My first (and probably last) self-scarification experience
Well, firts let me start out by saying that I am a dumbass. I do very, very
stupid things sometimes for no other reason than to "see what will happen". Seriously, I'm surprised I'm not dead yet. So my scarification experience... please don't judge me... I am a dumbass. My fixation (i wouldn't call it an obsession) with piercings, tatoos, blood, and various implants and surgical mods all started at a young age. I was amazed at some of the things people could and would do to their bodies. So of course I had my ears pierced once at age 6, then I needed another hole at 9 and cartialge at 10 and another lobe etc. etc. I got my nipples done at 14, and my tongue was just redone in February after a botched self-done job (I know, DUMBASS). I only have one ink, it's the virgo symbol on the inside of my right ankle... I got that done at 15. So now here I was, not quite sure about another tatoo, and I couldn't think of a piercing I really wanted. So I was at a standstill as ar as body mods go. Until about a month ago that is. I started thinking about getting some more ink done, but I decided I wanted to go for something with a little more... I don't know, meaning I guess. I figured that if I could find something I wanted on my body, why not put it there myself. That's when I decided that a scar would be an interesting addition to my mod collection. the only problem was I wasn't sure what I wanted. So began the research period. i looked high and low for meaningful symbols that I thought I would be able to live with the rest of my life. I happened upon an internet website that designed faux tatoos. I saw a design on there I really liked, but it was a little too detailed and a little too flashy looking. I decided I would clean it up and scar myself. So my design didn't mean anything. It sorta looks like a spade-type thing. It had all these dots and swirls inside it... I left those out and opted for a modified outline of the original. So first I stenciled it in fine-tip black permanent marker and left it on for about a week so I would get used to having it there. i didn't mention where it is... it's on the top of my right foot... I have this thing with tatoos and scars on the rest of my body because you can pretty much always hide your feet, and they don't wrinkle as bad as, say, your ass would :) So that's where it was to be... the top of my right foot. I decided on a dissection scalpel as my medium for this project. It wasn't at all hard to get because my friend's Dad is a veterinarian... it was pre-packaged and totally sterile. I also had various needles and other sharp metal tools I sterilized by holding over a flame and then boiling for 10 minutes. I was completely prepared. I started by scratching a rough outline with a sewing pin. I went over that a few times until I saw the blood appear. I then started in with the scalpel. I dug the lines out... it sounds kind of gross, but it wasn't. It bled, but not too much. I dug the blade in and pushed from side to side tearing the tissue. I worked slowly, but dilligently. After about an hour and a half of off and on cutting I cleaned it with an antiseptic wipe ouch) put anti-bacterial pain relief ointment on, covered it with three Nascar Band Aides, and cleaned up the mess I'd made. My scar is now very well. i picked the scabs and put ointment on etc. etc. Now I have this great alternative to a tatoo and I did it myself! The craftsmanship is pretty good for a first-timer if I do say so myself. I had to clean up around some of the edges and what-not, that hurt a lot, but the rest was relatively as painful as I expected. I know I made it sound like I botched the job or whatever, but I'm really happy with it. The only thing I would do next time is get it done professionally because you never really know what you are doing... well, I don't. I feel compelled to write that I recommend whatever I write to BME, but I can't really say unless I know you. I've always been proud of my natural scars, so i figured I'd add one with a little more meaning. I'm really glad that I did. iw ould recommend that you find out what you're doing beforehand because you can never be too careful. Good Luck to all of you in the future with your various modifications!
submitted by: Anonymous
on: 09 May 2001