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popping my suspension cherry ++

I don't remember the first image or footage of a suspension I ever saw, but I can remember the first one I saw live. In 2004 I went with my friend of the time Tash (was on iam but not anymore) to watch her do a suicide suspension. It was not her first time, so she was confident about it and seeing her without fear made me think maybe I could do that one day too. She went up twice, swung around like a monkey on a vine, talking and yelling and singing and stripping off clothing. I was awestruck ... read more

Pin Cushion

I know that almost all experiences start this way but... what the hell... I have always had an interest in body modification, not so much the appearance or physical aspect of mods, I was just always intrigued by the amount of control someone could have over their body. Growing up with a very conservative family (super-christian mania!), I was pressured to be the "perfect" kid (if there ever was such a thing) who got good grades and won awards and never dared disturb or even question this lifestyle. I was always a very expressive person though and would write and ... read more

My personal ascension or

And I'm Gonna Organise Some Changes In My Life I'm Gonna Exorcise The Demons Of My Past I Just Feel I Can Be Anything... That I Might ever wish To Be And Find Myself Just Where I Wanna Be Make My Wildest Dreams Come True! (S.Harris) This is to be the story of how I got suspended. It`s going to be a rather long one, so please sit back and enjoy (click on pictures to enlarge). One year ago, I didn`t even know that such a thing as " body modification culture" even existed. I`m just a regular guy who`s ... read more

It took suicide to understand.

IWASCURED, simple as that. I could have never fathomed such a simple statement could sum up such an intense collection of thoughts, emotions, and physical feelings. If you haven't picked it up yet I am talking about my first 4 point suicide suspension courtesy of Mike (iam:poisonouspennington) and Craig (iam:blinded_by_fire). Before I get into this anymore I may as well fully enthrall you with the story of me. I am a 19 year old male living in Toronto, typical geeky student always searching for something more. I got through my first year of science studies at the University of Toronto ... read more

I'm finally back.

There are those people, and you know them well. The chunky bracelets, the eyeliner applied like a widescreen border. They never look at you, so you never know them. These people are the ones with gauges and gadgets, phenomenal poetry, great transcripts to get into ABC college, very peer-pressure, very overbearing parents, maybe a little marital incest, and the like. I hate these people, because I'm not these people anymore. That was me, circa 12-17, the happiest years of my life. I wasn't escaping, I was returning, and I loved my scars. I used to sit for hours in front ... read more

First Pulling Experience

It all started out one day when I decided I wanted to take my mind a step further in spirituality experiences. I wanted to test how well my mental state can endure pain. I decided I wanted to start simple at first and I had been thinking and planning about hanging weight from a hook and chain on my arm. It was not so difficult to go about doing specially since I had already been working with needles and pain for quite some time. That day I went out to the store to pick up some hooks. I went to ... read more

Chest corset - playing around in a club

In the summer of last year I was at a BDSM club in London with a few of my friends when I ran into a woman I knew by name from other clubs and online communities but had never actually spoken to myself. We got talking and after she mentioned that she had brought her play piercing equipment I started to consider the possibility of my partner and I engaging in a little needle play with her. My partner and I had discussed needle play before and although he was interested in the idea in theory, being a little scared ... read more

Play Piercings

I have been piercing for a couple years now and my favorite would still have to be the play piecings. I love the intimacy people seem to share and conquer. Its so hard to trust people now days. I find that you have to trust some one less to sleep with them, rather than to let someone break your skin. I suppose I should start at the begining. I fell into piercing while being involved in a BDSM atmosphere, I became friends with some one that actually learned modification and apprenticed under some one famous(No name dropping). I learned about ... read more

My First Suspension

So I go to the tattoo shop on Saturday afternoon to have my tattooist work on my leg, but he's not there. I'm on the front porch with Mute-One *piercer* and he looks over at me and goes "I'm bored. Wanna throw some hooks?". I was speechless, because he was dead serious. I had spent about an hour and a half earlier in the week talking with him about shit while I was at the shop.. Things like scalpeling, suspensions and such.. So he knew I was into the idea of suspension, I'd just never done it.. So him asking ... read more

I cut because I hate myself, I hate myself for cutting

I'll start this by saying that I'm very normal. I don't fit the traditional stereotype of self-harmers, I come from a 2 parent family, I did well at school, I have lots of friends and I have never gone through a massive trauma (such as abuse or neglect), yet despite this seemingly happy life, I cut myself. I don't remember the first time I did it but I must have been about 15, I remember times sat in my room feeling so alone and so horrible that I would drag scissors across my thigh trying to make the pain I ... read more

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