By Anonymous · July 26, 2005 · 0 comments
Bob and I have been planning for nearly a month to have me (a.k.a. "Professor Torture Master") experience a true suspension - my 1st. (Again, B.M.E./staff for contributing to my new alias). We will lay out the design for the rigging. And it will be my responsibility to fabricate it. After all, teaching physics for 30 years, I should be able to build a simple rig for this ordeal. We felt that a combination type suspension - 2 point chest and 4 point back was in order. While the rig was under construction, Bob and I both decide that there's ...
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By Anonymous · July 26, 2005 · 0 comments
I remember the first time I had seen and talked to someone who had cut themselves. I remember thinking how bad it was and how could they do something like that. Before long I myself found out how such a thing could happen. My first experience with cutting was when I was eleven years old. It was a stupid childish thing. I had cut a boys initials into my arm. I honestly don't remember what I used or if it even hurt. Over time it faded and there are no marks of it. If only I had known what that ...
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By Anonymous · July 26, 2005 · 0 comments
Bueno primero quiero decirles que esto me paso con mi pareja, a la cual conozco hace ya 10 años y con la que estoy saliendo desde hace 1 año y 6 meses. Por suerte con ella tengo muchísima confianza. Nosotros dos somos personas a las q les gustan los body mods y q llevamos algunos en nuestros cuerpo (yo tengo tatuada mi pierna izquierda, perforado mi pezón izquierdo, la lengua y estoy ampliando mis lóbulos mientras q ella tiene un medusa, un nostril, sus dos pezones perforados un tatuaje en el pecho y 1 en cada muñeca). Nos encanta probar ...
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By Anonymous · July 26, 2005 · 0 comments
I've seen a lot of stories about self harm on here recently and it's shocking me to be quite honest, how open people can be to talk about it. I have been a 'cutter' for several years, in and out of psychiatric units because of it. The most recent time was only a few weeks ago and perhaps this could even be a slight warning to some of the cutters on here. By all means, do as you please but be aware of this story as it may help you to reconsider your method of self injury. There's absolutely no ...
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By Lozza_mc · July 26, 2005 · 0 comments
Blood. On my arm. Did I do that? No, surely I didn't. I'm not crazy. Only crazy people cut themselves... don't they? Look, there I go again... more blood... more pain. Oh god, what am I doing? I was 16 years old. My life had just been turned upside down. My mother had just kicked me out of home; I had no money, no food, no friends, and no job. I spent all my time sleeping, trying to stop the pain in the pit of my stomach, ease the desperate loneliness (and the hunger). The first time was the scariest. ...
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By Humanimal · July 26, 2005 · 0 comments
So, through the day do to many circumstance I was feeling depressed almost on the verge of crying. And I'm tired of crying all the time so, I though of the options that I had to avoid feeling the way I was. My options were to get drunk which I did earlier this week and I didn't really want to spend the money on it. I could've gotten high, but the weather has been way to warm and there's a drought with weed so I wasn't able to go that route either. So I decided to utilize a box of ...
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By Anonymous · July 26, 2005 · 0 comments
Adeptes de pratiques sado-masochistes de moins en moins soft, ma petite amie Milena (25 ans) et moi (28 ans) avons déjà essayé réciproquement nombre de choses liées à ces techniques de douleur dans le plaisir : bondage, fessées, flagellation, brûlure à la cire de bougie, élargissement anal avec godemichés de plus en plus grands, urophilie. Nous avons effectivement pu constater la rapide inflation de souffrance et de désir nés de ces pratiques librement consenties. Notre jouissance n'aboutit aujourd'hui qu'en allant toujours de plus en plus loin : au départ, le pincement de tétons était un must quand nous faisions l'amour ...
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By Anonymous · July 18, 2005 · 0 comments
Ich möchte hier Heute von etwas berichten, was mich nun schon länger beschäftigt und wozu ich auch gerne mal meinen persönlichen Standpunkt äussern würde. Als ich noch jünger war, ich glaube das erste Mal habe ich es mit 13 gemacht, hatte ich wie so viele Jugendliche mit allem möglichen Dingen, die das erwachsenwerden so mit sich zieht, Probleme und griff hin und wieder zu einem Messer, um mich zu zerschneiden. Mal waren es nur ein, zwei Schnitte, mal 30, 40. Das gefühl, die Klinge wie ein Stück heissen Draht durch meine Haut gleiten zu fühlen, war mir jedesmal ein Zeichen, ...
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By Anonymous · July 18, 2005 · 0 comments
June 26, 2005, 10 in the morning. The doorbell rings. It is the day of my second Truth Seekers Syndicate Event. I would be suspending, and I was totally ready for it. After my two pulls, I was convinced that I could suspend, and go crazy on my hooks too! Of course I was a little nervous, but they were healthy, happy nerves. Colin is at the door, to pick me up. Together, we drove to the train station of Venlo, where everybody would meet. Several people were already waiting there. Soon, more people showed up. When everybody had arrived ...
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By pierced-boy · July 18, 2005 · 0 comments
Brauche ich für die Suspension irgendetwas Besonderes?", fragte ich Ueli, als wir durch den Wald zum Ort des vor mir liegenden Geschehens liefen. Nein, eigentlich nicht.", antwortete er nach kurzem Überlegen. Ich hatte lediglich eine weitere kurze Hose unter dem Arm, das sollte genügen. Ueli war einer der Initiatoren des ersten Schweizer Body Modification-Meetings, an dem ich nun tatsächlich teilnehmen sollte. Hinter einem kleinen Hochwasserdamm erreichten wir nach kurzem Spaziergang die Gruppe, die bereits unter anderem auch auf mich als einen der Akteure an diesem milden Sommerabend wartete. Mitten im Wald hatten sich hier ca. 20 Leute versammelt, um gemeinsam ...
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