My Fist Self-Branding
Ever since I can remember, I have been fascinated by body modifications. I started piercing my own ears when I was around 14, and by the time I was 17 I ended up with an industrial, 3 cartilage, 2 gauged lobes, eyebrow, nostril, tongue, and navel. Any who, with my mother not consenting to anymore piercings and me being too young to legally be tattooed I began looking into scarification. I don't really know what caught my eye about burning, save for the fact that it was something I was completely terrified about doing and I always have been one to push myself.
I looked up information and pictures on the ever helpful BMEzine.com and decided to leave it alone. For me to get my pain threshold up enough to do that, I had to be either pissed off or sad. (Hey look, an emo kid!) A couple of weeks passed by and my curiosity eventually got the better of me. This is where I make a little disclaimer and beg you NOT to do it the way I did. I have never talked to anyone who knows anything about doing this professionaly and did it according to what I thought would work. Granted, it did work, these may not be the safest guidelines.
I had no idea what I was going to use. It was the middle of the night and everyone else was asleep. So, I grabbed the closest thing I could think of that was metal. It ended up being a fingernail file. Now I needed the fire. With almost all of my friends being smokers, I always carried a lighter with me. hey, what are friends for? Anywho, with nail file and a lighter in hand I went to work. Deciding what I wanted to brand was difficult because even the most simple images could be messed up. Being that I am straight-edged, I decided on an X. Next, I had to decide on the spot for the brand. I decided that I wanted something on my wrist where it would always be visible and I could always have it to remind me of what I lived for. I was finally ready to do it. I held the fingernail file (which I did NOT clean and it's a miracle I didn't get an infection) over the flame until it turned red. Then.....I chickened out. It took me a couple more times before I finally set it to my skin. I almost cried out it hurt so bad. If you have ever put a candle out with water and heard the sound it makes, that is what my skin sounded like. However the first line took pretty well and the skin immediately curled up. I must say once again....it hurt like HELL. I haven't yet decided if the pain was due to the fact that I am terrified of burns, the spot on my body, or that I am just a wuss. It was probably a combination of all three.
I had come this far and wasn't about to give up now, so I attempted to lay the second line down. I was already about to cry from the pain of the previous line, so I only got half a line done before I jerked my arm away. If you have ever seen Bam Margera get branded on Jackass 2, that's exactly what my skin looked like. (minus the penis of course) I finally go up the nerve to finish the other half of the line. This one didn't hurt near as badly. Partly because my skin was already burning so bad and partly because my endorphins had kicked in.
The after effects were not pleasant. For about a week, my skin was oozing out this yellow stuff from the burn. I tried to keep it as clean as possible and it ended up scabbing over pretty well. I let the scab harden for a couple of days and then began peeling it off. This also hurt pretty badly and I kept having to stop because I was drawing too much blood. About a week and a half after the initial branding I had the scab completely off. What was left was a beautiful X on my left wrist about the size of a half dollar and a very bright shade of pink, It's been about six months now and I fall in love with it more each day. It has ended up being a little pinker than flesh toned which stands out nicely on my pale white skin.
All in all I would recommend Branding to anyone who likes the look and can handle some pain. I think I will have many more to come! In the future however, I will be more careful to sanitize the tools I use.
submitted by: Anonymous
on: 23 Jan. 2007