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Masochistic Tendencies?

Most people would say that cutting is self-destructive and an act that should be frowned upon. I don't care if you believe this statement to be true or false, hopefully there's something in here for everyone. Maybe it will shed some light on the subject for the "non-believers", be something other cutters can relate to, or at least be a nice form of entertainment for all you others. I don't think I started cutting because I was depressed or angry, I can't actually quite remember, but I know it serves a very different purpose for me today. I've never been ... read more

Livet upp och ner - min första kneesuspension

Det var i februari 2005 och det var dags för min tredje suspension. Jag hade tidigare hängt två suicide, båda med sex krokar, men det var länge sedan nu. Jag hade haft arton månaders paus för graviditet och amning. Nu var det vintermodfest i Göteborg och jag hade bestämt mig för att prova en kneesuspension. Eftersom vi hade vår nio månader gamla son med oss så var det meningen att jag och min man bena skulle turas om att hänga, jobba och ta hand om lillkillen. Mina två första suspensions var visserligen tuffa att komma upp i, men krokningen till ... read more

a secret world of my own

It's not easy growing up; it's even scarier knowing that I'm not really even there yet. At only 18 years old I somehow feel younger than I ever have. It all started at 15. I can't really say why it happened, nothing traumatic occurred in my life. In the outside world I became more popular with my friends, I was the happiest ever. Yet as soon as I got home I would hide myself away, hide behind the computer screen...and cry. Something built up in me and it had to be released somehow, and I started by crying. This feeling ... read more

You know, just hanging out.

Most people (I assume) spend a fair amount of time deciding and thinking about doing a flesh pull or suspension. Mine was a fairly quick decision, but an incredible experience all the same. It basically came from a conversation where my housemate (Cat) told me that she and another friend of ours (iam:Krista) were going to do a pull, and that her boyfriend (iam:Poncho) was going to do a knee suspension. We discussed it a little bit, and I said that I really wanted to do one. I'd been thinking about it for a while and this was the first ... read more

Stichmania

My alias is Ayame, and I'm sixteen, and am new to body modification, although being interested in it for many years. Before I begin my story, my modification history is: two ear lobe piercings, four years of regular/ritualised cutting, but no other sort of biggish modifications. My story starts in my bedroom, a week or so ago. I'm not the newest to cutting (I have been cutting for four years now,) but I'd like to talk about my most recent cuts. These are the cuts that landed me in the hospital for stitches. I was feeling particularly upset and angry ... read more

Second chances

This is the story of my second attempt at a six point Vertical back (suicide) Suspension. My adventure began on Saturday morning as I set out for the 8 hour drive to Pete's property. Armed with not much more than a mud map and an idea of what direction to drive in I found my way, only getting lost a few times. Saturday evening was spent socialising and watching other people get drunk. I had decided my suspension preparation was not to involve alcohol as I wanted a clear mind in the morning and a hangover would have spoiled my ... read more

I got an "A" on MY first suspension!

I know am I writing this experience story far too late. It would have been more... satisfying to have written this the day after the suspension, but here I am, much, much later. It took place on October the 22nd, over a month ago. So if any little details are a bit off, I am sorry, but my memory just can't hold more than 1 KB. It all started with a Digital Design class project that I was assigned. We were supposed to create a body extension and do a performance art piece with it. A body suspension was the ... read more

double knee suspension

Finally, the full details.. So with the winter season approaching us, I decided last Monday I'd like to get another outdoor suspension in before the weather got too bad.. I took a trip to Weather.com and checked out the forecast for the week, see what days were good. Wednesday was the last good day. I contacted MUTE-ONE about it and he said it'd be no problem.. Wednesday afternoon came around and I left work at a pretty normal time.. I stopped home, and then cruised over to the tattoo shop.. I got there hung out for a little bit, MUTE-ONE ... read more

Bent Hooks

A few years ago, I came across suspension at a concert. It was one of the most beautiful things I have ever seen. I was fascinated! I never knew that the body could endure such things. I was amazed how strong these people were mentally to do such a thing. Right then and there, I determined that I could never do that, I don't have the courage to even try. At the beginning of this year, one of the guys I live with got suspended. Hearing him talk about his experience made me curious about suspension. After talking to him, ... read more

A natural high and a crackling head?

After procrastinating for about a year I finally worked up the courage to talk to Nic at Illicit on Krd about doing a suspension. I had read a few positive experiences on BME about him and he also seemed to be the only person in Auckland that I could find reviews on. Come Tuesday of the next week I was booked in to do a warm up pull in the afternoon. Reality of what I was about to do only really hit me an hour or so before hand when my heart was pounding so hard I could barely eat ... read more

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