Today was the best day of my life. I did my suspension! I'll say right now that there are no amount of words that could possibly explain what was going through my head, but I'll say this, after all was done and I was laying on the ground alone with time to think I knew that everything was going to be different. So... Where to begin... Jessica, Brandon, and I headed downtown at around 4:00, the whole time I was in such a good mood, like there was nothing that could stop me. Once we got into Shannon's backyard my thoughts started to change, I started to get scared, and didn't know what to do. It's just that everything was happening so fast. Before I knew it Brett was there, followed by Blair, then came Phil. I was starting to get a little anxious and wasn't sure what was going to happen so I tried to keep everything off my mind. As Phil and Blair set up to pierce me, Phil recommended that I took a walk, so I went out into the middle of the field and sat down, closed my eyes and started to meditate. At that moment all my thoughts disappeared into nothing, it was the best meditating that I've ever done. I felt the wind brush against me and I heard the trees move with the wind. There was nothing around me but my thoughts. I got back up and walked back to Shannon's house to get pierced. I laid down and got ready for the piercing. We decided to go with 5 down each side of my body. 6 on my back, 1 on each thigh, and 1 on each calf. Usually with piercing I can sit through it and not be squeamish or anything, but this time was different. There were ten 10ga needles going into my body! The first two were fine, I could sit there and feel the needle going through each layer of skin, and on top of that feel each bevel going in and coming out. The last 5 were the worst, Jessica held my hands and I almost crushed her hands. Once the hooks were in I chilled for a bit then walked outside. Here is where everything really started to kick in, in terms of my emotions. I was lying down while they were tying me up to the rig and Jessica was holding my hand again. All that was going through my mind was the fact that this was real, and it was happening right now! I didn't know what to expect when I went up, whether I would stay up for five minutes or stay up for five hours. Everyone gave me a second to gather my thoughts and when I was ready I gave the word. My whole body felt weightless and free of everything, Jessica was still holding my hands just to make sure I wouldn't spin around or anything. In that first two to five minutes I realized so much about life. Like I said before it's hard to put these feelings into words, just because there are no words it's emotions and feelings that I felt, and they were all new. After a while I opened my eyes to see that I was over five feet in the air. I began to talk to everyone more openly than the first five minutes, which consisted of someone asking a question and me nodding my head. From this point on I had so much fun. First I felt the need to call my work and talk to Glenn and Gary, so someone handed me my cell and I talked to them for a bit while suspending. Shannon really like that one, he got a nice picture of me with the phone that he said he would use on the front of BME. After that I chilled in the air experiencing bliss and talking to my friends. After a while I got thirsty so someone got me a drink, it really helped me out to have juice in my system while up there, and I drank a lot of it, and we all know what happens when you have a lot to drink... I'll get to that a little later on. Before I was up in the air I was considering holding Jessica's weight as well so we gave it a try. Brett held my ankles as a counter balance and Jessica hopped on a chair so she could reach my hands. I slowly start to pick her up and I could feel the pressure on my back get worse, I really liked it, but she slipped on the chair and jerked a little bit so I was VERY uncomfortable, so I put her down. We got a really nice picture of that! So now I must have been in the air for about an hour and I wanted something to eat. Shannon and Rachel ordered some sushi and there were left overs, so they passed it up to me. It was kind of funny sitting there with a drink in one hand and sushi in the other; everyone got a kick out of it. I was left a lone for a little bit to collect my thoughts and I just hung there thinking about how real it was, the fact that I was talking about doing a suspension back in February and now I was actually doing it. Remember before how I mentioned that drinking a lot makes you have to pee.... Well I had to go, and I really didn't want to come down, so Shannon recommended that I piss in a bucket in a joking way, so I told them to find me one. Everyone couldn't believe that I was going to be pissing while suspending, I couldn't believe that I was going to. It was hard peeing just because there were people watching me up there and laughing, but once I got started it was ok. Now it must have been close to two hours into it and I was still feeling great, I could have gone for at least another 3 or 4 hours and would have loved it, but everything had to come to an end, like everything does... Everyone gave me 5 minutes to myself so I can have a final moment in my state of bliss. The time had come, Shannon and Phil started to lower to the ground, once I got there I felt so much weight on my back, it was actually a really interesting feeling. Brandon and Phil started to detach the hooks from the rig. Once that was done I was left for a couple of minutes to collect my thoughts, and let my body adjust to the way the skin usually is. After a while I decided it was time to get up, Phil and Jessica helped me in to the house. I laid back down and Phil started to remove the hooks from my back, I took nice deep breaths in and out, slowly trying to clear my mind. Once all the hooks came out the fun started... Brandon, Jessica, and Phil began to massage all the air out of my back and legs. There wasn't a lot of air in my legs, but as soon as Jessica and Phil pushed on my back I could feel the air come out as well as hear it bubble up. I looked back to see my back was full of blood and lube. This went on for at least a half-hour until they couldn't get any more air out. I remember lying there feeling the most excruciating pain that I've ever felt. The funny thing is I can't wait to do another suspension and experience it all over again. Phil and Jessica bandaged me up and I was done, I went to the bathroom to clean off some blood off my neck and went back outside to talk to everyone. Before I knew it we were in my friends Zach's car and we were going back home. Before we got to the car Brandon handed me a book that he has that we used to write in at school, and he told me to write my thoughts once we got into the car. This is what I wrote: "There's no amount or combination of words that can express my feelings right now... I reached the point in my life, during my suspension, where I was happy. I didn't have to fake it. Right now I feel separated yet at one with everything around me. I don't know what tomorrow will bring... and I can't wait to 'see'..." -Corey, 2001 After a while of sitting in the car I felt so happy, and for some reason all I could do was cry... I got home at around 1:45 or so and I laid down in my bed for a bit while I talked to Brandon on icq. I felt my swallowing get harder and harder, and there were pains in my lungs that were slowly getting worse. By around 4:00 I was worried and so was Brandon so I just laid back and chilled with a wet cloth on my head. By back was hurting so much while I was lying down on it. Soon it was 4:00 and Brandon, Jessica, and Josh came over. Brandon and Jessica massaged my back because there was still a lot of air that I could feel under the skin. All in all it was a really good experience I can't wait until my mind and my body are ready to do it again. Right now my body feels so burned out, but my mind is doing different things, and I'm thinking on a much higher level than how I did before.
submitted by: Anonymous
on: 04 Sept. 2001