DO want to make sure that body modification and and purposefully hurting yourself are not the same thing.

  7. Laura Avatar

    Dirty, dirty bathroom!

  8. Laura Avatar

    Dirty, dirty bathroom!

  9. Dimruthien Avatar

    28 – No, it’s not. I wrote a paper about it once because a lot of people were approaching me and stating that body modification was self injury. While someone may pierce themselves (as an example) with a self injurious intent, it does not mean all piercing is self injury.

    It was a long paper I wrote anyway, but unfortunately it didn’t do much good. Most of the people it was aimed at still feel that tattoos, piercings, branding, etc were self mutilation.

    It all comes down to intent, more than anything.

  10. Dimruthien Avatar

    28 – No, it’s not. I wrote a paper about it once because a lot of people were approaching me and stating that body modification was self injury. While someone may pierce themselves (as an example) with a self injurious intent, it does not mean all piercing is self injury.

    It was a long paper I wrote anyway, but unfortunately it didn’t do much good. Most of the people it was aimed at still feel that tattoos, piercings, branding, etc were self mutilation.

    It all comes down to intent, more than anything.

  11. Dave Avatar
    Dave

    I was not aware that (ritual) cutting is a recognised Sufi practice.

  12. Dave Avatar
    Dave

    I was not aware that (ritual) cutting is a recognised Sufi practice.

  13. v. Avatar
    v.

    auterlife – your insight is astounding, if these people with negative disposition hadn’t found BME they definitely wouldn’t have ever done anything they regret. go study logic before you throw around claims about self-negating arguments.

  14. v. Avatar
    v.

    auterlife – your insight is astounding, if these people with negative disposition hadn’t found BME they definitely wouldn’t have ever done anything they regret. go study logic before you throw around claims about self-negating arguments.

  15. Stephanie Avatar

    Oh wow.

    Hahaha.

    Two things, my bathroom looks much cleaning beforeeee editing the pic

    AND

    Holy shit I’m naked on modblog.

    Hahahahaha

  16. Stephanie Avatar

    Oh wow.

    Hahaha.

    Two things, my bathroom looks much cleaning beforeeee editing the pic

    AND

    Holy shit I’m naked on modblog.

    Hahahahaha

  17. Stephanie Avatar

    And thanks to everyone who complimented me =]

  18. Stephanie Avatar

    And thanks to everyone who complimented me =]

  19. redredred Avatar
    redredred

    The fine arts of bloodplay. So beautiful.

  20. redredred Avatar
    redredred

    The fine arts of bloodplay. So beautiful.

  21. deerheart Avatar

    the girl’s just lovely and the cuts just add a certain pervy charm.

  22. deerheart Avatar

    the girl’s just lovely and the cuts just add a certain pervy charm.

  23. Fallen Angel Eyes Avatar
    Fallen Angel Eyes

    I find it strange how, as a reformed cutter, pics of deliberate scarification don’t bother me, but these kinds of pics still make me feel a bit unsettled. While I don’t cut anymore for SI purposes, I still enjoy bloodplay, and I also support scarification and such as body modification. It’s hard though for me, when the lines of intent start to blur. I wonder if there’s support groups or something like that for those of us who don’t want to self-harm anymore, but still want to express ourselves sexually and physically by cutting.

  24. Fallen Angel Eyes Avatar
    Fallen Angel Eyes

    I find it strange how, as a reformed cutter, pics of deliberate scarification don’t bother me, but these kinds of pics still make me feel a bit unsettled. While I don’t cut anymore for SI purposes, I still enjoy bloodplay, and I also support scarification and such as body modification. It’s hard though for me, when the lines of intent start to blur. I wonder if there’s support groups or something like that for those of us who don’t want to self-harm anymore, but still want to express ourselves sexually and physically by cutting.

  25. Hanargh Avatar

    I have nothing to contribute to the argument here, but I think the whole situation should have been left alone, seeing as it was a sore subject (excuse the pun). Whilst the entry is wonderful in its own right – and I’m all for ritual cutting on modblog, with the recent discussions about self-harm, the obviously concerned readers (unfounded or not) shouldn’t be made fun of like this. A community listens to its members and their issues, and certainly doesn’t taunt them with such titles, which is what I see here.

  26. Hanargh Avatar

    I have nothing to contribute to the argument here, but I think the whole situation should have been left alone, seeing as it was a sore subject (excuse the pun). Whilst the entry is wonderful in its own right – and I’m all for ritual cutting on modblog, with the recent discussions about self-harm, the obviously concerned readers (unfounded or not) shouldn’t be made fun of like this. A community listens to its members and their issues, and certainly doesn’t taunt them with such titles, which is what I see here.

