"I have come too far, and I cannot return..."


Last updated on March 14, 2011 February 5, 2016 March 1, 2019



I am:

  • 32 years old 37 years old 40 years old
  • Looking at BME pages since the BME/WORLD started.
  • Member of IAM since August, 2002
  • Former maker of body jewelery.
  • I have lived in the Wizard's Tower... (In fact, it's "mine") A funky apartment in Kensington Market, in a building covered in psychedelic paintings, I've been there for 5 years as of April 1st. 2011 Now live in my dead grandparent's derelict and disintegrating house since end of May, 2011
  • I live with a girl named Gilly-Bean, a busker named Jamie who is about to move out, my long term girlfriend/fiancée (see below) and my two four kitties Aurynn Pants Magnificence (a magnificent tabby) and the Golden-eyed Commander of Wishes ("Goldie") (a gold, white and black calico) AND NOW Rudy (a grey tortie) and Norman (a beautiful sealpoint himalayan)
  • After about a decade of polyamory and womanizing I am in a single recent (1.5 months) long term (5 years as of tomorrow) (8+ years) awesome(sauce) relationship, with DJ Perple Doorknob Broomstick AKA City Center. 
  • Now recovering from a major depressive episode that lasted since late 2009/early 2010. still struggle with depression and anxiety sometimes but doing pretty ok in the grand scheme of things as of 2016. rarely suffer from serious depression or anxiety anymore.
  • I make art-objects, art installations, sacred spaces, and sometimes paint or draw (badly). Sometimes I make electronic music or mixes. I throw raves and volunteer at parties and festivals. Frankly these days I mostly work, drink beer, embroider, paint, play video games, do gardening and the occasional nature walks and sometimes cook a fancy meal for the ol' lady. I am a member of the local NDP so actually have to volunteer to do political crap. This is a lot more occupying during campaign season.
  • I have a propensity for breaking into impromptu dances and/or improvised song (this has still not changed as of 2016 2019)
  •  Can't wait for 2020 so I can compare the state of the world to the old RPG Cyberpunk 2020



    100 percent all-canadian beefcake! Who do you think of when you mastrubate? K-HOLE


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3/26/2019 | 0 comments

I'm just waking up but I'll do a good diary entry later today. Can say I'm thrilled to have logged in and finding myself all the way at the end of the row.

It looks nice out
3/20/2019 | 0 comments

I don't think I fully caught up on sleep but I don't feel that bad, plus this is a relatively light workday, should only be out of the house for maybe 8 hours for today's duties, I just don't want to start too late because I should get in to work relatively early tomorrow, in fact I have to because I have to clean the chem lab at the steel plant and they lock up early. I have a hankering for a bit of a longer walk today, my cheque was quite handsome (for me) so I was thinking maybe go to the Rose City plaza and get some catnip, think about extra rat cages, and go to the liquor store and grab something like a nice, local baco noir or a magnum of South American red wine and some Flying Monkey Sparklepuff strong beer and maybe a couple Crabby's ginger beers. Then I need to go to the Lincoln Plaza and get some nicotine gum (yeah I've been using it for literally years at this point) and maybe a flat of Flying Monkey Juicy Ass milkshake IPA while they've still got any in stock... like if they still do, they only got in 6 flats last Friday and I bought one of them then and a six pack yesterday. Then maybe see if I can change over all the snake substrate and put in the new hides that I built and see if I can get her to eat, she hasn't eaten since November but I haven't tried in a few weeks at this point, it's time to try again.


The squatter's tent is still there sitting on the sidewalk, every time I go by the configuration of stuff has changed so I assume whoever it belongs to keeps coming back.

This is my own private domicile and I will not be harrassed... Bitch!
3/17/2019 | 0 comments

Yes so my eldest cat Aurynn has not been dealing so well with the pressures of challenges to his dominance as he ages, nor the being kept in with the other 4 cats much more often. He has been seeking refuge in my room where I normally exclude the other cats and keep the door closed these days. I had a water bowl for him there and later added a food dish and tonight I put in a private litter box. So now he has his own whole VIP zone.

Squatters kicked out and now can access my cat's Facebook pages
3/17/2019 | 0 comments

So I can now get into my cat's Facebook pages. I couldn't figure out what email addresses I used but apparently that doesn't matter as I was able to log in by name alone... and discovered that I had a couple email addresses I had completely forgotten about.


So the other day I went in to the steelworks and that tent behind the berm in the lot attached to the disused warehouse was still standing. When I left I found that the tent had been stuffed with the campsite items and dragged out to the street without disassembly. When I returned the following day it was open and it looks like someone had rummaged through the stuff. A lot of the tent people here seem like fucking dicks but it sucks for anyone and it was indeed full of child sized female clothing. I wish the property owners had left a note or something asking for them to leave or find a shelter for them or suggest other places they could camp. 

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3/16/2019 | 1 comments

The front page says there are 550195 profiles, this must be an all-time number, with plenty of them made by spam bots. But there are only 1720 profiles available to view.


Some of which are also bots.

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