By LotN · March 26, 2008 · 0 comments
How can I possibly put it into words, something like that? I don't even understand it, what happened up there. And I'm really the only one that could. There are just some things that cannot be put into words. The only way to get it is to have been there, and even then, you'd understand it in your own way. I guess all I can do is tell it like it happened. I've long thought that the Lotus is the most peaceful suspension position - meditating on air, like a piece of classic iconography. I figured I had a lot ...
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By Anonymous · March 26, 2008 · 0 comments
My friend George (IAM: Hooked) picked me up at work around 9:30pm and we stopped at Kentucky Fried Chicken and he picked up some food. Then we were off to the hotel room he was staying at. He lives in New Jersey and came down for the weekend to visit. We arrive at the hotel and head up to his room. I can't remember if he ate first or if we got started right away. I saw on a table in the corner of the room he already had a few things set up. Box of gloves. Couple of bottles ...
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By Anonymous · March 13, 2008 · 0 comments
For a good majority of my life, I have had the stigma placed on me of being a "self injurer". Through shame and guilt I have gone for 22 long years trying to hide the scars, making excuses and lies about what really happened, and wondering what the hell was wrong with me. Im not what people consider "Emo" nor am I an angst ridden teen. Im a man entering my thirties, college educated, and overall a well balanced individual. Very recently, through the help of someone near and dear to my heart, I have begun to look back at ...
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By Anonymous · March 13, 2008 · 0 comments
I'm going to preface my experience by saying that not only was my suspension a fantastic event by itself, but also came at an opportune moment in my life. I went through a break-up a week prior and since that happened my mind-set has really changed a lot, and this suspension, which was planned prior to this break-up, has been like a gateway into my new life. Today, being 2 days after my suspension, I have greater clarity on the whole experience, and I just wanted to put it into words, especially since a lot of people have been asking ...
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By Anonymous · March 13, 2008 · 0 comments
I'll never forget my first suspension. Ever. I have a full backpiece and I was always afraid of having hooks in it, but I met with Tye and saw the scarring from his suspensions and it was very minimal, so I decided to go for a four point suicide. I had been deciding against that or a knee suspension for my first and decided that a 4pt suicide suspension was the way to go. We set a date and I arranged with Tye to stay over at his house that night and drive to Kitchener the day before. I gathered ...
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By Anonymous · March 13, 2008 · 0 comments
I started cutting in my junior year of high school. I wasn't anyone special, not a cheerleader or a "popular kid". I wasn't a slut although the rumors said otherwise. My dad had went postal on me when he found out I was getting high and had kicked me out of his house during the spring of my sophomore year. The months that followed were like a haze. They were filled with threats, phone calls and loads of guilt. During the summer I had started playing with my razor blades from my crafting knives. It was still strange that just ...
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By Anonymous · March 04, 2008 · 0 comments
Suspension Number: 9 I finally found my most challenging position. I've mastered the superman by far by going up in less than 60 seconds and staying up comfortably for almost 30. My suicides have gotten me up faster and up longer and swinging farther. My knee suspension from saturday took me 45 minutes to stay up less than 5. Why? I am afraid of being upside down for a long period of time, and the pain was excrutiating for me. For steve's birthday I thought I would try a new position, last year on his bday I did my first ...
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By Anonymous · March 04, 2008 · 0 comments
It was hardly 'hard core', but this was one intense experience for this lil' novice. It must have been, given that I still feel the need to tell anyone who will listen an entire week later! To set the scene: it was the day after Valentine's day and a friend and I were booked to do a show at a local fetish club. As the theme was 'designer vagina', we figured that a corset play piercing would be a good way to link the themes of 'pink bits', surgery, Valentines' day gifts and so on. I wanted to show that ...
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By Anonymous · March 04, 2008 · 0 comments
A friend and I had decided to do it a few weeks in advance. We had plans to involve more people but limitations acquiring supplies meant I ended up the only person with everything needed. It was a total DIY operation. I went to the only local place that sells piercing and tattoo supplies to the public, I ordered debarbed 8g hooks online, and picked up medical supplies, (gloves, alcohol wipes, bandages, saline,) from the hospital pharmacy near my work. I took my hooks to a tattoo shop down the street from my house to be sterilized and that was ...
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By Anonymous · March 04, 2008 · 0 comments
This, like many of my writings is about cutting in a ritualistic setting. In the case of this experience, I must say that if you ARE cutting, please make sure you are well aware of what EXACTLY you are doing. Accidents do happen, and I am the first to admit I have made a fair share of my own. Work with caution and patience-- or better yet, around those with medical background. Another cupful of sorrow came over me with yet another set of job interviews leading to a dead end. I wanted to share the experience with my Master, ...
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