  27. mexie Avatar
    mexie

    Hmmm twice now Shannon the ‘sacraficial lamb ‘ now this.What are you trying to prove? I also think this should be behind a link ,no it does not trigger me but it triggers some so why do this? Im begining to wonder about you Shannon lately you seem very different to the person I thought you were. I help run a site for people who were sexually abused as children, disturbing links have always got a trigger warning.
    No one is asking you to take on the responsibily for everyone who reads here but a little thought could go a long way, but Im begining to think you dont care about anyone really has your ego got so big that its your way or the highway?
    Im sad 🙁

  28. mexie Avatar
    mexie

    Hmmm twice now Shannon the ‘sacraficial lamb ‘ now this.What are you trying to prove? I also think this should be behind a link ,no it does not trigger me but it triggers some so why do this? Im begining to wonder about you Shannon lately you seem very different to the person I thought you were. I help run a site for people who were sexually abused as children, disturbing links have always got a trigger warning.
    No one is asking you to take on the responsibily for everyone who reads here but a little thought could go a long way, but Im begining to think you dont care about anyone really has your ego got so big that its your way or the highway?
    Im sad 🙁

  29. mexie Avatar
    mexie

    Excuse my spelling please 🙂

  30. mexie Avatar
    mexie

    Excuse my spelling please 🙂

  31. Dimruthien Avatar

    36 – I’ve been a member of a SI community on the net for a long time and that question is often bought up. The thought that “I’m not doing this to hurt myself anymore, but because I like it” gets passed around a lot. No one is taunted for feeling that way, or told they need help, etc. Maybe because a lot of people do feel that way. I’m not sure if a support group exists specifically for those people, but there’s definitely a percentage of people in the “community” that feel that way!

    If you want a link to the community and have IAM, you can IM me 🙂 It’s a good community, with a really wide user base. By wide user base, I mean people from all walks of life with all sorts of interests.

  32. Dimruthien Avatar

    36 – I’ve been a member of a SI community on the net for a long time and that question is often bought up. The thought that “I’m not doing this to hurt myself anymore, but because I like it” gets passed around a lot. No one is taunted for feeling that way, or told they need help, etc. Maybe because a lot of people do feel that way. I’m not sure if a support group exists specifically for those people, but there’s definitely a percentage of people in the “community” that feel that way!

    If you want a link to the community and have IAM, you can IM me 🙂 It’s a good community, with a really wide user base. By wide user base, I mean people from all walks of life with all sorts of interests.

  33. Dimruthien Avatar

    Stephanie, do you have any photos of the moth? I think it’s a moth anyway. I looked on your IAM but I didn’t see any photos of it. What’s the significance of it, etc?

    Reason I ask is because I’m a bit of a Thomas Harris fan so the moth set off my hannibal-sense 😉

  34. Dimruthien Avatar

    Stephanie, do you have any photos of the moth? I think it’s a moth anyway. I looked on your IAM but I didn’t see any photos of it. What’s the significance of it, etc?

    Reason I ask is because I’m a bit of a Thomas Harris fan so the moth set off my hannibal-sense 😉

  35. Stephanie Avatar

    Not to sound rude, but if you guys want to ask me stuff feel free to email me at [email protected], I don’t want this to turn into an off topic chat room or anything =]

    And about these pictures, Shannon has definitely posted pictures of people covered in cuts and SI scars in the past. It’s not a new thing at all. Everyone was bitching when Shannon wasn’t updating Modblog and saying they wanted him back, and now that he’s back they’re complaining that what he is posting isn’t good enough? There will always be things posted that you may not like or agree with, and it’s your choice whether you give them the time of day or not.

  36. Stephanie Avatar

    Not to sound rude, but if you guys want to ask me stuff feel free to email me at [email protected], I don’t want this to turn into an off topic chat room or anything =]

    And about these pictures, Shannon has definitely posted pictures of people covered in cuts and SI scars in the past. It’s not a new thing at all. Everyone was bitching when Shannon wasn’t updating Modblog and saying they wanted him back, and now that he’s back they’re complaining that what he is posting isn’t good enough? There will always be things posted that you may not like or agree with, and it’s your choice whether you give them the time of day or not.

  37. ken barlow Avatar
    ken barlow

    Great picture!
    Makes me think “BME meets Agatha in Minority Report”

  38. ken barlow Avatar
    ken barlow

    Great picture!
    Makes me think “BME meets Agatha in Minority Report”

  39. Shannon Avatar

    mexie – Equating not plastering the site with warnings to satisfy people with ongoing psychological struggles with having a run away ego is really a stretch.

