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64 Point Play Piercing

A couple months ago I my friend randomly decided to get a labret and asked me if I'd like to tag along and maybe get something pierced. I'm always down for a piercing so I went along and got a second hole in my ears and 2 surface piercings below my clavicles. While I was getting pierced my one of the staff I was talking to the owner of the shop about how I really enjoy the piercing experience and not just the end product. He suggested that I look into play piercings. I had NO idea what play piercings ... read more

5th time up; 1st time chest

The weekend didn't go at all as planned. First there was nowhere for me to sleep; the couch was pre-empted by a thanksgiving strangler and I was chilly; I didn't want to spend the night before my most difficult physical test to date on a dusty hardwood floor. Initially I was to hang on Saturday; Emily was to come out with me. Then we were to crash at the copperworks and have a vegan thanksgiving festival on Sunday. But Emily was not able to make it out until Sunday, and even then, was not even all that able to make ... read more

Wings of steel (or - when routine goes adventure)

Some may ask "what is so special about doing your 6th and 7th body suspensions that warrants another experience for BME?" Furthermore, I did this in the superman position again, my preferred way of "flying" and a suspension I've done and described three times already. It had almost started to become routine. A well loved-routine for sure, but would it be worth another experience? Definitely yes – particularly since these ones were different - routine became an adventure again. I was even more nervous than before the very first suspension I did - and I think that's telling A LOT. ... read more

Suspending in NYC

I had wanted to do a more complex suspension for a bit. At first I thought I would do a lotus, but wanted to throw in my own twist. I had bus tickets to New York City and a day planned for the suspension. I wanted to do transitions, but they'd need an extra pulley. Not a good idea to plan it three days in advance. I'm really indecisive sometimes. I finally called Cere and we agreed upon what I wanted to do. It was set. I took the bus to NYC Sunday night and arrived tired and amazed at ... read more

my experience with self harm

I am not entirely sure why I took the path of cutting or why I still do it but I do know that it helps me battle my own mind and what its telling me. I have read other people accounts of their cuttings and why they have done it. Many made me feel guilty as my problems don't compare in the slightest, I am just not good at coping with anger and depression and cutting seems to be the only way of releasing these feeling so I don't need to cope. The first time I decided to cut I ... read more

Self-discovery in cutting.

My experiences with cutting began over 7 years ago. Back then I was young, I didn't fully understand why I cut, and every single person who found out about it kept telling me how wrong it was. I never quite understood why it was so wrong. They always described it as damaging to myself and hurtful to my loved ones. I was told it's a poor way to cope with life's trials. Well, now as I'm embarking on adulthood, I can see just how misinformed most of those people were. It frightened them and worried them, but for illogical reasons. ... read more

A Razor Blade to Set You Free

It was a long time before I realised that I was a 'cutter'. It was an even longer time before I allowed anybody in my life into my experiences in any way. The first time that I realised that I enjoyed inflicting pain on myself, I was 12 years old, scraping a piece of glass into my leg. I remember being fascinated by the blood trickling down my leg, and by the feeling of my flesh ripping under the force of the broken glass. I remember being confused and scared when my mother told me that this was the behaviour ... read more

The amazing resurrection!

I tried a 4pt, 6ga resurrection. I failed. After trying to pull myself up, having Tye pull me up, standing on Chris, laying on Chris, laying, sitting, standing. Couldn't get up. Tried for over an hour, in the rain. I was pretty bummed about this. Cere and I had made arrangements to get together and hang out in Niagara Falls, and he offered to suspend me. Tye said he was organizing something at his house that weekend. I told him Cere was coming. He said, fuck that, I want to see Cere! And he offered his tree for us to ... read more

suicide from an apple tree

Being suspended seemed like the natural evolution to being pierced so when I felt I was ready I started the ball rolling letting people know I wanted to do it and last week it finally happened. It was touch and go whether it was going to be a nice day but by the time came to do the suspension it was absolutely beautiful, especially since Octobers in England don't have a good reputation. We found a nice big tree and whilst Sarge set about putting up the rig and getting the needles and hooks ready I sat down and chilled ... read more

My Birthday Suspension - Becoming "A Man" Ritual if you will. . .

While I was in South Carolina, I found a widely known suspension group that was located in certain parts in the north-east. I got in contact with Cere, the guy responsible for the NYC chapter of the group. I told him that I was wanted to do a suspension for my 18th birthday. He proceeded to ask what position that I was interested in, and I said that it was either Suicide, or Superman. He talked me into going up Superman style, simply because it was my first time, and that's what the Superman is good for; enjoying the experience ... read more

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