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The Cure to my Disease.

In some shape or form I carry my burdens and struggles as weight on my shoulders. My most current albatross resides in the form of a seemingly incurable virus, eluding my attempts to assuage it's strain by continually changing and re-inventing a new guise. With each new day I've dreamt up new ways of combating my mind's disease, now knowing that my infection is nothing less than an inflammation of apathy. Being fully aware of it's detriment, I somehow allowed myself to succumb to apathy's weight and consequence and felt my knees beginning to buckle from beneath me. It was ... read more

My struggle

Some of you may know and understand my struggles with suspensions. Every time that I suspend it is an amazing feeling of accomplishment. I remember seeing Fakir do the Sundance in his video when I was about 14. I was amazed at his ability to conquer his body with his mind and overcome his inner battles. I knew from that point I wanted to do the same and one day I too would be able to take control of myself as he had done. Time had passed and overtime I forgot about that day of awakening. It resurfaced again about ... read more

What a Drag!

All I was going to do was to try a pull, a simple one, nothing fancy, just me and an eyebolt in the wall and I was going to watch the suspensions that were being filmed for the BME movie. I ended up pulling my piercer's car across a parking lot in broad daylight, with cars driving by and a few people walking past on the sidewalk. Oh, it all started innocently enough, Badur and Jonny were going to be in town as part of their tour to do some filming for the BME movie. Everyone that would be at ... read more

The start of a new life

My interest in a suspension came from a deeply spiritual and emotional place in my life. Ever since the age of 9 or 10, I had always had visions of crucifixions - my crucifixion. I really never had any idea what these visions meant and had always just written them off as daydreams or foolish thinking. Fast forward about 12 years and everything started making sense to me about those daydreams. I had come to a point in my life where I felt I had made mistakes I could not forgive myself for. I felt like I needed to kill ... read more

My First Pull...And In Japan!

I'm a Canadian living in South Korea, teaching little kids English. I've been here for almost a year, so my time is up and I'm heading home in about 4 weeks. Well, about a month ago I got a great idea to look up BME events that may be happening when I get home. There didn't seem to be anything when I was due home, but I came across an event that was set to take place in Fukuoka, Japan. After messaging dita and reikon too many times to count over the next few weeks, I hopped on a plane ... read more

My first suspension

I wanted to be suspended for many years, but as I live in Russia it was not possible untill my recent trip to Finland. Thanks to IAM Jussi for giving me such an opportunity. Originally I wanted to go for a "superman" suspension, but only 1-4 hooks suspensions were available, so I decided to start with "suicide". I must admit that I didn't prepare myself in any way for the suspension. In fact, I was quite tired since I moved from one city to another that day and had 3 days of intense clubbing behind. I can't say that I ... read more

Fighting with suspension

The concept of suspension has never been new to me. My brother for most of our lives was enthralled with the ideas and images of Native American tribal culture, so I would intermittently hear about Sundance rituals and similar ideas. I saw "A Man Called Horse" about thirty times before I was thirteen. And of course I'd heard of Fakir as I approached age and had seen the segments on "Ripleys". So when my friend Tom suggested, when my wife and I decided to have the '02 Kentucky BME BBQ , that I get in touch with Jason from iHung, ... read more


I feel like it's about time I write a story about being tattooed. I love being tattooed, but it's ironic because when I was younger, I was really against being tattooed. So how did it all happen, you ask? It's been the evolution of me. When I was 17, I met the man I would marry and divorce within 7 years. These were the days when my depression was almost completely unbearable. I saw the world in black and white instead of color. After we were married, he got a tattoo, a very lovely cloud and rainbow thing and I ... read more

Defining moments...... my first flesh pull

This is the story of my first flesh pulling. It's basically broken down into parts, because there were alot of certain 'factors' leading up to the actual day, the event itself, and afterwards. ***** Ever since I first discovered flesh pulling and suspensions after looking around on BME and IAM, I knew it was something I wanted to learn all I could about it. I wanted to know everything - the procedure, the risks, the after effects and the mental/emotional aspect of things too. I later found out about suspension groups like IWasCured, Rites of Passage, Etre Suspendu and TSD. ... read more

600% more than last year. With the suspension to boot!

My first successful suspension was June 30, 2003 in Toronto, Ontario Canada courtesy of the groups who organized, ran and made a complete success of Suscon.Can.03. I know that iWasCured, TSD, RitesofPassage, iHung and Hangin Betty were a part of it, not sure about any others. But let's begin about 51 weeks prior to my first actual suspension. My first attempt at a suspension was July 6, 2002 in Leitchfield, Kentucky USA. I was heading down after the July 1st 2002 Canada BBQ with a friend who lives in Kentucky. We met at the May 20th 2002 BBQ (also in ... read more

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