    The fact is that every section of BME is triggering depending on the individual — piercing, tattoos, suspension, play piercing, cbt, all of it. It’s completely ridiculous to put a warning on everything. Readers know what BME is. If they can’t handle it, they shouldn’t be reading it.

  40. Shannon Avatar

    mexie – Equating not plastering the site with warnings to satisfy people with ongoing psychological struggles with having a run away ego is really a stretch.

    The fact is that every section of BME is triggering depending on the individual — piercing, tattoos, suspension, play piercing, cbt, all of it. It’s completely ridiculous to put a warning on everything. Readers know what BME is. If they can’t handle it, they shouldn’t be reading it.

  41. Laura Avatar
    Laura

    wow…she’s beautiful…its blood play…i don’t see what the big deal is…she’ll have some light scarring…those wounds are very superficial (not deep) and i doubt they’d put her in any real danger…while i’m all for safety links being provided for extreme modification work that could put people in danger, worrying about this triggering someone to harm themselves is a bit silly…why not enjoy the fact that there’s a bloody, hot-naked girl on modblog? i know i am 😉

  42. Laura Avatar
    Laura

    wow…she’s beautiful…its blood play…i don’t see what the big deal is…she’ll have some light scarring…those wounds are very superficial (not deep) and i doubt they’d put her in any real danger…while i’m all for safety links being provided for extreme modification work that could put people in danger, worrying about this triggering someone to harm themselves is a bit silly…why not enjoy the fact that there’s a bloody, hot-naked girl on modblog? i know i am 😉

  43. serenity Avatar

    #28 It’s not worth saying anything but ‘you are welcome’ to that, and I’ll leave you to interpret as you wish. 🙂

    Seriously though. Of course there is a difference between self harm in a mental health contect and blood play for the sake of blood play. My point is merely that what I said. People are responsible to themselves. If movies, music, or BME affects them to a degree where they loose control over themselves, they need help to resolve their problems, not censorship left right and centre. Just my 2 ..pence.

  44. serenity Avatar

    #28 It’s not worth saying anything but ‘you are welcome’ to that, and I’ll leave you to interpret as you wish. 🙂

    Seriously though. Of course there is a difference between self harm in a mental health contect and blood play for the sake of blood play. My point is merely that what I said. People are responsible to themselves. If movies, music, or BME affects them to a degree where they loose control over themselves, they need help to resolve their problems, not censorship left right and centre. Just my 2 ..pence.

  45. Shannon Avatar

    auteurlife (or anyone) – Can you coherently explain the difference to me between cutting, play piercing, and suspension, in terms of “self-harm” versus “not self-harm”?

  46. Shannon Avatar

    auteurlife (or anyone) – Can you coherently explain the difference to me between cutting, play piercing, and suspension, in terms of “self-harm” versus “not self-harm”?

  47. serenity Avatar

    (48 – *context)

    Shannon, I think I see where you are going with that..

    I do however think there is a difference between what falls under the traditional definition of self-harm (obviously one could argue that everything that is physically harmful to oneself is self-harm), and what falls under ritualistic play. It’s a pretty grey area, but maybe the difference between the two would be outcome to the person involved. It’s a bit of a utilitarian standpoint, but yeah if the action of harming oneself produces more positive effects than negative, or another way to put it is motivation. What is the motivation behind the act? E.g. Is it to punish yourself in a self destructive way, or because you like the sensation/enjoy blood/similar..? And I do think most instances of self destructive behaviour shows up as cutting. If you feel bad right now, cutting seems more available to a wider populace on the spot.

    I think the point you are getting at is that it doesn’t matter though. It is not BME’s duty to discriminate between the two and decide who is stabile enough to “self harm in a cheerful way”. And too right it isn’t.

    Hope that made sense.

  48. serenity Avatar

    (48 – *context)

    Shannon, I think I see where you are going with that..

    I do however think there is a difference between what falls under the traditional definition of self-harm (obviously one could argue that everything that is physically harmful to oneself is self-harm), and what falls under ritualistic play. It’s a pretty grey area, but maybe the difference between the two would be outcome to the person involved. It’s a bit of a utilitarian standpoint, but yeah if the action of harming oneself produces more positive effects than negative, or another way to put it is motivation. What is the motivation behind the act? E.g. Is it to punish yourself in a self destructive way, or because you like the sensation/enjoy blood/similar..? And I do think most instances of self destructive behaviour shows up as cutting. If you feel bad right now, cutting seems more available to a wider populace on the spot.

    I think the point you are getting at is that it doesn’t matter though. It is not BME’s duty to discriminate between the two and decide who is stabile enough to “self harm in a cheerful way”. And too right it isn’t.

    Hope that made sense.

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