By MillieB · Aug. 23, 2006 · 0 comments
The day I got play pierced by Mark It was a Monday morning and I rang up The Metal Guru to see if Mark, the male piercer and not my normal piercer, could play pierce me on the Tuesday. He said he could. I was absolutely terrified, I spent the whole day and night shaking with nerves, the pain didn't bother me at all, and I love the feelings of having needles inserted into my skin. Although I don't really know Mark, I've always thought of him very highly but I was scared of him just because he's male, he ...
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By Anonymous · Aug. 23, 2006 · 0 comments
As I write this I ask you not to judge me. This is a controversial topic and I hope I manage to convey my feelings and my motivations for doing what I feel I need to, as honestly as I can, without sounding stupid or naive. As I sit here in August 2006, aged 17, i've been cutting myself for over 6 years. It's not a subject I like to speak about as it's very emotional for me so please, keep an open mind as you read it. Throughout primary school, I was bullied mercilessly about my weight. I was ...
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By Anonymous · Aug. 23, 2006 · 0 comments
As I am writing this I am sitting on a train back home, reflecting on my first ever suspension yesterday, a four point suicide suspension. Most people (at least in the United Kingdom) are aware of suspension on a physical level if not knowing it's name; ask people if they have seen "those freaks that hang from hooks in their backs" and I am pretty certain that they will know what you are referring to and like many people, that's how I first came across suspension and like other body modification-related things, thought that it was "sort of interesting" but ...
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By Anonymous · Aug. 23, 2006 · 0 comments
So looking back where did it start? Well I first discovered BME after reading an article on mods in a magazine when I was 17 and I was fascinated. Really fascinated. Nearly obsessed. Did I do anything about it? Not really. As much as I craved mods and piercings in particular I was a middle class boy bound up by expectations of family and school. For two years I devoured everything I could about mods on the net then decided I would give myself a meatotomy. In retrospect this was perhaps a little too ambitious. I managed to cut about ...
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By Anonymous · Aug. 23, 2006 · 0 comments
so, erstma hallo alle miteinander! schön das sich jemand für meinen bericht über diese doch etwas härtere suspension interessiert. als erstes sollte ich vielleicht mal schreiben wie ich denn zu dieser idee diese suspension zu machen gekommen bin. ich war vor einiger zeit, wie eigentlich fast täglich, auf einer sehr informativen, kanadischen seite (insider dürfte der name bekannt sein) unterwegs und habe mich dort aus langeweile wieder einmal durch die bildergallerien versch. arten durchgeklickt. dort waren piercings (normale und ausgefallene), tattoos, cuttings und nachtürlich auch suspensions. als ich bei diesen angekommen war ich auf der suche nach ausgefallenen und seltenen" ...
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By inky · Aug. 17, 2006 · 0 comments
I'd read a lot about flesh pulls on BME and the like and seen many photos. It always interested me but I didn't think it looked like something I would try any time soon. I had plans to do a four-point suicide suspension for my 18th birthday. After a few emails I was directed to Nick at Illicit HQ. He suggested I do a pull to warm up a few months before I was going to hang. Tho I wasn't really into the idea. Turns out I had no choice really because I couldn't get the $300 it would cost ...
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By Anonymous · Aug. 10, 2006 · 0 comments
Disclaimer: The following experience is a low point for me in two ways, mentally and intellectually, please understand I realize that this is probably one of the dumbest things I have done, I am not proud of it and regret it greatly. First some background information... Cutting to me has always been a form of release. I'm generally a happy guy, but I guess my moods can change pretty quickly. I wouldn't say its been a problem before, I do not cut too deep (just deeper enough to draw blood) and although I scar easily they are well hidden below ...
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By Anonymous · Aug. 10, 2006 · 0 comments
These always start off the same way. I sit at my laptop and try to compose in coherent thoughts all the strange physical sensations, emotions, and mental images swirling in my head. However, as I sit here tonight about 350 miles away from one of the most pivotal points in my life, I cannot help but think this is different. I should explain. This past weekend was the 6th annual BME So Cal BBQ event. For reference, I live smack dab in Arizona. Close by, sure, but not enough so I would really have considered going. I love meeting new ...
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By Anonymous · Aug. 10, 2006 · 0 comments
The idea came to me a long time ago. Why could it not be possible to do a suspension while being placed on fire? I had never seen it before in photographs nor read any such attempt in any writing. Thus was born the idea of a 'firesuspension'. I knew the easier part of this type of suspension was actually being suspended. Being set on fire was a totally different and complicated factor. How could this be done safely not only for me but for the others around me and the property around me? Who do I know who the ...
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By Anonymous · Aug. 02, 2006 · 0 comments
Eind vorig jaar had ik op een maand tijd 2 suspension afspraken. Niet zo bijzonder, want na mijn eerste keer was ik helemaal verkocht! Dit zouden nummer 6 en 7 worden, dus ondertussen was ik het allemaal al een beetje gewoon. De eerste suspension van deze reeks (mijn tweede suicide) liep helemaal anders dan verwacht, zoals je hier ook op BME kan lezen. Ik had echter nog bijna 4 weken de tijd om me voor te bereiden op mijn eerste Lotus suspension, en hierover gaat deze experience. Zoals steeds begon ik me mentaal en fysiek een beetje aan te passen ...
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