• 41,354 / 1,384,399
  • 22 / 10,289
  • 891 / 54,915

The kiss of a scalpel

I was never one of those kids that cut themselves, be it out of depression, the desire to get attention, the pain, or just out of boredom. I have a lot of scars from getting cut growing up, getting into fights, falling out of trees, and the like. And I love scars..the look, feel, discoloration...the stories behind them. Always made me wish I had huge beautiful scars decorating my body. Until a few years ago, the thought of intentionally having someone mark my flesh to create a scar wasn't a thought at all. Looking back, it makes perfect sense now. ... read more

Normalcy is not Something to Trust

The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. Contrary to pop culture notion, I am not insane because I cut myself; but rather insane for trying vainly over and over to be happy in the same "normal" ways and expecting for it to work. I only realize this now because I have read so much about self scarification, and cutting in general. I only feel accepted and complete and comfortable with my choices because I have struggled (and continue to struggle) to find a place for myself inside a community of people ... read more

Spiritual cleansing

Hi, my name is Katie and I have a great story to share with you. It happened five years ago, when I was just 15 in my own home. I was looking through some magazines my older brother would buy (based on tattoos and piercings) and came across one that was all about scarification. I was fascinated, because as I recall, the description was: "A Tattoo Without Ink". I was always into some sort of modifications, but obviously- at the age of 15, I couldn't really do much! I kept reading though, and even realized that you could accomplish a ... read more

I gave a little bit of me

About three months ago, after much deliberation and coaxing, I decided to get some flesh removal done. Steve, my piercer, asked what I wanted and where. After a little bit of thought I decided to do five-inch long talon like triangles just under my collarbone. After Steve drew up a few stencils we finally found one that I thought was right. We decided to do dermal punch flesh removal above and below the "talons". By now I was getting kind of nervous, so while Steve was setting up I went out and had probably four or five smokes. Finally Steve ... read more

My Brush With The East India Trading Company: Or, Marking Myself a Pirate

Fanatics. They come in all shapes and forms. For some people, it's Disney memorabilia. For others, it's Krispy Kreme. For even others, it's Lord of the Rings, or Harley-Davidson motorcycles, or even religion. Everybody has something that they're passionate about, if not many things. Sometimes that passion will grab someone and affect them to the point where they feel like it's been assimilated into their being. I think many people on BME can attest to that powerful feeling of devotion and what some wrongly call "obsession" about a particular thing; I see many tattoos and scars that are tributes to ... read more

Large Leg Brand

Hi. I m Jexxica. I got into branding after initially wanting some cutting done. The first was a back piece, and now I have two installments of a piece that will eventually cover my entire leg. So there was your background. This is the story of the first leg piece. Noah took a tracing of my leg on saran wrap. He said if I came by in a couple days he have some preliminary designs drawn up for my leg brand. The objective was to cover some basic cutting I had done on myself some time ago. We wanted to ... read more

I didnt mean for it to happen, but it did.

My childhood obsession with different modifications was only furthered by my introduction to BME at the beginning of the year. Living in a respectable community I always made my fascination with scars a private thing because I never thought anyone else would find them attractive like I did. When I first opened pictures of professional scarification on BME I knew that I wanted my own. I constantly read about different methods and tried to chose the right one for me and then eventually I would go overseas to get something done. In May of 2003 I was sick in bed ... read more

My gift to my soul mate

The beginnings I've been quite intrigued by the idea of bodymods and Scarification is he one that got me the most. I've been thinking of doing one for quite a while but I never got around to it, till around one night ago. I was at my computer thinking of my boyfriend when I remembered he had branded my name into his arm. Me being the person I am decided I wanted to show I loved him as much and that it would be a perfect time to display my budding interest in scarification. I had also wanted to do ... read more

The cross tattoo that became a cutting

My friend and I were very pissed off one day, and in a generally unpleasant mood. We usually consider body mod's when we are in such moods (and usually don't go through with them, due to the fact that we are both professionals). We sat on her bed discussing what on earth we could tattoo that her parents wouldn't disown her for, and decided to get little crosses (maybe 1 1/2" by 1") on the inside of each of our left feet, below the ankle bone and above the heel. Hers would be hot pink outlined in black (she's a ... read more


Recently I wrote and submitted my tattoo experience, entitled Becoming Me. This is my follow up piece, but it stands in its own right as my cutting experience too. For a very long time, I thought I would never get a professional cutting. This was mainly due to my history of self-harm (as detailed in Becoming Me), but also because I had never seen any pieces that appealed to me, or heard of anyone having a particularly great experience. I came to BME and IAM a few years ago, thanks to VEAL, and was overwhelmed by the sheer range of ... read more

Back to Top