"ANSWERS TO QUESTIONS YOU DIDN'T KNOW TO ASK"
My name is TIFFANY. I'm 36 years old, and married with kids.
I've been on IAM since 2002, previously as "Shaman."
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3/16/2009 | 1 comments
I haven't logged into my IAM account since October, I believe. A few things have happened since then, so I'm going to give a few quick updates. For one, David and I got married in the middle of February. His mother is having surgery on her back, so we've put off our reception and honeymoon until May. We're going to have a fancy reception and then go on a week-long honeymoon to, of all places, Las Vegas so we can do the APP convention.
The last thing you guys would probably like to hear about is the BBQ. I believe the date is set for 08-08-2009 in San Diego, but more info on that will follow shortly.
10/10/2008 | 0 comments
I had emergency surgery last Sunday to drain an abscess in my abdomen. I now have a gaping hole, and I'm in insane amounts of pain. Unpacking the gauze three to five times a day is slowly killing me. On Wednesday night, the strangest thing happened to me. I was in the shower so I could unpack the gauze and debride the wound. I don't remember the whole shower. There are...pieces missing. I remember standing in the shower. Then sitting down somehow, with nothing in between. Then the smell of cinnamon rolls. Being dry and warm, and then seeing David's eyes and being wet and sitting on the hard shower's floor again. And no, no pain meds. Nothing. Just...pain. Just an ever-widening gap between a body that hurts and a mind that has lost the will to cope.
9/25/2008 | 2 comments
The engagement rings came yesterday. Tungsten Carbide inlaid in ballistic grade, black ceramic. As soon as the rings were in-hand, David took me out to Coronado and proposed on the beach. Actually, we proposed to each other. We talked about how we felt about our journey and what more we had before us. Earth underfoot, waves around our ankles, wind whipping all around us, and the fire burning and spirit shining inside us. It was truly magical, just like all of our rituals. Proposal official. Wedding date to be announced soon.
9/19/2008 | 0 comments
I've been away from IAM for a bit. Sometimes the real world creeps in and demands to be dealt with. Sometimes it kicks and screams and punches you in the face, too! The long and the short of it is, I'm living with David in San Diego and we're engaged. The people who were making me crazy are out of my life. My ex is making every attempt to behave himself. Now, back to regularly scheduled programming.
I have more questions than I do answers at this point. I'm finding there are things I should have contemplated and didn't (like who will be in my wedding party?), and things I've spent great amounts of time contemplating and may have come to errant conclusions (like defining right and wrong). I think, for a long time, I stopped asking myself the tough questions. I noticed that I had stopped posting about my journeys in my blogs, but I don't think I realized that I had stopped searching altogether.
With all the conflict and unrest in my life, I shied away from this journey of self discovery and growth. There is always difficulty and pain in examining the way the world works. On the other hand, great things have come from this journey in the past. I rediscovered ways to deal with the emotional discomfort (writing) and am returning to a path I abandoned long ago. David introduced me to a local Buddhist temple, and I hope to pursue meditation, classes, and Dharma talks in the near future.