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The Spiritual Side Of Pain

I have been to this site many many times and it has " inspired" I will say, me to do something with my body.I wasn't going to do anything to escape other pains by causing pain but rather explore this pain to explore myself. I was gonna do this to explore my mind, to reach a new level of it and for spiritual reasons, this was gonna be my first stride into a practice of pain. I mean thats why I do the things that I do : drugs. I do drugs to explore my mind, to expand it to ... read more

Set into a coma

So this weekend was much different then the normal weekend of drinking at the house. My friend Bryon and I drove south of the cities to a farm for a suspension show that I have been anticipating for weeks. We left Saturday morning and arrived around 1:30. Setting up our tent was all hell, but it gave us something to do while we waited for the artists to prepare the barn. The first suspension was a superman by a guy named Ben. I was nervous at first but when I saw him hanging in the air and loving every minute ... read more

My virgin suicide

A quiet rural road. Farmers going about their business, a middle aged couple with their two small children pass on a single lane road; an outing to the local mall or a trip to an exciting tourist attraction. Into a small estate. Rural suburbia. Twentieth century housing and cul-de-sac's. A small primary school, possibly a first school, dormant at the centre of the community, awaiting the hubbub of Monday morning. Children playing on bikes, parents mowing the lawns and washing their cars. The perfect weekend. Great weather, warm and sunny. The darkness within hidden by some fencing and a patchy ... read more

My love affair with the humble knee suspension - Part 1

My first suspension was a personal test. I wasn't sure if I would be able to go through with it, but I knew that I wanted to try! I had become aware of suspensions on BME about 3 years earlier (it was a photo of a knee suspension) and it struck me that it seemed an interesting but impossible feat for the human body to accomplish. Over the next few years I began to understand the malleability of the limits of the human body, as I became increasingly comfortable with each piercing I had done. Eventually I was within an ... read more

My love affair with the humble knee suspension - Part 2

The date is the 13th of August 2005, precisely 9 months after my first suspension. The place is Wattamolla Beach, Royal National Park, Sydney, Australia. In attendance are the people who later became the Hack Crew (ring lead by Karl), 4 co-suspendees, and 20-30 other friends and acquaintances, mostly from IAM. This day had been minimally planned – it was going to be a simple, fun day, the way things should be! Karl told me that he was coming down to Sydney for a weekend, and I wanted to suspend again. It was up to me to find a location, ... read more

My first suspension, an experience to remember...

My first suspension, a four point suicide, was finally accomplished on the evening of September 4th, 2006 (Labor Day). The event had been planned and canceled a couple of times, during a period of three weeks before, for various reasons. When it actually came time, I had only been given five hours notice. Needless to say, I was surprised and hadn't much time to mentally prepare myself, but concluded I was in good enough shape to heed the opportunity nonetheless. Regardless of the short notice, I was in a great mood, and was really looking forward to going up. Everything ... read more

It's nothing

I dunno why I'm writing this. I guess we all kind of feel a little stupid telling ourselves that self-medication is a good thing. We all feel just a little guilty when we spill our hearts out. I think though that I need to get this out once and for all. Just to get it off my mind for tonight, at least for a few hours of peace. I started cutting when I was 12 or 13, I don't really remember how old I was, I just remember what I used. A safety pin. I laugh at that now. I've ... read more

Conquering a Decade of Doubt

For the past 4 years, the Well Hung Suspension Team has headed off into the mountains each September for a long weekend retreat. It acts as an escape from the everyday; from the hassle of Southern Californian traffic, from the very city life that seeks to destroy you from within if you let it. I've known Eric (IAM:Sque3z) and his wife Annie, Tyler (IAM:coffiend) and Brett (IAM:solja) for almost 3 years now. Out of those 3, I've missed previous opportunities to go camping with my friends and this year I was not allowing anything to stop me. This would be ... read more

Blood Fetishes. Young and Old. Old and New.

Since I was about 11 and I was introduced to body modification I have been interested in every aspect of it. I have had many best friends who were into cutting and scarring their body with the many images the human mind could imagine. From hearts, to ex's names, the sky was the limit. My best friend and I used to see how long we could go without cutting. If someone failed at the game, they would get a bitching from the other person. Of course, I was heavily into blood play and the whole cutting experiences. For some reason ... read more

Attempted Knee and Chest suspension

I fancied trying a knee suspension, because I was curious what they felt like. I've tried a few other suspensions and wanted to do something new to me. I have lots of curiosity. I wasn't sure I liked the idea of being upside down though, mostly cause I have sinus problems so being upside down hurts. I've enjoyed the chest pulls I've done a lot, and saw a chest and knee suspension Alice that looked so chilled and good. I thought it would be nice to try chest and knees, then I wouldn't be upside down, and I'd have the ... read more

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