By Anonymous · Dec. 25, 2006 · 0 comments
I walk into the suspension party and I am early, I got there after work. I'm a nervous wreck, my stomach is in knots, I'm shaking. I met a few people, suzanne who made me feel comfortable as I knew no one there. Then the team arrives and also my best friend tiffani. I watch them set up for the suspensions and get even more antsy. I eventually started talking to people and found out that only 2 girls actually have done this before. The rest were as new as me. I watch some people get pierced and suspended and ...
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By Anonymous · Dec. 25, 2006 · 0 comments
My first suspension It was a really hot and sunny day in July 2003, and back in those days I lived in the countryside. My "friend" bena had left town to visit me for the weekend and we relaxed in the garden. I knew that bena was very interested in suspension, and that he had done it several times, but I had never tried it myself and I didn't knew much about it. That day he told me that he had brought some hooks, rope, gloves and needles and that he wanted to go out in the forest to find ...
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By Anonymous · Nov. 22, 2006 · 0 comments
I don't remember the first image or footage of a suspension I ever saw, but I can remember the first one I saw live. In 2004 I went with my friend of the time Tash (was on iam but not anymore) to watch her do a suicide suspension. It was not her first time, so she was confident about it and seeing her without fear made me think maybe I could do that one day too. She went up twice, swung around like a monkey on a vine, talking and yelling and singing and stripping off clothing. I was awestruck ...
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By Anonymous · Nov. 22, 2006 · 0 comments
I know that almost all experiences start this way but... what the hell... I have always had an interest in body modification, not so much the appearance or physical aspect of mods, I was just always intrigued by the amount of control someone could have over their body. Growing up with a very conservative family (super-christian mania!), I was pressured to be the "perfect" kid (if there ever was such a thing) who got good grades and won awards and never dared disturb or even question this lifestyle. I was always a very expressive person though and would write and ...
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By MrNoModifications · Nov. 22, 2006 · 0 comments
And I'm Gonna Organise Some Changes In My Life I'm Gonna Exorcise The Demons Of My Past I Just Feel I Can Be Anything... That I Might ever wish To Be And Find Myself Just Where I Wanna Be Make My Wildest Dreams Come True! (S.Harris) This is to be the story of how I got suspended. It`s going to be a rather long one, so please sit back and enjoy (click on pictures to enlarge). One year ago, I didn`t even know that such a thing as " body modification culture" even existed. I`m just a regular guy who`s ...
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By Anonymous · Nov. 22, 2006 · 0 comments
IWASCURED, simple as that. I could have never fathomed such a simple statement could sum up such an intense collection of thoughts, emotions, and physical feelings. If you haven't picked it up yet I am talking about my first 4 point suicide suspension courtesy of Mike (iam:poisonouspennington) and Craig (iam:blinded_by_fire). Before I get into this anymore I may as well fully enthrall you with the story of me. I am a 19 year old male living in Toronto, typical geeky student always searching for something more. I got through my first year of science studies at the University of Toronto ...
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By sigh_content · Nov. 22, 2006 · 0 comments
There are those people, and you know them well. The chunky bracelets, the eyeliner applied like a widescreen border. They never look at you, so you never know them. These people are the ones with gauges and gadgets, phenomenal poetry, great transcripts to get into ABC college, very peer-pressure, very overbearing parents, maybe a little marital incest, and the like. I hate these people, because I'm not these people anymore. That was me, circa 12-17, the happiest years of my life. I wasn't escaping, I was returning, and I loved my scars. I used to sit for hours in front ...
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By Anonymous · Nov. 22, 2006 · 0 comments
It all started out one day when I decided I wanted to take my mind a step further in spirituality experiences. I wanted to test how well my mental state can endure pain. I decided I wanted to start simple at first and I had been thinking and planning about hanging weight from a hook and chain on my arm. It was not so difficult to go about doing specially since I had already been working with needles and pain for quite some time. That day I went out to the store to pick up some hooks. I went to ...
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By Anonymous · Nov. 22, 2006 · 0 comments
In the summer of last year I was at a BDSM club in London with a few of my friends when I ran into a woman I knew by name from other clubs and online communities but had never actually spoken to myself. We got talking and after she mentioned that she had brought her play piercing equipment I started to consider the possibility of my partner and I engaging in a little needle play with her. My partner and I had discussed needle play before and although he was interested in the idea in theory, being a little scared ...
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By Anonymous · Nov. 22, 2006 · 0 comments
On what seemed to be a normal day four years ago, on October 22, 2002. I went to school and saw my friend Jimi. I was glowing that day because the day before I broke up with my boyfriend. Jimi said he had news that could top mine. His best friend Matt had killed himself; he hung himself. I was floored and shocked. Not because I knew him. I won't lie and pretend I did. I knew him only by association. I was just so shocked that someone besides me could want to die that much. He was only 15. ...
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