A black-and-white photo of a person mid-air in a Superman-style body suspension pose, supported by multiple hooks in their back and legs, smiling joyfully toward the camera. They are suspended horizontally in a large indoor space with high ceilings and visible rigging. A group of onlookers—some seated, some standing—watch with expressions of admiration, amusement, and support. The atmosphere is lively and communal, capturing a moment of shared experience and transformation.

Pulling the Trigger

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146 responses to “Pulling the Trigger”

  1. mexie Avatar
    mexie

    You are missing my point which maybe I didnt put across well. Its the ‘pulling the trigger’ headline which is antagonistic and to my mind its a deliberate ploy on your part to get people to have a go at you, so that others can defend you. Thats what my ego comment was about, you deliberatly baiting people and calling people haters if they dont agree with you ,no one as far as ive read is asking you to plaster the site with warnings though a little common sense wouldnt go amiss.With ‘power’ comes responsibility maybe not wanted but its a fact.Oh btw where are my stickers.

  2. mexie Avatar
    mexie

    You are missing my point which maybe I didnt put across well. Its the ‘pulling the trigger’ headline which is antagonistic and to my mind its a deliberate ploy on your part to get people to have a go at you, so that others can defend you. Thats what my ego comment was about, you deliberatly baiting people and calling people haters if they dont agree with you ,no one as far as ive read is asking you to plaster the site with warnings though a little common sense wouldnt go amiss.With ‘power’ comes responsibility maybe not wanted but its a fact.Oh btw where are my stickers.

  3. Shannon Avatar

    mexie – Trust me, I don’t need anyone else to defend me, I’m quite self confident! But it’s true, it is antagonistic, but I do like being antagonistic toward people who attack BME from time to time.

  4. Shannon Avatar

    mexie – Trust me, I don’t need anyone else to defend me, I’m quite self confident! But it’s true, it is antagonistic, but I do like being antagonistic toward people who attack BME from time to time.

  5. Epic_Killz Avatar
    Epic_Killz

    I’m loving this *drool*

    I suddenly have the strong urge to have a bath…:p

  6. Epic_Killz Avatar
    Epic_Killz

    I’m loving this *drool*

    I suddenly have the strong urge to have a bath…:p

  7. Burnt Flowers Avatar
    Burnt Flowers

    I think this is a really nice picture, with some nice mods to top it. But dang! Those tiles are filthy! XD

  8. Burnt Flowers Avatar
    Burnt Flowers

    I think this is a really nice picture, with some nice mods to top it. But dang! Those tiles are filthy! XD

  9. curiosa Avatar
    curiosa

    it’s a shame you didnt splatter some of that blood on the wall, and unless shes on immuno-suppressing drugs or something i doubt the dirty bathroom would be much of a threat, and the difference to me between self harm and cutting for fun is that people who are ‘self harming’ wouldnt go post pictures on the internet for the entire world to see because i doubt people in that situation want the whole world judging them. But its just an opinion, ive never felt the need to cut in a negative way thankfully so im just an outsider in that sense, just hear to enjoy the pictures.

  10. curiosa Avatar
    curiosa

    it’s a shame you didnt splatter some of that blood on the wall, and unless shes on immuno-suppressing drugs or something i doubt the dirty bathroom would be much of a threat, and the difference to me between self harm and cutting for fun is that people who are ‘self harming’ wouldnt go post pictures on the internet for the entire world to see because i doubt people in that situation want the whole world judging them. But its just an opinion, ive never felt the need to cut in a negative way thankfully so im just an outsider in that sense, just hear to enjoy the pictures.

  11. nope Avatar
    nope

    i’m not going to lie, the state of her bathroom makes me twitch… but less than that messy kitchen photo set.

  12. nope Avatar
    nope

    i’m not going to lie, the state of her bathroom makes me twitch… but less than that messy kitchen photo set.

  13. Max Brand Avatar

    hot….I’d totally pee on her….

  14. Max Brand Avatar

    hot….I’d totally pee on her….

