Changed again; for good

I was lucky enough to be in LA for work at just the right time, sharing a hotel room and car with a coworker I had met the week before. I told him I needed the car for the night. And not being a good liar (actually, I have an agreement with the universe not to lie at all) I had to tell him where I was going: And then I had to explain it to him. Twice. And then I had to explain myself to him. I only tried that once. I am going to skip the formalities at ... read more

Do Not Think! Do Not Fear!

I painted my fingernails black as a kind of my own memento: "do not take anything seriously! Just open up and embrace everything that you are about to encounter." Very symbolic and pathetic to some degree but I guess I needed all confidence I could find in myself. Once more I checked my backpack and a small notebook with phone numbers of two IAM-ers I was supposed to meet in a few days. This is it; there is no way back now, I guess? It was all delayed – all of this should have taken place last year when I ... read more

Hung For The Very First Time

For thousands of years mankind has sought control. Control over its mind, control over its body, and control over the world around it. For just as long as we've sought control, we've known that one aspect of control depends on the others. To control the world around you, you must control yourself; to control yourself you must control your mind and heart. In India, Hindus celebrate festivals in which they pierce their bodies with skewers or hang themselves from hooks to show their devotion to a God. Several Native American tribes put hooks of one sort or another in their ... read more

Im a star!

I love stars and had been debating where to get something star related for some time. As much as I want to get ink, I am reluctant to because of the permanency. I tend to change my mind a lot and don't want to get ink then regret it down the track. I honestly can't see myself being into stars and the likes when I'm fifty. I guess I'm just one of those annoying people who think about the future too much. Then I realised I could get a cutting. My rationalisation for getting a cutting was that whilst it's ... read more

Set of Silver Wings at Auscon4 - Hanged Man Team

My hook love at Auscon4 – 3rd December, 2006 Comparatively to my first suspension, I wasn't anxious; perhaps the frivolity prior to the suspension had something to do with it. I hadn't thought about my hanging for quite sometime, I knew it was happening just not at the forefront of my mind. The drive to Unkey Pete's farm for Auscon4 was longer then intended, though once arrived it all kicked off quite nicely. Getting into a bit of champagne probably killed the chances of me getting any nerves. Watching the suspensions before mine, with a 100% success rate, I was ... read more

Questing to sit under the bodhi tree

I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain. --a quasi-apt quote from Frank Herbert's Dune series. This tattoo has quite the story attached to it. Let's see if I can do it justice. I've wanted a tattoo for at least the past 4 years or more that ... read more

Le Temps de Ma Vie

As an art student as the University of South Florida, I had the incredible opportunity this passed June ('06) to study in France for a month. This also meant I had the opportunity to visit Avignon, the home of the infamous Monsieur Lucas Zpira01 and "body hacktivist" practices in which I have been interested for several years. I could write a novel about the entire experience... but of course I'll restrain myself to sharing with you the juicy details of my suicide suspension. Though the entire ordeal began with pleasant correspondences with Lucas, the process of getting to Avignon was ... read more

I had to commit suicide to be cured.

saturday. december 16th. Today i did a suspension. Most people would either think it was weird, or that i'm fucked in the head. Actually, quite the opposite. Yes, the basic concept was to have hooks thrown into my back, and then being hung by skin. But there is so much more to it. Let me explain. So, in the car ride up to Toronto, with the guitar player from Manic Prosperity, and Tyler from braebrook. We picked up wendy's, and a charger for the camera. We got to the BodyARTpro studio, and met Mike, Badur, and another girl there. The ... read more

Bent Hooks

A few years ago, I came across suspension at a concert. It was one of the most beautiful things I have ever seen. I was fascinated! I never knew that the body could endure such things. I was amazed how strong these people were mentally to do such a thing. Right then and there, I determined that I could never do that, I don't have the courage to even try. At the beginning of this year, one of the guys I live with got suspended. Hearing him talk about his experience made me curious about suspension. After talking to him, ... read more

Butterfly Metamorphisis

For my first tattoo, I chose to get a monarch butterfly tattooed on my arm. Right, I know, I KNOW, just like every other 18 year old girl out there, but I'd like to think my tattoo is a little more unique than just getting a butterfly for the sake of getting a tattoo. You see, back in October, my boyfriend and I were robbed near our apartment, and we ended up spending the better part of a night locked up in the trunk of their car. They stole many things from our apartment, including my computer and an external ... read more

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