By Anonymous · June 16, 2008 · 0 comments
I am laying on a folding table, the pink plastic cushioning sticking to my back. The smell of technicare and whatever was used to clean the table fills my head. "Are you ready?" Nickk asks, as he pulls on a fresh pair of blue gloves. "Yes." I am exceptionally excited, my normally busy brain silent and focused on the task at hand. Eight purple dots mark where the hooks will enter and exist my chest. Four point chest suspension, probably a bit ambitious for my first, but the only way I want to get my wings. Nickk starts pulling at ...
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By Anonymous · May 29, 2008 · 0 comments
On the outside I was just like all other 15-year-old girls: cell phone, my own room, you know the typical works of living in a top notch cookie-cutter neighborhood. On the inside things went dissimilar. Things were dissimilar. I hated myself. I hated everyone. Life was a blur that I could not simply wipe away. I did not want to join the statistics of committing suicide in the adolescent years nor did I even want to die. I just wanted to disappear. I still do now. Nothing was there to make me feel better. Until I went into my mum's ...
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By Anonymous · May 29, 2008 · 0 comments
I hadn't ever really thought about doing a pull up until 2 years ago when a friend offered to perform the pull for a girlfriend and I. He is an experienced piercer who travels all over and I really just thought the whole experience might be something to try out. I'm into meditation and different body rituals and I'm always looking to expand my horizons. I went out the night before and did ecstacy and didn't sleep very much... not something I would recommend to anyone! If you're going to do a pull, get a good sleep the night before. ...
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By Anonymous · May 29, 2008 · 0 comments
I remember the first time I began cutting. I was 16 years old and going through, what I like to call now, a crazy attack. I was not able to control my overwhelming emotions; which was, at the moment of my first cut, uncontrollable crying. When I was in the shower, I decided to take apart a disposable razor and use a shoelace around my upper forearm and begin my first cut. It was small, but effective. Frankly, it shocked me that I had enough courage to do it but it also helped me with my crazy attack. All I ...
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By Anonymous · May 01, 2008 · 0 comments
I remember when first time I ever cut. It was a 'testing the waters' type deal, where I saw the edge of a tape dispenser and wondered how it would feel to run it against my wrist.Evolution, has happened since then. Since that day in 6th grade, cutting has become my way of coping with any emotional pain that veers in my direction. Anger,fear,guilty,worry,hopeless, you name it, I'll cut for it. But damn...if it just didn't FEEL so good. At times I thought I wanted to stop..I tried other things. Reading,writing, talking...but here was nothing, and is nothing, like the ...
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By Anonymous · April 07, 2008 · 0 comments
I am not prepared. You easily know it, when you're facing something you're not prepared to, and I had a voice repeating this in my mind. I am not prepared. When I took off my t-shirt I understood that it was too late to turn it back. I am not prepared. Like the first suspension I went through, my mind was screaming at me my lack of preparation. Am I focused enough? Calm enough? Inspired enough? Do I feel my body and trust it enough? And that crying voice keeps on repeating: No. No. No. I lay down on the ...
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By Anonymous · April 07, 2008 · 0 comments
This is the story of my first suspension. My experience started more than two years ago when I walked into Anomaly Piercing Studio on Green St. in Pasadena, CA. I entered the shop with the intention of getting my nipples pierced, but I left with a lot more, three friends I will have for the rest of my life. Over time, and multiple mods, I heard more and more about suspension. The pictures around the shop showed Sque3ze in different positions, eyes closed, deep in thought, hanging above the ground. From the moment I laid eyes on those photos I ...
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By Anonymous · April 07, 2008 · 0 comments
The first time that I heard about play piercing, I was mortified, and just couldn't understand why someone would want to push needles through their body without the later gratification of jewelry. I would find out soon enough that there was an immense amount of gratification that goes along with the practice. Also, before I start, I would like to free myself from any litigation that might follow from someone hitting a vein, artery, nerve, or causing any manner of unwanted physical or mental damage before, during, or after if you have decided to try something like this. I am ...
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By MissPiss · April 07, 2008 · 0 comments
The first time you suspend is like the first time you have sex; nervous beforehand, feelings of excitement and yet complete vulnerability, indecisions, and of course...pain. I've built up suspension in my head for so long. I've read a million different experiences and articles and I could barely watch a video of someone suspending without aching with jealousy. So it would obviously come to pass that I would be super excited about finally getting my chance to suspend. I saw the look on Josh's(my boyfriend) face when he got down from the hooks for the first time so long ago. ...
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By Anonymous · April 07, 2008 · 0 comments
I am a Sub. I am here to please others, even other subs. I've known her for three days, and I was extremely horny tonight. So I kindly mentioned how pleasing for me it would be if she asked me to do something for her, and to my relief, she did. She asked what I was open for and I told her pretty much anything, which is true. We've already talked about cutting during sex. She asked me if I'd cut myself, and masturbate for her. I gladly said yes. My heart started to beat fast. I have a fetish ...
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