By Anonymous · Dec. 21, 2008 · 0 comments
Some may ask "what is so special about doing your 6th and 7th body suspensions that warrants another experience for BME?" Furthermore, I did this in the superman position again, my preferred way of "flying" and a suspension I've done and described three times already. It had almost started to become routine. A well loved-routine for sure, but would it be worth another experience? Definitely yes particularly since these ones were different - routine became an adventure again. I was even more nervous than before the very first suspension I did - and I think that's telling A LOT. ...
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By Anonymous · Dec. 21, 2008 · 0 comments
I had wanted to do a more complex suspension for a bit. At first I thought I would do a lotus, but wanted to throw in my own twist. I had bus tickets to New York City and a day planned for the suspension. I wanted to do transitions, but they'd need an extra pulley. Not a good idea to plan it three days in advance. I'm really indecisive sometimes. I finally called Cere and we agreed upon what I wanted to do. It was set. I took the bus to NYC Sunday night and arrived tired and amazed at ...
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By Anonymous · Nov. 11, 2008 · 0 comments
My experiences with cutting began over 7 years ago. Back then I was young, I didn't fully understand why I cut, and every single person who found out about it kept telling me how wrong it was. I never quite understood why it was so wrong. They always described it as damaging to myself and hurtful to my loved ones. I was told it's a poor way to cope with life's trials. Well, now as I'm embarking on adulthood, I can see just how misinformed most of those people were. It frightened them and worried them, but for illogical reasons. ...
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By Anonymous · Nov. 11, 2008 · 0 comments
It was a long time before I realised that I was a 'cutter'. It was an even longer time before I allowed anybody in my life into my experiences in any way. The first time that I realised that I enjoyed inflicting pain on myself, I was 12 years old, scraping a piece of glass into my leg. I remember being fascinated by the blood trickling down my leg, and by the feeling of my flesh ripping under the force of the broken glass. I remember being confused and scared when my mother told me that this was the behaviour ...
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By Anonymous · Oct. 30, 2008 · 0 comments
First off, some back story. I was in Thailand for the Phuket Vegetarian Festival in 2007 and 2008 (and hopefully for many years to come!) and male participants in the ceremony are allowed to walk on fire, after the mahsong (spirit mediums entranced by the Chinese Emperor Gods) have done so. This is one of the most "involved" parts of the ceremony for people who are not mahsong, which only a small portion the Chinese Thai devotees are, so getting to participate is in itself quite an experience. We have been graced with being more involved than most foreigners as ...
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By Anonymous · Oct. 30, 2008 · 0 comments
I tried a 4pt, 6ga resurrection. I failed. After trying to pull myself up, having Tye pull me up, standing on Chris, laying on Chris, laying, sitting, standing. Couldn't get up. Tried for over an hour, in the rain. I was pretty bummed about this. Cere and I had made arrangements to get together and hang out in Niagara Falls, and he offered to suspend me. Tye said he was organizing something at his house that weekend. I told him Cere was coming. He said, fuck that, I want to see Cere! And he offered his tree for us to ...
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By Anonymous · Oct. 30, 2008 · 0 comments
Being suspended seemed like the natural evolution to being pierced so when I felt I was ready I started the ball rolling letting people know I wanted to do it and last week it finally happened. It was touch and go whether it was going to be a nice day but by the time came to do the suspension it was absolutely beautiful, especially since Octobers in England don't have a good reputation. We found a nice big tree and whilst Sarge set about putting up the rig and getting the needles and hooks ready I sat down and chilled ...
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By Anonymous · Oct. 30, 2008 · 0 comments
While I was in South Carolina, I found a widely known suspension group that was located in certain parts in the north-east. I got in contact with Cere, the guy responsible for the NYC chapter of the group. I told him that I was wanted to do a suspension for my 18th birthday. He proceeded to ask what position that I was interested in, and I said that it was either Suicide, or Superman. He talked me into going up Superman style, simply because it was my first time, and that's what the Superman is good for; enjoying the experience ...
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By Anonymous · Oct. 30, 2008 · 0 comments
I had decided I wanted to do a 4pt resurrection. Tried it, failed. I was bummed. So I decided to do a 6pt. I told Tye this. Tye knows I change my mind every 5 minutes, and was surprised when he went to mark me up, that I wanted to do my knees. 4pt. I can't tolerate hooks in the top of my knees, so 6pt (really no need in someone that weighs under 110lbs!) was out, and so was 2pt, as I've tried before, and hated. So, 4pt it was. Allana was there, and so was Chris. Tye marked ...
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By Anonymous · Oct. 21, 2008 · 0 comments
Hello. My name is Kyo. I have a couple of reasons why I cut myself, but starting out with how this idea of self-harm came to be would be a good start. I had a pretty lonely childhood, adolescent, and...I guess...young adult life. I was made the "black sheep" in middle school, and lost all hope in friendship by the time I was a sophomore in high school. I was all alone from sophomore year up until the middle of senior year. My loneliness was absolute. Absolutely no one in class or homeroom would talk to me. Sometimes, I would ...
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