• 41,246 / 1,366,125
  • 20 / 7,652
  • 891 / 54,890

The story of my broken heart...

First, let me say that I have extensive experience with cutting, having been a person who has participated in scarification for many years. This is not an experience you should attempt to replicate, because I could have paid very dearly for this experience. This is the story of my broken heart.... When I was a much younger, more naive girl I began cutting, at first looking for some release, and then for the beauty of the scars. I was perhaps fourteen when this particular saga began and seventeen when it ended. The first incarnation of the six-inch long heart scar ... read more

Secret Scar

I was 20 when I did my first, and only, so far, scarification. At that time I didn't even know what I was doing, much less that it had a name or that other people did it. I was just doing it cause it felt right. I felt I needed to make a permanent mark to myself to show how far I had come, to show myself I had survived. The pain from the knife was nothing compared to the pain behind the symbol I was carving. In a way, the knife felt good against my skin, it felt almost ... read more

Pretty Scars

I'm Kitty, 15 years old, not quite average, you might say. I consider myself an individual, as I seem to think in a different way to my peers, I seem to have different values to them (loyalty over self-preservation for example). I've always been attracted to the "alternative" side of society. The people who don't quite fit in. Like me. I've never quite fit in, jumping back and forth between the "punk" and "goth" and just plain "misunderstood outcasts" of my area and school... Anyways, back to the subject of body modification... I don't have many piercings, as my mother ... read more

Gargoyle Wings

On July 16th I went to Austin to have my wings cut into my back. I chose this particular medium because I wanted wings but its common to see people with tattooed wings and I thought that scarification would be a good alternate to make my wings a little bit different than everyone else's. I used BME Zine to research scarification and found that many people write experiences on this website but most of then are home scarifications and I didn't feel that I would be able to relate to there experiences because I would only have this done in ... read more

Devotion to Linkin Park

Warning: What I did below is unsafe, and dangerous. If you want to have a scarification done, I strongly suggest either a. using nice clean tools or b. getting it done by a professional. Please do not copy my exact movements. The way that I handled this was stupid and I could of really hurt myself. I was lucky, you may not be. As I type this, I look down at my newly carved Linkin Park symbol which is visible on my pale foot. Before I go into detail on how I did my carving, I think I should tell ... read more

"Yeah Sure A Soldering Iron is exactly the same as a Cauterising Tool

Let me start by saying that this tale occurred nearly five years ago when I very first started piercing and new very little in comparison to what I do today. I had wanted three stars branded on my leg for a number of years and had been to the only place in the state at the time and had a look at the quality of work and was not impressed at all. Having done successful strike brandings on others and myself I was sure I could do a better job if only I had the correct tools. I precede to ... read more

Wanted them. Got them.

A little bit of history might be helpful here. Since I was about eighteen, I'd wanted to receive a brand. I always had a bit of a problem with burns, though. I suppose it's something subconscious, like when I was two and pulled a pitcher of boiling tea over on my right arm and lost a bit of flesh. My whole forearm was scarred up pretty badly until I was about five or six when it started to fade. A little bit of it is still visible, but most of it is covered by tattoos. I think the first brand ... read more

Fear

I have been cutting for about 4 months. All of which resulted from the constant 'fat' jokes, 'perfectness' referalls, and prolonged issues with school. I tried piercing as a way to rid myself of such negative feelings. But, my school made me take them out. That is when a friend of mine told me about her cutting. I decided that there is nothing the school can do about this.. they will never know. My arms would be too obvious. I chose my right leg. It has scars that show that I got rid of some of the pain, but it ... read more

"I looked down and smell my burning flesh"

I woke up that day with bad feelings in my mind, I realized that I would work the grave yard shift at my work today. But this day would to become one of the better days of my life. I woke up kind of early this day so I didn´t know what to do with all my free time before work, so I decided to visit my friend at his studio and just spent some time and talk, if he didn´t have any customers that is. So I went there and we just sat there and talked when I realized ... read more

Taking Further Steps

After reading Shannon Larratt's fantastic article entitled Shooting the Messenger: Why it's important to let young people cut, I took a step back into myself and looked into why I did it myself. Three bars, meaning Mind, Body, and Soul-- these meant a lot to me at the time. It was there where I felt this foundation was solid, and the only thing I could do was go forward. I couldn't jump, so I suppose, scalpel in the hand of someone I still think fondly of even now-- I had to crawl. "It was the most intense thing in my ... read more

Back to Top