A black-and-white photo of a person mid-air in a Superman-style body suspension pose, supported by multiple hooks in their back and legs, smiling joyfully toward the camera. They are suspended horizontally in a large indoor space with high ceilings and visible rigging. A group of onlookers—some seated, some standing—watch with expressions of admiration, amusement, and support. The atmosphere is lively and communal, capturing a moment of shared experience and transformation.

Pulling the Trigger

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146 responses to “Pulling the Trigger”

  1. timmcdivitt Avatar
    timmcdivitt

    she’s cute!

  2. timmcdivitt Avatar
    timmcdivitt

    she’s cute!

  3. sana Avatar
    sana

    thanks!! lovely.

  4. sana Avatar
    sana

    thanks!! lovely.

  5. Ratty Avatar
    Ratty

    Pulling the trigger indeed…

    …But she’s so beautiful…

  6. Ratty Avatar
    Ratty

    Pulling the trigger indeed…

    …But she’s so beautiful…

  7. serenity Avatar

    Haha, my girlfriend made me aware of the discussion about the triggering urges discussion, and Dimruthien, if you read this my friend – stop reading this. It is obviously just an outlet for a lot of pent up aggression. And people, this is gonna take off on this entry as well no doubt, as every fucker out there has become the fuckin moral police lately (pardon my language) – Modblog and BME is about documenting what the frickin label says. It has risk sections. It encourages exploration, and it encourages independent thought. I know I know, a lot of people have found BME, done ‘stupid shit’ and regretted it, but THAT IS NOT BME’s FAULT. People are responsible to themselves. Lest Shannon came to your house, held a gun to your head and say “start cutting sunshine, or I’ll REALLY make you bleed”, you should stop whining now. sure, some people are depressed, unstable, and may push things further because of BME’s influence. Sure. Some people allegedly listened to Rock, Metal, or Rap, and it made them kill people. People are fucked, that’s the be-all and end-all. We are living in a world where peanut bags say ‘may contain traces of nuts’ – let’s just let something contain traces of thought. Let’s assume for once that people can make their own decisions.

    And hell man, I spent several hundred pounds getting my lobes put back together post stretching because I am now aiming to work in health care and thought it might help my chances, but I am not blaming BME. We choose, we live with the consequences. Pssscchht.

    Sorry for being my own worst enemy here by the way.

  8. serenity Avatar

    Haha, my girlfriend made me aware of the discussion about the triggering urges discussion, and Dimruthien, if you read this my friend – stop reading this. It is obviously just an outlet for a lot of pent up aggression. And people, this is gonna take off on this entry as well no doubt, as every fucker out there has become the fuckin moral police lately (pardon my language) – Modblog and BME is about documenting what the frickin label says. It has risk sections. It encourages exploration, and it encourages independent thought. I know I know, a lot of people have found BME, done ‘stupid shit’ and regretted it, but THAT IS NOT BME’s FAULT. People are responsible to themselves. Lest Shannon came to your house, held a gun to your head and say “start cutting sunshine, or I’ll REALLY make you bleed”, you should stop whining now. sure, some people are depressed, unstable, and may push things further because of BME’s influence. Sure. Some people allegedly listened to Rock, Metal, or Rap, and it made them kill people. People are fucked, that’s the be-all and end-all. We are living in a world where peanut bags say ‘may contain traces of nuts’ – let’s just let something contain traces of thought. Let’s assume for once that people can make their own decisions.

    And hell man, I spent several hundred pounds getting my lobes put back together post stretching because I am now aiming to work in health care and thought it might help my chances, but I am not blaming BME. We choose, we live with the consequences. Pssscchht.

    Sorry for being my own worst enemy here by the way.

  9. xander Avatar
    xander

    moldy surface to be doing that cutting in…maybe a tid bit more sanitary might prevent infection…….

  10. xander Avatar
    xander

    moldy surface to be doing that cutting in…maybe a tid bit more sanitary might prevent infection…….

