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Now I know it didn't smell like pork last time.

I did it again. The last time I branded myself I told myself that I would wait, and get my next one done professionally, but of course I have the willpower of a sugar-obsessed five year old on a pile of sweets, so it was inevitable that I came back, five months later, to do another. This one was a lot more important to me. Before I was still very much rooted in somewhat of a depression, and as such I branded myself alone, without telling anybody, and as such had a very different experience than I did on this ... read more

my now awesome profile

So, I've done the piercing thing and the tattoo thing and love them both (more of a piercing person though) but was looking for something more. I had known about scarification for awhile from various sources and had always been interested in it but never really thought to do it. About 3 or 4 months ago I became more interested in it and was seriously considering having something done. I tent to be more spontaneous when it comes to piercing (probably because you can take them out, though I never have) but when it comes to tattoos or any other ... read more

I never thought...a branding for me???

I have been into body modification for almost three years now and I had never even considered branding. I had never even heard of it until I went to a rave in Toronto, and a girl there was showing me a tattoo and describing to me parts she wanted to get branded. That began to interest me, but I still never considered it for myself. I tend to get in these moods where I know I want to get some body work done, but I never know what it is. I end up going to the studio and deciding what ... read more

A razorblade kiss

I have cut on and off since I was about 13. I found it a release from the loneliness that comes from being an outsider, a social misfit, one who found it difficult to fit into any one group of people. Living where I did, I found that there were very few people exactly like me, and that got me down a lot. At times I wanted to crawl into a hole and die; I felt like everybody hated me for who I was. As well as being for the release, I quickly grew to like the feel of cutting, ... read more

When is Cutting Self Injury?

I used to cut myself; it's something I've always been open about even though I'm ashamed of it, mostly because I believe it's a problem that should not just be shut away and forgotten by society. I remember feeling absolutely terrible even as I ran the knife over my arm. I felt I'd let myself down, I felt I was mutilating myself. I sought help and gradually weaned myself from it, not just by treating the cutting itself (which is just a symptom of something more troubling after all) but by improving my entire mental state and outlook. I went ... read more

Only I can Absolve my Sins

Background I'm not a Christian and I haven't been since I realized I didn't believe when I was only 9. I am however fascinated by Christianity. I spend a lot of time studying both the religion itself and different Christian cultures, the later of which interests me the most. I often discuss these topics with Christian friends of mine. A couple months ago I brought up an observation I had made. I didn't understand how Jesus could possibly die for our sins. How could punishing the only innocence individual on earth possibly have a positive benefit for the guilty? I ... read more

My Tribute to a Legend

Let me just tell you up front that it sucks being 16 and wanting a tattoo. Just imagining how my skin would look designed with the beautiful ink from a tattoo gun and knowing that that dream can't become a reality for another two years drives me crazy. Although I've never been anywhere near to getting a tattoo, my skin is the shelters a desire that makes my skin itch with a craving that words can't justly describe. So I decided that I'd have to settle for the next best thing: scarification. So this yearning for a tattoo had been ... read more

my little chunk of branded moonshine.

I guess you could say that I always had a fascination when it came to masochism, not the sexual masochism, more so the I-like-to-hurt way. Knowing this in a re modified shed on a cool summer evening with my best friend I decided to tell her about all it. You see I used to always have an obsession with stars. I'd draw them pretty violently on anything; paper, body, my shoes on a slow day at work,air, with-- anything at that; pens, pencils, macaroni,ice plants--it was an addiction. I would try to take notes in science class, but then my ... read more

extending the scars

I've been working on my leg scarification now for the past 3 years. For the first two cuttings Luis Garcia whom used to work at Infinite in Philly just did 2 separate scalpel cuttings. Man, that shit not only hurt, but what was even more scary was the amount of blood I lost each time. The first cutting I got done wasn't so bad, but the second time I thought I was gonna bleed to death. It was as if someone had stuck the proverbial pig-me. After I got cut a bunch of us went out to some club for ... read more

Pretty Scars

I'm Kitty, 15 years old, not quite average, you might say. I consider myself an individual, as I seem to think in a different way to my peers, I seem to have different values to them (loyalty over self-preservation for example). I've always been attracted to the "alternative" side of society. The people who don't quite fit in. Like me. I've never quite fit in, jumping back and forth between the "punk" and "goth" and just plain "misunderstood outcasts" of my area and school... Anyways, back to the subject of body modification... I don't have many piercings, as my mother ... read more

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