By Anonymous · May 04, 2007 · 0 comments
"Why?" The question becomes predictable, almost routine when someone enters my car. They immediately seem to notice the polished steel hook hanging from my rearview mirror, and inevitably want an explanation. Each time I hear that annoying three letter word, I'm almost compelled to launch into some sort of horribly graphic and disturbing explanation. One that might circulate and prevent any future inquiry as to why I choose to do so. I know you're asking yourself the same thing right now. I've always been fascinated by suspension, and only recently chose to pursue it. A little under a year ago, ...
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By Anonymous · May 04, 2007 · 0 comments
In the past six weeks or so, I've pierced my nipples, navel, outer labia and installed a microdermal. This is how I did the microdermal, and the mistakes I made and hope you won't repeat. I've wanted a Madison piercing since the mid 1980s, but knew instinctively it would reject. After watching a hand web migrate out (the guitar lessons didn't help) I knew I didn't want to place a piercing that would become a source of displeasure. Regardless, I toyed with the idea for years, debating whether or not I was willing to accept the scar for the temporary ...
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By Anonymous · March 18, 2007 · 0 comments
About a year and a half ago I discussed the possibility of attaching zippers to my forearms with a friend of mine. He loved the idea and we talked over some of the details, equipment, and issues and agreed to try to make it happen in the near future. A little over a year ago the dream I've had for years became reality. I ordered medical sutures (half circle curved needles attached to 18" of black monofilament nylon) and bought some black (~8") zippers from a fabric store. We set a date and about an hour or two after starting ...
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By Anonymous · March 18, 2007 · 0 comments
Disclaimer: What follows is my life as a cutter as I feel like telling it. I've done some stupid things in my life, so don't do what I did. I'm an emotional cutter, and damn proud of it. Normally I'd cut when I get really angry or sad. I'm highly introverted, but very emotional, so I find my feelings bottle up inside like a raging cyclone. When I let loose, I'm normally too scared of the ramifications if I lash out at someone else, so I just cut sick on myself (no pun intended). I've tortured myself in as many ...
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By Anonymous · March 07, 2007 · 0 comments
I'm sure that you all have your own very different and unique reasons for cutting, as do I. But in this experience I intend not to focus primarily on the reasons behind cutting, but the act of and the consequences of cutting. Partly because I do not wish to share it and partly because I want to use this experience to try and communicate with people who have not cut before and are thinking of doing so and also with people who are trying to stop. I will start off by giving you some background information on myself. I am ...
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By peco · March 07, 2007 · 0 comments
Meu nome é Alexandre Montealto ,conhecido por Peco,28anos ,conheci o kavadi atraves de livros do Fakir Musafar a anos atrás e fiquei encantado inicialmente pelo visual e depois fui buscar o por que daquilo. Usando a internet tive um pequeno conhecimento do que se referia o ritual. Um dia por conta de uma comunidade de modificaçao corporal ( IAM-BME) conheci o Korn ,um ritual performer Holandes que havia construído seu próprio kavadi frame em 1992,e ele tornou-se meu grande amigo. Nos escrevemos por muito tempo,ate que ele veio ao Brazil e aproveitou para auxiliar-me em meu primeiro ritual ( suspensão ...
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By Anonymous · March 07, 2007 · 0 comments
For my second suspension I had decided that I wanted to try one from my knees. I remember looking at pictures of others doing them before and thinking that I could never pierce my knees, let alone hang my whole body weight on them. I don't know why exactly, but after doing a 4 pt. suicide suspension it just felt like it wouldn't be that bad. I know that the lessons I learned from my first experience definitely helped my second one go much smoother. Russ Foxx organized another indoor suspension event and I was stoked to go up. The ...
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By Anonymous · Feb. 22, 2007 · 0 comments
I had looked at pictures of play piercing on BME for ages and had decided it was something I definitely wanted to do. I found a very good UK based website www.medisave.co.uk and purchased supplies based around an 'essentials' list that an IAM friend had given me when I was asking her advice on the subject. I was apprehensive and not 100% sure quite what I was doing so I hoped I could find a friend who was interested too would be able to play pierce along with me. That was not to be. Months and months passed and the ...
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By Anonymous · Feb. 22, 2007 · 0 comments
Some time last fall i had a spontaneous idea. I turned to my boyfriend Brandon, then bluntly came out and asked, "How would you feel about doing a flesh-pull for our one year anniversary?" He really fancied the idea, mentioning more than once that it would mean more to him than getting legally married. It meant more to me as well; having experienced an energy pull once before, I was aware of the spiritual journey we would be taking together. I was also aware of how much trust we had to have in each other to agree to this experience. ...
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By LotN · Feb. 22, 2007 · 0 comments
When I told anyone about my intention to do a suspension, the first response was always "Why?" It's a difficult question to answer. I couldn't say what it is I wanted as I hoped to go in without any real expectations. Any explanation I gave sounded trite. But ever since reading Fakir Musafar's suspension articles for BME, I knew that it was something I had to try. One day. Lately, the time began to feel right. I felt prepared as a person and willing to accept the outcome, whatever it might be. I sent out feelers, just dipping my toes. ...
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