  11. lilfunky1 Avatar

    I wonder who took the photo?

  12. lilfunky1 Avatar

    I wonder who took the photo?

  13. cardboardfrog Avatar
    cardboardfrog

    why would you cover such lovely boobies?
    woo yay for pretty girls and blood play

  14. cardboardfrog Avatar
    cardboardfrog

    why would you cover such lovely boobies?
    woo yay for pretty girls and blood play

  15. infernalmachine Avatar
    infernalmachine

    this picture kinda makes me want to clean her bathroom, it’s gross.

  16. infernalmachine Avatar
    infernalmachine

    this picture kinda makes me want to clean her bathroom, it’s gross.

  17. Xenobiologista Avatar

    #5 – wow. Someone didn’t spell ‘tidbit’ as ‘titbit’ for once. Always makes me giggle.

    Hope she rinses the cuts off well and doesn’t just soak in the tub water afterwards.

  18. Xenobiologista Avatar

    #5 – wow. Someone didn’t spell ‘tidbit’ as ‘titbit’ for once. Always makes me giggle.

    Hope she rinses the cuts off well and doesn’t just soak in the tub water afterwards.

  19. Toby Avatar
    Toby

    This should be behind a link. I don’t care if you think it’s mutilation, or expression, or both, or something else altogether, it’s common decency to put it behind a link. That’s not a cause for outrage, or saying I’m asking you to stifle everyone’s freedom of expression. It’s being nice to those who do find this sort of thing triggering. And God forbid anyone should ever do that.

  20. Toby Avatar
    Toby

    This should be behind a link. I don’t care if you think it’s mutilation, or expression, or both, or something else altogether, it’s common decency to put it behind a link. That’s not a cause for outrage, or saying I’m asking you to stifle everyone’s freedom of expression. It’s being nice to those who do find this sort of thing triggering. And God forbid anyone should ever do that.

  21. n0ir Avatar
    n0ir

    Am I the only one who does not get the topic?

  22. n0ir Avatar
    n0ir

    Am I the only one who does not get the topic?

  23. Mark Avatar
    Mark

    Beautiful. The bloodplay makes a really nice complement to her tattoos.

  24. Mark Avatar
    Mark

    Beautiful. The bloodplay makes a really nice complement to her tattoos.

  25. Mr Funk Avatar
    Mr Funk

    She’s very cute (and yes, the boobies look nice), but I have to agree; that bathroom desperately needs a hose-down with exit-mould 🙂

    Cutting’s definitely not my cup of tea, but that chest ink is fuckin badass, I love it.

  26. Mr Funk Avatar
    Mr Funk

    She’s very cute (and yes, the boobies look nice), but I have to agree; that bathroom desperately needs a hose-down with exit-mould 🙂

    Cutting’s definitely not my cup of tea, but that chest ink is fuckin badass, I love it.

  27. shokroklove Avatar
    shokroklove

    not sure if i like her tattoos very much, but the one on her chest is flattering and she is very cute

  28. shokroklove Avatar
    shokroklove

    not sure if i like her tattoos very much, but the one on her chest is flattering and she is very cute

  29. Rulebook Avatar
    Rulebook

    Its Silent Hill!! Second time on modblog. Congrats!

  30. Rulebook Avatar
    Rulebook

    Its Silent Hill!! Second time on modblog. Congrats!

  31. uuu Avatar
    uuu

    personally it makes me a bit sad to see people cut themselves like this. it reminds me of 2 people i knew. they had eyes filled with sadness and arms covered in hundreds of scarred lines. i wish i could have said something to tell them that i understand.

  32. uuu Avatar
    uuu

    personally it makes me a bit sad to see people cut themselves like this. it reminds me of 2 people i knew. they had eyes filled with sadness and arms covered in hundreds of scarred lines. i wish i could have said something to tell them that i understand.

