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A First-Timer's Introspection on Suspension

07.16.05 The day started out with high spirits, and the drive to Chicago itself was both liberating and exhilarating, a result of too little sleep and too much caffeine. The mood turned a bit sour upon arriving in Chicago and subsequently spending ages stuck in traffic and getting quite lost. Regardless of setbacks, we eventually made our way to the BBQ, where we were greeted by hordes of enthusiastic strangers. It was quickly declared "No Pants O'clock" as it was close to 100 degrees in the house. Good times. There was a cute boy. And fire-breathing. And camel toe. ^.^ ... read more

Vom Playpiercing zur Suspension und der Kick dabei

Vor etlichen Jahren (als ich noch nichts mit Piercings und Tattoos am Hut hatte) hat es mich schon immer fasziniert wenn ich gesehen habe wie sich jemand selbst eine Spritze gegeben hat. Sei es aus gesundheitlicher Notwendigkeit (beim Insulin spritzen) oder um Drogen zu konsumieren (z.B. Heroinspritzende Fixer). Ich bin absolut gegen den Konsum von Drogen, trotzdem hat der Vorgang des Nadelstechens in mir ein sehr sonderbares und schönes Gefühl ausgelöst. Anfangs konnte ich mich selbst nicht verstehen und ich habe mich gewundert dass ich keinen Ekel oder Abscheu empfunden habe, was ich eigentlich erwartet hätte. Allein schon das Zusehen ... read more

The Spiritual Side Of Pain

I have been to this site many many times and it has " inspired" I will say, me to do something with my body.I wasn't going to do anything to escape other pains by causing pain but rather explore this pain to explore myself. I was gonna do this to explore my mind, to reach a new level of it and for spiritual reasons, this was gonna be my first stride into a practice of pain. I mean thats why I do the things that I do : drugs. I do drugs to explore my mind, to expand it to ... read more

Set into a coma

So this weekend was much different then the normal weekend of drinking at the house. My friend Bryon and I drove south of the cities to a farm for a suspension show that I have been anticipating for weeks. We left Saturday morning and arrived around 1:30. Setting up our tent was all hell, but it gave us something to do while we waited for the artists to prepare the barn. The first suspension was a superman by a guy named Ben. I was nervous at first but when I saw him hanging in the air and loving every minute ... read more

My virgin suicide

A quiet rural road. Farmers going about their business, a middle aged couple with their two small children pass on a single lane road; an outing to the local mall or a trip to an exciting tourist attraction. Into a small estate. Rural suburbia. Twentieth century housing and cul-de-sac's. A small primary school, possibly a first school, dormant at the centre of the community, awaiting the hubbub of Monday morning. Children playing on bikes, parents mowing the lawns and washing their cars. The perfect weekend. Great weather, warm and sunny. The darkness within hidden by some fencing and a patchy ... read more

My first suspension, an experience to remember...

My first suspension, a four point suicide, was finally accomplished on the evening of September 4th, 2006 (Labor Day). The event had been planned and canceled a couple of times, during a period of three weeks before, for various reasons. When it actually came time, I had only been given five hours notice. Needless to say, I was surprised and hadn't much time to mentally prepare myself, but concluded I was in good enough shape to heed the opportunity nonetheless. Regardless of the short notice, I was in a great mood, and was really looking forward to going up. Everything ... read more

It's nothing

I dunno why I'm writing this. I guess we all kind of feel a little stupid telling ourselves that self-medication is a good thing. We all feel just a little guilty when we spill our hearts out. I think though that I need to get this out once and for all. Just to get it off my mind for tonight, at least for a few hours of peace. I started cutting when I was 12 or 13, I don't really remember how old I was, I just remember what I used. A safety pin. I laugh at that now. I've ... read more

Conquering a Decade of Doubt

For the past 4 years, the Well Hung Suspension Team has headed off into the mountains each September for a long weekend retreat. It acts as an escape from the everyday; from the hassle of Southern Californian traffic, from the very city life that seeks to destroy you from within if you let it. I've known Eric (IAM:Sque3z) and his wife Annie, Tyler (IAM:coffiend) and Brett (IAM:solja) for almost 3 years now. Out of those 3, I've missed previous opportunities to go camping with my friends and this year I was not allowing anything to stop me. This would be ... read more

My First Suicide Attempt; Not very Successful

I've had a lot of piercings in my day. But nothing compares to my latest experience. For the last two years, I've had it in my head that doing a suicide suspension was the only option. Nothing else mattered until I got that. And this is the story of the day that I finally did. For almost a year and a half, I had been on a search to find someone to do a suspension for me. I don't have the privilege of living in the US, where suspension groups are a dime a dozen. I live in Canada, and ... read more

My first Suspension with the film crew from Taboo

So September 30 2006 will not be a day I will easily forget. I was to do a Suicide suspension at my home is West Gippsland as a part of a story the Taboo series was doing on Suspension. The film crew arrived at 10.30am and went about their setup while I grew increasing nervous. Once they were set up they wanted to do some interviews with me before the suspension. My crew arrived about 12.30 and we got straight to work setting everything up for my suspension. Todd threw my hooks and I was confident in his abilities as ... read more

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