By Anonymous · Feb. 02, 2007 · 0 comments
I spend a lot of my time praying in my bath. I never used to be religious. I dabbled in Christianity, attempted Buddhist chants, even started growing a herb garden for pagan rituals. But none of that gave me the sense of spirituality I craved. I had a friend ask me if I had ever felt a oneness with nature. My response was 'depends what drugs I've taken'. It made him, and everybody else laugh, made me sound cynical and cool to all his friends who stood around us like an audience, but it wasn't what I felt. I felt ...
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By Anonymous · Feb. 02, 2007 · 0 comments
Beginning to delve deeper into Body Mods, I considered myself a prodigy of the art. I turned my body from something that I loathed into a masterpiece of tweaked and edited parts. My legs are now a canvas, my arms are now my slate. I hope this experience accomplishes what it should: to educate the mass youth interested in body modification, and to annoy the veteran piercers. So, with that said.. I will warn you now, what goes on in this experience may be unsafe, illegal in some states and countries and very..very... irresponsible. It should not be taken as ...
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By Anonymous · Feb. 02, 2007 · 0 comments
So, this is my first time submitting to the site, although I've been looking around it for a while...I decided it was time to share. This is really hodgepodge, and I feel a little odd expressing all of this for the first time, but I'm counting on not being judged here. I love that. So, here it goes: the past few months' worth of hiding and thinking I'm crazy poured out to strangers. I love you all. I suffered from anorexia, not for a long time, but severely (or so people tell me, but that's not the point). This was ...
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By Anonymous · Jan. 23, 2007 · 0 comments
Most people would say that cutting is self-destructive and an act that should be frowned upon. I don't care if you believe this statement to be true or false, hopefully there's something in here for everyone. Maybe it will shed some light on the subject for the "non-believers", be something other cutters can relate to, or at least be a nice form of entertainment for all you others. I don't think I started cutting because I was depressed or angry, I can't actually quite remember, but I know it serves a very different purpose for me today. I've never been ...
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By Anonymous · Jan. 23, 2007 · 0 comments
Det var i februari 2005 och det var dags för min tredje suspension. Jag hade tidigare hängt två suicide, båda med sex krokar, men det var länge sedan nu. Jag hade haft arton månaders paus för graviditet och amning. Nu var det vintermodfest i Göteborg och jag hade bestämt mig för att prova en kneesuspension. Eftersom vi hade vår nio månader gamla son med oss så var det meningen att jag och min man bena skulle turas om att hänga, jobba och ta hand om lillkillen. Mina två första suspensions var visserligen tuffa att komma upp i, men krokningen till ...
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By Anonymous · Jan. 23, 2007 · 0 comments
It's not easy growing up; it's even scarier knowing that I'm not really even there yet. At only 18 years old I somehow feel younger than I ever have. It all started at 15. I can't really say why it happened, nothing traumatic occurred in my life. In the outside world I became more popular with my friends, I was the happiest ever. Yet as soon as I got home I would hide myself away, hide behind the computer screen...and cry. Something built up in me and it had to be released somehow, and I started by crying. This feeling ...
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By Anonymous · Jan. 23, 2007 · 0 comments
Most people (I assume) spend a fair amount of time deciding and thinking about doing a flesh pull or suspension. Mine was a fairly quick decision, but an incredible experience all the same. It basically came from a conversation where my housemate (Cat) told me that she and another friend of ours (iam:Krista) were going to do a pull, and that her boyfriend (iam:Poncho) was going to do a knee suspension. We discussed it a little bit, and I said that I really wanted to do one. I'd been thinking about it for a while and this was the first ...
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By Anonymous · Jan. 23, 2007 · 0 comments
My alias is Ayame, and I'm sixteen, and am new to body modification, although being interested in it for many years. Before I begin my story, my modification history is: two ear lobe piercings, four years of regular/ritualised cutting, but no other sort of biggish modifications. My story starts in my bedroom, a week or so ago. I'm not the newest to cutting (I have been cutting for four years now,) but I'd like to talk about my most recent cuts. These are the cuts that landed me in the hospital for stitches. I was feeling particularly upset and angry ...
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By Lofty · Jan. 23, 2007 · 0 comments
This is the story of my second attempt at a six point Vertical back (suicide) Suspension. My adventure began on Saturday morning as I set out for the 8 hour drive to Pete's property. Armed with not much more than a mud map and an idea of what direction to drive in I found my way, only getting lost a few times. Saturday evening was spent socialising and watching other people get drunk. I had decided my suspension preparation was not to involve alcohol as I wanted a clear mind in the morning and a hangover would have spoiled my ...
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By Anonymous · Jan. 23, 2007 · 0 comments
Depression runs in my family. I can recall long periods of time when my mother was adjusting to new medication in attempts to control her mood disorder. This was complicated by the addition of anxiety disorder, and so as drugs were substituted in and out in the hopes of finding some way of complimenting without interfering, it was expected that there would be wild mood swings and irrational emotional responses. It's always been a fact of life. My older sister has escaped the stigma of mental disorder, but only by adopting into the line of thought that mental illness is ...
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