  33. [QUEEN] Avatar

    My arms are covered in hundreds of crisscrossed scars I wouldnt remove them and while I dont “identify” shitty word I know, as a cutter anymore. I still enjoy blood play for fun. I dont try and hide my scars and I dont expect people to offer me words to say they understand.
    Love the pic even the nasty bathroom and not a trigger. Just hot 😀

  34. [QUEEN] Avatar

    My arms are covered in hundreds of crisscrossed scars I wouldnt remove them and while I dont “identify” shitty word I know, as a cutter anymore. I still enjoy blood play for fun. I dont try and hide my scars and I dont expect people to offer me words to say they understand.
    Love the pic even the nasty bathroom and not a trigger. Just hot 😀

  35. VOMIT Avatar
    VOMIT

    Haha I’m pretty sure her bathroom is cleaner than mine… I wouldn’t have even thought of it as being nasty…but apparently everyone else does. I feel gross now.

    Anyway, pretty girl, I like her wrist tattoo.

  36. VOMIT Avatar
    VOMIT

    Haha I’m pretty sure her bathroom is cleaner than mine… I wouldn’t have even thought of it as being nasty…but apparently everyone else does. I feel gross now.

    Anyway, pretty girl, I like her wrist tattoo.

  37. Meg Avatar

    Gosh… She is fucking beautiful. I wanna have her babies.

  38. Meg Avatar

    Gosh… She is fucking beautiful. I wanna have her babies.

  39. JenO33 Avatar

    Damn I wanted to see a lower shot too and hoping it’d be pierced as well 😛 /ok end of grocery list.

  40. JenO33 Avatar

    Damn I wanted to see a lower shot too and hoping it’d be pierced as well 😛 /ok end of grocery list.

  41. FuckingClassy Avatar
    FuckingClassy

    YAY!! NAKED MODBLOG!!
    😀

  42. FuckingClassy Avatar
    FuckingClassy

    YAY!! NAKED MODBLOG!!
    😀

  43. Dimruthien Avatar

    #4: Why would I give a shit about your opinion? I took the necessary action in outlining my concerns to Shannon (as I would hope anyone would do on one of my websites) and those concerns were ignored.

    I really don’t care what anyone else thinks of my concerns, such as whether or not they were unfounded. I actually stated in one of the emails I sent to Shannon that I apologise if my concerns were unfounded.

    All this entry is is a baited line, and I won’t take the bait I’m sorry. I already know what kind of person Shannon is, I don’t need to bitch fight with him again here to be sure of that. I also don’t need to justify myself to you, Shannon, or anyone else out there reading this.

    I hope you all have a lovely day. Kiss kiss.

  44. Dimruthien Avatar

    #4: Why would I give a shit about your opinion? I took the necessary action in outlining my concerns to Shannon (as I would hope anyone would do on one of my websites) and those concerns were ignored.

    I really don’t care what anyone else thinks of my concerns, such as whether or not they were unfounded. I actually stated in one of the emails I sent to Shannon that I apologise if my concerns were unfounded.

    All this entry is is a baited line, and I won’t take the bait I’m sorry. I already know what kind of person Shannon is, I don’t need to bitch fight with him again here to be sure of that. I also don’t need to justify myself to you, Shannon, or anyone else out there reading this.

    I hope you all have a lovely day. Kiss kiss.

  45. Dimruthien Avatar

    That said, I wouldn’t mind a closer look at her chest piece.

  46. Dimruthien Avatar

    That said, I wouldn’t mind a closer look at her chest piece.

  47. CreativeNonFiction Avatar

    I’m pretty sure the entirety of the site can be triggering and people know that going in. There’s no real need to censor any particular image using a click through.

  48. CreativeNonFiction Avatar

    I’m pretty sure the entirety of the site can be triggering and people know that going in. There’s no real need to censor any particular image using a click through.

  49. Aaron Avatar

    Cute girl. not big on cutting myself, but I understand its purpose.

  50. Aaron Avatar

    Cute girl. not big on cutting myself, but I understand its purpose.

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