  15. tyger burning bright Avatar

    Although I’ve done some cutting I’ve regretted, images like this one don’t offend or trigger me. (Being upset about something is what triggers me.) Of course, that’s just one person’s experience.

    On the other hand, big photos of modified genitals don’t offend me, either … and they ARE usually hidden here behind a small/blurred version of the image. Is it because people requested the clickthrough, or are there legal reasons, etc.?

    Last but not least, Stephanie is lovely. :]

  16. tyger burning bright Avatar

    Although I’ve done some cutting I’ve regretted, images like this one don’t offend or trigger me. (Being upset about something is what triggers me.) Of course, that’s just one person’s experience.

    On the other hand, big photos of modified genitals don’t offend me, either … and they ARE usually hidden here behind a small/blurred version of the image. Is it because people requested the clickthrough, or are there legal reasons, etc.?

    Last but not least, Stephanie is lovely. :]

  17. Shannon Avatar

    Outright genital shots are blurred/click-thru in part to make it a little safer for browsing if someone is looking over your shoulder — just to keep things in “R” rated rather than “X” rated territory I suppose.

  18. Shannon Avatar

    Outright genital shots are blurred/click-thru in part to make it a little safer for browsing if someone is looking over your shoulder — just to keep things in “R” rated rather than “X” rated territory I suppose.

  19. kelly Avatar
    kelly

    i love it 🙂 yea i know cutting is bad….i was in a psych ward for that shit and some other stuff for three fucking years but hell i wouldn’t get rid of my scars for anything. people need to relax on the whole cutting thing…no one is going to die tonight and she obviously doesn’t look ready to off herself to me. looks like she is quite happy right there…ENJOYING BLOOD PLAY that just happens to be in the form of cutting so yea…take it for what it is because i think we could go on for hours on self injury and triggering people and suicide and risks…..the truth is you can’t prevent triggering people that used to cut…i know because i used to. with some people i knew in hospitals ANYTHING could trigger them wanting to cut…not just blood or images of cutting and sometimes those weren’t even triggers…it was usually emotional triggers like extreme anger, sadness, boredom, flash backs….shit like that. i support the shannon in posting this because if someone has that much of a problem with self injury….they shouldn’t be on any site like this….PERIOD. If a picture could trigger symptoms, a bloody picture with cuts and this site is full of bloody pictures, then the cutter or ex-cutter should be smart enough to know what could and could not trigger them and avoid it (i.e. bmezine/modblog). with people who are easily triggered like that, and i had a roommate like that for 7 months, they can’t really even see blood sometimes so sites like these can be a huge . NO. but the rest of us shouldn’t have to suffer because a few people are testing their personal limits. know thyself. know ones body. know ones mind. know ones limits. for the people who don’t and who choose to go on sites that could trigger past issues…smarten up and maybe once you work through your issues a bit more and you aren’t so easily “triggered”, then come back and enjoy modblog…until then i say you should come at your own risk..but thats just me.

  20. kelly Avatar
    kelly

    i love it 🙂 yea i know cutting is bad….i was in a psych ward for that shit and some other stuff for three fucking years but hell i wouldn’t get rid of my scars for anything. people need to relax on the whole cutting thing…no one is going to die tonight and she obviously doesn’t look ready to off herself to me. looks like she is quite happy right there…ENJOYING BLOOD PLAY that just happens to be in the form of cutting so yea…take it for what it is because i think we could go on for hours on self injury and triggering people and suicide and risks…..the truth is you can’t prevent triggering people that used to cut…i know because i used to. with some people i knew in hospitals ANYTHING could trigger them wanting to cut…not just blood or images of cutting and sometimes those weren’t even triggers…it was usually emotional triggers like extreme anger, sadness, boredom, flash backs….shit like that. i support the shannon in posting this because if someone has that much of a problem with self injury….they shouldn’t be on any site like this….PERIOD. If a picture could trigger symptoms, a bloody picture with cuts and this site is full of bloody pictures, then the cutter or ex-cutter should be smart enough to know what could and could not trigger them and avoid it (i.e. bmezine/modblog). with people who are easily triggered like that, and i had a roommate like that for 7 months, they can’t really even see blood sometimes so sites like these can be a huge . NO. but the rest of us shouldn’t have to suffer because a few people are testing their personal limits. know thyself. know ones body. know ones mind. know ones limits. for the people who don’t and who choose to go on sites that could trigger past issues…smarten up and maybe once you work through your issues a bit more and you aren’t so easily “triggered”, then come back and enjoy modblog…until then i say you should come at your own risk..but thats just me.

