Hey, nice crop circles!
Getting a scarification done was something I had stirring around in the back of my head for a long time. When I first became interested in body modification, anytime I saw something more extreme than what I have seen before I would think "Holy Crap, I could never do that to myself." Then about six months I would start considering doing those 'crazy' things.
I've done a few cuttings on myself, but I'm no artist. This was my first scar done by a professional. I was at Freaks talking to Jeremy about something, I don't exactly remember what. I decided while I was up there I wanted to get something done. We talked about it for a little bit, and then we decided a scar would be a good idea. I don't have any tattoos, so this would be the first permanent work of art on my body.
I took me a little while to figure out what kind of design I wanted. Jeremy had a book of designs that he made, and I used one of those. It's three circles, kind of in the shape of a snow man, but without the circles touching. After thinking about it for a little bit I decided I wanted it done on my left side. Jeremy let me know that cutting open my side was gonna hurt more than most other places. I didn't care though, I couldn't imagine putting it anywhere else.
Jeremy prepared a copy of the design and we put it on my body. I told him I wanted it a little bigger, so he made another. After three times, it was at a size I liked. After we placed it just right on my body, I laid down on the table and we got to business.
I don't think there was any way I could have prepared for it.
I almost couldn't stand it at first. After not too long, we worked out a system where I was taking slooow, deep breaths, and Jeremy would do the cutting as I was breathing out. After a little while (I lost perception of time), I was able to focus my mind on other things besides the pain. It was like a deep meditation that you can only get through a similar experience such as a suspension or something else drawn out and painful.
I was in a nice deep meditation until he started removing my skin. (Insert favorite explicit phrase here) that hurts! From now on I should give a high five to everyone I meet who has had a skin removal done, because they know how painful that is. I was trying my hardest not to squirm, but I couldn't help doing it a little. Jeremy tried to give me advice on how to avoid squirming, and it helped me a little, but I still couldn't totally ignore the pain.
We took a break after the first circle. Jeremy is a smoker, and I was at the time, so the cigarette was nice. Unfortunately, is was November in Missouri, so I was standing out in 35-40 degree weather without a shirt on. It wasn't so bad though, I was feeling so many different sensations at once that I didn't care if it was cold out.
The other two circles when much like the first. Very painful, some meditation, some squirming, and a cigarette break after another circle was done. Each time we finished a circle, I seriously considered calling it off. I knew if I did that I would hate myself later for it, so I'm glad I stuck it out.
The drive home wasn't so bad, I just had to make sure my seatbelt was adjusted in a way that it wouldn't touch my side. I went home, took it easy, and got some rest. The first time I took a shower sucked, I had to let the water run down on my would, and it stung like crazy. I also had trouble maneuvering for about a week.
It's completely healed now, and it's almost the same color as the rest of my skin, it's a little bit lighter and it's raised up. I love it. The design itself doesn't have any sort of deep meaning. People always ask "what does that mean?" Does it have to symbolize anything? It's simply a reminder of an experience I had, and I think it looks cool. The deep meaning for me was the act of getting it done, the circles don't mean anything, I just like circles.
So if you live in the KC area and you are looking for a local scar artist, I would recommend checking out Jeremy at Freaks on 39th. He's knows what he's doing with a scalpel AND he's a cool dude.
submitted by: Anonymous
on: 05 July 2006