Nipple piercings to heal
When I was a young girl I was sexually assaulted by a man. I was 6 years old. It is something so traumatic that it still haunts me to this day. My whole life I have strived to be physically strong and seemingly unattractive so I never have to go through something like that ever again. I only started talking about it when I was 17 and my friends helped me overcome so much. My whole teenage years I refused to date because of this. I was not afraid of men but I wanted to be seen as an equal. I was 18 when I had my first intimate encounter with a man and it was wonderful. However my whole life I have never really felt in control of my own body.
I was 14 when I got my first piercing (other than just general ear piercing). I also wanted each piercing I have to have meaning to my life. My first cartilage piercing was when I started high school, and it was meant to represent comprehension of new information. To open my ears to this new type of learning. My next two cartilage piercings were to make me be better able to filter out the shit that some people pass off as information. That was shortly before going to university. Half way through my first year I got a smiley, because first year was the first time in my life that I did not feel I needed to censor myself. I live in a small town and my parent are both very reputable people who have trained me since birth that a good reputation is important. In university you are encouraged to voice yourself even if it controversial.
In researching for my smiley I stumbled across BMEzine. When I saw the pictures my eyes were open to the piercing world. I saw the most beautiful piercing and tattoos. I spent hours just looking. As creepy as this might sound I fell in love with one woman's nipple piercings. They were perfect. I though about it a lot, and realized that I had to get it done. I thought that the parallels to my life were striking. As I am now finally after so many years opening to the sexual side of myself, what better physical manifestation of that than nipple piercings. So I decided to do it. I didn't tell anyone though. When I got home from first year my friend said that we should go get tattoos together. Now I am a cautious person and have boundaries for myself. If there is a body modification that I want I need to sit on the idea for 6 months, if I still want it I get it done. I was in no rush to get a tattoo, but I said that I would rather get my nipples pierced. She flipped out and said she would get hers done too. So we made a date. When I met with her that day she said that she just wanted to get her lip pierced instead. That was ok with me.
We drove to Barrie and were an hour early, I was so nervous. So we went and looked at shops and the whole time I felt like I was going to throw up. I was so scared. I almost backed out. We were in the shop (Lucky Devil) 10 min after it opened. We told the girl what we wanted done and she just handed us a form to sign. She didn't even care, I was sure people would think I was crazy to do something like this. We signed the forms and paid upfront. I was glad we paid beforehand or else I might not have got it done. We were immediately assured to a clean room with amazing art, and pictures of tattoos on the walls. Our piercer's name was Brock and was incredibly friendly. He told me that the worst thing about getting this done was the feelings I was experiencing in right now. He calmly reassured me that it wouldn't be bad. Then he said 'ok, pull them out'. I almost died, but I did. He then instructed me to stand as still and straight as possible. I kept making nervous glances at my friend and Brock was constantly reminding me to be still. After he made the markings he told me to go check them out. I think I did look at them in the mirror, but I don't remember. I do remember my friend and I giggling and her saying it looked fine. Then I went and sat down in the chair as Brock prepared the needles and rings. I held my friend's hand behind me and he pierced them. I remember feeling a little pain but it also felt good. I didn't make a noise except a gasp when the needle went through. I actually enjoyed the feeling! The rest of the day I couldn't stop smiling, thinking that there was something under my shirt that no one would guess. I don't seem like the type of person to do something like that, and I always smile a little when someone says how down to earth or sensible I am.
The after care was fairly straight forward; however I did have a bit of a problem for a bit with my right nipple. Seems strange but any infection or healing problem that I have with any of my piercing is on my right side. I anyone can tell me about that send me an e-mail! But other than that I had little trouble. Some days they were more sensitive and sore but for the most part I didn't even notice a thing. If this is something that you are thinking of doing I would encourage you to do it. It looks great, and now I have small barbells in them and it looks cute. It sounds silly but this really did change my life. I feel like I now am in control of my body and that the past will not define my future. These truly were piercings to heal.
submitted by: tainted_purity
on: 28 Sept. 2008
in Nipple Piercing
Studio: Lucky Devil
Location: Barrie, ON