  21. rhea Avatar
    rhea

    what’s with the sufi emblem ? i’m very curious.

  22. rhea Avatar
    rhea

    what’s with the sufi emblem ? i’m very curious.

  23. ash Avatar

    it’s crazy because i met this girl like 2 hours before i saw this picture…. just one of those weird coincidence things!

  24. ash Avatar

    it’s crazy because i met this girl like 2 hours before i saw this picture…. just one of those weird coincidence things!

  25. oniana Avatar

    xabeo you looka beautiful./

    and yer bathtub is cleaner’n mine

  26. oniana Avatar

    xabeo you looka beautiful./

    and yer bathtub is cleaner’n mine

  27. caitlin Avatar
    caitlin

    if i saw this anywhere else, i would immediately think it was self-harm and a psychological problem. here, everything just becomes body modification. sometimes people don’t do this as art, guys.

  28. caitlin Avatar
    caitlin

    if i saw this anywhere else, i would immediately think it was self-harm and a psychological problem. here, everything just becomes body modification. sometimes people don’t do this as art, guys.

  29. Stephanie Avatar

    Caitlin, No one has said whether it was a problem, or for fun,as art, or anything. If someone had bothered to ask about their origin, then I would have told them.

  30. Stephanie Avatar

    Caitlin, No one has said whether it was a problem, or for fun,as art, or anything. If someone had bothered to ask about their origin, then I would have told them.

  31. Max Brand Avatar

    wow…you people are all crazy….i just wanna pee on her!….

  32. Max Brand Avatar

    wow…you people are all crazy….i just wanna pee on her!….

  33. jenny Avatar

    The tiles aren’t even dirty, it’s just the grout on half the shower meaning the water probably does it and that crap is hard to clean off.

    And Stephanie, I *would* actually be interested in the real reason for the cuts. If a picture of someone’s tattoo also had some accidental scratches on it would people still be arguing with shannon to put warnings about triggers?

  34. jenny Avatar

    The tiles aren’t even dirty, it’s just the grout on half the shower meaning the water probably does it and that crap is hard to clean off.

    And Stephanie, I *would* actually be interested in the real reason for the cuts. If a picture of someone’s tattoo also had some accidental scratches on it would people still be arguing with shannon to put warnings about triggers?

  35. AMTERRORXP Avatar
    AMTERRORXP

    nice

  36. AMTERRORXP Avatar
    AMTERRORXP

    nice

  37. Stephanie Avatar

    NO PEEING ON ME

    o.o

  38. Stephanie Avatar

    NO PEEING ON ME

    o.o

  39. Thing fish Avatar

    I used to cut, trying to mend my soul.. miss the rush.

  40. Thing fish Avatar

    I used to cut, trying to mend my soul.. miss the rush.

  41. Bambi Avatar
    Bambi

    I wish stuff like this wasn’t so socially unnacceptable 🙁 I think it’s so beautiful

  42. Bambi Avatar
    Bambi

    I wish stuff like this wasn’t so socially unnacceptable 🙁 I think it’s so beautiful

  43. duckworth Avatar
    duckworth

    always funny when scrolling through modblog, and you go.. hey i know her.

  44. duckworth Avatar
    duckworth

    always funny when scrolling through modblog, and you go.. hey i know her.

  45. mandy Avatar

    it’s interesting- self harm verses scarification. people get the two confused a lot. i don’t know the roots of her intentions, nor do i care. it’s a nice photo though

  46. mandy Avatar

    it’s interesting- self harm verses scarification. people get the two confused a lot. i don’t know the roots of her intentions, nor do i care. it’s a nice photo though

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