By Anonymous · Oct. 06, 2005 · 0 comments
I decided I wanted to do a vertical suspension, because I wanted to swing. I'd had trouble with suicides with all the pressure being on my back. It meant that I couldn't really concentrate on anything except the pain when I was up. I thought that if I had some hooks on my front as well it would even out the pressure a bit and I could swing :) Also, I was curious as to how it would feel to suspend from my chest, as I enjoy chest pulls. However, I found the idea of doing a chest suspension on ...
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By Anonymous · Oct. 06, 2005 · 0 comments
I love chest pulls. I've done two previous chest before this experience, and enjoyed them both. Although they don't give me as much of a buzz as suspensions, I like that I don't have to prepare so much for them. I also enjoy the feeling of the hooks pulling my skin gradually further away from my body, and how I can change how hard I want to pull. I've seen people pierce their own suspension hooks before and I was curious about whether I'd be able to do it. A lot of things I try because of curiousity. I like ...
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By Skip · Oct. 06, 2005 · 0 comments
After reading almost every experience for cutting on the site over the years since I discovered BME. I notice most of them are a lot different to my experiences and so finally I have found the courage to attempt to explain my mind in hope it will help someone else to avoid some of the things I have been through. It all started four years ago. In my view I was your everyday happy, carefree teenager enjoying the life I had and working towards accomplishing my goals for the future. I had always liked and done well in school and ...
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By Anonymous · Oct. 06, 2005 · 0 comments
September 24th, 2005: it is the day of Bodypiercing Lifestyle's 10 year anniversary party. Partytime is from from 2 pm till all the booze and food is gone. There are many performances, and I am one of those performers. I'm doing a 4-point suicide as I already know what that's like. So why not try something new, you may ask? Well, because while hanging there I'm supposed to announce the brand new Lifestyle Suspension Crew. This is the story of my suspension/performance. I arrived at Lifestyle around 12.30 pm I was supposed to get there at noon but of ...
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By Paindreamer · Sept. 26, 2005 · 0 comments
Both coma and resurrection suspensions looked so peaceful and relaxing but which one should I attempt? The "sleeping beauty" one or the "Spiritual awakening"? Since I find them both to be of great importance to me I had trouble to choose one of them! I had my mind set on coma suspension for a long time but did not have any opportunity to attempt it yet. I knew there would be a great opportunity to do it during the Summer Modfest 2005 since the best Scandinavian suspension teams were supposed to attend this event. One of them, which, by the ...
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By Lozza_mc · Sept. 26, 2005 · 0 comments
The first time I ever witnessed 'live' play piercing was in Liverpool, during the Sandy Cracks meet. We were staying with fellow IAMers, and the evening we arrived resulted in a play piercing session. I remember at the time feeling apprehensive when everyone else started playing, as I had not explained to my partner about this sort of 'play', and fully expected him to exclaim his horror at people willingly poking themselves, for no apparent purpose. Thankfully, he didn't seem either repulsed or shocked, and I would eventually use this, for lack of a better word, non-reaction, to convince him ...
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By Anonymous · Sept. 26, 2005 · 0 comments
I first discovered suspension at a very young age. Cable television opens up many worlds to latch key children! After seeing it on television, both the new skool westernized version as well as the native americans, and the hindu kavadi, i was "hooked" so to speak. I suppose that it all started when I got my first tattoo at the tender age of 11, piercings where soon to follow. Eventually the path of body modification would lead me to want to do a suspension. I met Sara (IAM: HeHadItComin ) online, through one of the other "profile" sites. We discussed ...
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By Anonymous · Sept. 19, 2005 · 0 comments
There is nothing like the first time. The first time you drag that blade across you're skin. It's something you will never forget... no matter how much you try. I was twelve years old. I was only in 7th grade, and already I hated myself. I hated my life, and everything about it. I never knew that what I was about to do would escalate to the point it is now, and if someone had told me I never would have believed them. I had struggled with depression, low self esteem, and mild forms of self injury since I was ...
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By Anonymous · Sept. 09, 2005 · 0 comments
Before I start, I need to warn readers that I do not condone these activities for others, mostly because the medical community in general doesnt understand the psychological forces involved, and anyone who had experiences such as this one risks getting institutionalized. Additionally, I don't believe that cutting is a 'cure' for depression, so anyone suffering from these urges should seek professional help. To begin with, I have dealt with depression for years. I have been seeing a therapist for about a year, and he tried to put me on medication... which I hated to I never took it. I ...
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By Anonymous · Sept. 09, 2005 · 0 comments
I must start out by saying that I am NOT advocating the act of cutting. To me, it is not something to do "just for the fun or it". There are underlying reasons behind why people cut -it is not just done to stand out or get attention, and it is not something to be taken lightly. Now with that said, I come to my story. I wasn't always a cutter. I used to be very happy with myself, and the way things were going in my life. I was just plain HAPPY. But things changed when I started middle ...
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