By Anonymous · May 04, 2007 · 0 comments
"Why?" The question becomes predictable, almost routine when someone enters my car. They immediately seem to notice the polished steel hook hanging from my rearview mirror, and inevitably want an explanation. Each time I hear that annoying three letter word, I'm almost compelled to launch into some sort of horribly graphic and disturbing explanation. One that might circulate and prevent any future inquiry as to why I choose to do so. I know you're asking yourself the same thing right now. I've always been fascinated by suspension, and only recently chose to pursue it. A little under a year ago, ...
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By Anonymous · May 04, 2007 · 0 comments
In the past six weeks or so, I've pierced my nipples, navel, outer labia and installed a microdermal. This is how I did the microdermal, and the mistakes I made and hope you won't repeat. I've wanted a Madison piercing since the mid 1980s, but knew instinctively it would reject. After watching a hand web migrate out (the guitar lessons didn't help) I knew I didn't want to place a piercing that would become a source of displeasure. Regardless, I toyed with the idea for years, debating whether or not I was willing to accept the scar for the temporary ...
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By Anonymous · March 18, 2007 · 0 comments
Disclaimer: What follows is my life as a cutter as I feel like telling it. I've done some stupid things in my life, so don't do what I did. I'm an emotional cutter, and damn proud of it. Normally I'd cut when I get really angry or sad. I'm highly introverted, but very emotional, so I find my feelings bottle up inside like a raging cyclone. When I let loose, I'm normally too scared of the ramifications if I lash out at someone else, so I just cut sick on myself (no pun intended). I've tortured myself in as many ...
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By Anonymous · March 18, 2007 · 0 comments
About a year and a half ago I discussed the possibility of attaching zippers to my forearms with a friend of mine. He loved the idea and we talked over some of the details, equipment, and issues and agreed to try to make it happen in the near future. A little over a year ago the dream I've had for years became reality. I ordered medical sutures (half circle curved needles attached to 18" of black monofilament nylon) and bought some black (~8") zippers from a fabric store. We set a date and about an hour or two after starting ...
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By Anonymous · March 07, 2007 · 0 comments
I'm sure that you all have your own very different and unique reasons for cutting, as do I. But in this experience I intend not to focus primarily on the reasons behind cutting, but the act of and the consequences of cutting. Partly because I do not wish to share it and partly because I want to use this experience to try and communicate with people who have not cut before and are thinking of doing so and also with people who are trying to stop. I will start off by giving you some background information on myself. I am ...
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By peco · March 07, 2007 · 0 comments
Meu nome é Alexandre Montealto ,conhecido por Peco,28anos ,conheci o kavadi atraves de livros do Fakir Musafar a anos atrás e fiquei encantado inicialmente pelo visual e depois fui buscar o por que daquilo. Usando a internet tive um pequeno conhecimento do que se referia o ritual. Um dia por conta de uma comunidade de modificaçao corporal ( IAM-BME) conheci o Korn ,um ritual performer Holandes que havia construído seu próprio kavadi frame em 1992,e ele tornou-se meu grande amigo. Nos escrevemos por muito tempo,ate que ele veio ao Brazil e aproveitou para auxiliar-me em meu primeiro ritual ( suspensão ...
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By Anonymous · March 07, 2007 · 0 comments
For my second suspension I had decided that I wanted to try one from my knees. I remember looking at pictures of others doing them before and thinking that I could never pierce my knees, let alone hang my whole body weight on them. I don't know why exactly, but after doing a 4 pt. suicide suspension it just felt like it wouldn't be that bad. I know that the lessons I learned from my first experience definitely helped my second one go much smoother. Russ Foxx organized another indoor suspension event and I was stoked to go up. The ...
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By Anonymous · Feb. 22, 2007 · 0 comments
The first time I caught sight of a resurrection suspension was a couple of years ago and the one I witnessed looked so painful that my intuition told me to never try it myself. The next two times I witnessed the resurrection was just a repetition of the first time and none of the boys trying it managed to get up in the air. After this I actually felt a little bit afraid of the resurrection. It seemed to be so intensive and painful, not to mention the totally unnatural position. It looked like it was not totally impossible to ...
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By Anonymous · Feb. 22, 2007 · 0 comments
While at school I was taking a performance art class, which is basically a reason to get naked and roll around in viscous fluid for a grade. Basically if you didn't make a grand political statement or else got nudie and touched yourself, you didn't do well in that class. And if you got nudie and had someone else touch you, it was even better. Might I add that my college is in the most rural uncle-dad quadrant of Northern New York, where piercings are still taboo and naked is a four letter word, and if you have visible tattoos ...
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By Anonymous · Feb. 22, 2007 · 0 comments
I know there's something wrong with me, I'm different, I'm not normal, but for everyone who doesn't know the real me, not the fake one that most people knows, I'm perfect. Perfect grades, perfect family, perfect hair, perfect clothes. But the reality is that underneath my clothes, I have scars; behind my smile, there are tears and inside of me everything feels like it was broken. It's been 5 months since I last cut myself and I'm writing this story because yesterday I talked to my boyfriend, he knows everything about my past, and how difficult it is for me ...
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