By Anonymous · Dec. 25, 2006 · 0 comments
I know am I writing this experience story far too late. It would have been more... satisfying to have written this the day after the suspension, but here I am, much, much later. It took place on October the 22nd, over a month ago. So if any little details are a bit off, I am sorry, but my memory just can't hold more than 1 KB. It all started with a Digital Design class project that I was assigned. We were supposed to create a body extension and do a performance art piece with it. A body suspension was the ...
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By Anonymous · Dec. 25, 2006 · 0 comments
Finally, the full details.. So with the winter season approaching us, I decided last Monday I'd like to get another outdoor suspension in before the weather got too bad.. I took a trip to Weather.com and checked out the forecast for the week, see what days were good. Wednesday was the last good day. I contacted MUTE-ONE about it and he said it'd be no problem.. Wednesday afternoon came around and I left work at a pretty normal time.. I stopped home, and then cruised over to the tattoo shop.. I got there hung out for a little bit, MUTE-ONE ...
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By Anonymous · Nov. 22, 2006 · 0 comments
It all started out one day when I decided I wanted to take my mind a step further in spirituality experiences. I wanted to test how well my mental state can endure pain. I decided I wanted to start simple at first and I had been thinking and planning about hanging weight from a hook and chain on my arm. It was not so difficult to go about doing specially since I had already been working with needles and pain for quite some time. That day I went out to the store to pick up some hooks. I went to ...
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By Anonymous · Nov. 22, 2006 · 0 comments
In the summer of last year I was at a BDSM club in London with a few of my friends when I ran into a woman I knew by name from other clubs and online communities but had never actually spoken to myself. We got talking and after she mentioned that she had brought her play piercing equipment I started to consider the possibility of my partner and I engaging in a little needle play with her. My partner and I had discussed needle play before and although he was interested in the idea in theory, being a little scared ...
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By Anonymous · Nov. 22, 2006 · 0 comments
On what seemed to be a normal day four years ago, on October 22, 2002. I went to school and saw my friend Jimi. I was glowing that day because the day before I broke up with my boyfriend. Jimi said he had news that could top mine. His best friend Matt had killed himself; he hung himself. I was floored and shocked. Not because I knew him. I won't lie and pretend I did. I knew him only by association. I was just so shocked that someone besides me could want to die that much. He was only 15. ...
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By Anonymous · Nov. 22, 2006 · 0 comments
The first time I heard about suspensions was around 1996. It doesn't sound like that long ago to some, but I was only 14 at the time. I had social issues back then, and found myself delving into world religions as a teenager. I found it fascinating that there were such extreme differences in cultures from here to there, and I realized that my own culture lacked certain "rites of passage" that had obvious consequences on the populous growing up. World religions led me to information from all over (i.e. books, the internet, personal experiences). I kept up the interest ...
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By Anonymous · Nov. 22, 2006 · 0 comments
Background: I'd always had a curiosity about suspension, but my curiosity grew into a desire after my Intro to Religion course. My presentation group was able to find a wonderful guest speaker from the Lakota tribe to come in and talk about the Lakota beliefs, and he also spent about 15 minutes talking about the Sun Dance and his personal experience. If you're not familiar with this ritual, I suggest reading up on it. Part of the ceremony may include a chest energy pull ending in ripping lose from the hook/rope. Themes of rebirth had been running through my head ...
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By Anonymous · Nov. 22, 2006 · 0 comments
When Badur said to me, after I was dropped back to the ground, « You can even post about this on BME », I thought to myself and said out loud, "No, I think I'll be all good keeping this to myself". I also thought It would be the stupidest thing to have to share something so intimate with a group of people online, that I don't even know personally. Now, two days after I went up, I suddenly feel this incredible urge to type this out, even if it's for my own understanding of this overwhelming experience and have ...
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By Anonymous · Nov. 22, 2006 · 0 comments
Uhmm. Hi, I'm Ciara, and this is obviously my 'cutting' experience. I have self-mutilated since ten years old, not because I am a total 'emo kid', want to get attention, want to commit suicide etc. It is oddly, my release for stresses in life. Some people vent theirs in a journal/diary, at friends, taking a bath, reading a book... But me? Well, I can't deny I never do those things to calm down, but 'cutting' to me would always be my first choice. It is an extreme release for me. If I ever have any problem or frustration, I often ...
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By Anonymous · Nov. 22, 2006 · 0 comments
I don't remember the first image or footage of a suspension I ever saw, but I can remember the first one I saw live. In 2004 I went with my friend of the time Tash (was on iam but not anymore) to watch her do a suicide suspension. It was not her first time, so she was confident about it and seeing her without fear made me think maybe I could do that one day too. She went up twice, swung around like a monkey on a vine, talking and yelling and singing and stripping off clothing. I was awestruck ...
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