My self-done Star
I've always wanted a tattoo, body piercing, or practically any kind of mod for as long as I can remember. My mom, being the stubborn person that she is refused to let me get any kind of piercing/tattoo what so ever, every time I even attempted to ask her. She said that only crazy and retarded people would want to "mutilate" themselves by destroying their body. No matter how much I tried to explain to her, she wouldn't listen. So I just gave up and realized that some people are just ignorant and don't listen to other people's points of views. I'm under 18 so there was no way I can get a decent tattoo anywhere. I was planning on getting my lip pierced but as I said, i'm under 18, so I would have to do some research to find a good place that would do it for me despite my age.
There's this good tattoo shop a few bus stops away from my house, that I want to go to, the day that I turn 18. The man at the shop even gave me his card and $100 deposit and set the date exactly on my 18th birthday. He was really nice and said that everyone that works there loves doing tattoos, so money wasn't even an issue. He just said that since I was a minor I would have to wait a while to get it.
But I just couldn't wait for the tattoo. I wanted something now. I was still planning on getting the tattoo, but I wanted something in the meantime. So one day I was on this web site, bmezine.com, looking at pictures and reading stories. I came across something that said scarification. I knew about scarification and cutting designs into skin. But it also had branding, which was new to me. So after I clicked on the link and saw the pictures of people, I was amazed at all the different kinds of designs done by branding. I immediately knew what I wanted to do. I decided that since im 16 and can't get a tattoo anywhere at the time, i'm going to brand myself. I was very excited as I was looking at all of the pictures and getting ready to do it.
I looked at many of the pictures, and they were all very interesting to me. I thought of what kind of design to do. I didn't want anything big or complex. I wanted something small and easy to do since I was going to do it on myself. I didn't want anything with any fine lines or details, so I decided on a star. I knew many people had stars and it was very common, but I didn't care. After all, this is my body and if I want something, it doesn't matter who else has it. So I thought to myself, yes i'm going to do a star. I didn't need a stencil or anything of that sort. All I needed was a pen to draw it on my skin because for me, stars are pretty easy to do.
I was thinking of what part of my body to do it on. I knew it had to be somewhere that my mom wouldn't be able to notice. So, since it's winter now and were all wearing pants, I decided to do it on my ankle. I was pretty nervous, because I was thinking about how painful it would be considering the fact that heated metal would be burning through my skin. I finally got over it because I'm not the one to back down because of pain.
So I began to look around for some kind of metal do use. I decided to use a needle and heat it up with a match. So i got my needle, and some cotton balls to wipe away any blood. Then with a red pen i carefully drew the outline of a star on my ankle. I looked at it to make sure it looked even. I lit the match and started to heat one side of the needle. Then i quickly put out the match and brought the needle to my skin. It did hurt, at first. I was shocked because i didn't know what kind of pain/feeling to expect. I stopped for a little while, then continued to heat up the needle because it didn't stay hot for long. I slowly followed the lines of the star with my needle. After a while, I got used to it, and pain wasn't an issue anymore.
After a few minutes, my star was done. I was so happy with the way it came out. I love the way it looks, but I know it needs a few months to completely heal so I can see what it will finally look like. But I love the star on my ankle. I think it looks great and I can't wait to see what it will look like after a couple of months. But if you plan on branding yourself, be careful. As you know, piercing/branding yourself can be dangerous if you don't know what you're doing. If you do make the decision to do it yourself, well then have fun and don't be scared, because in the end, it's really worth it!
submitted by: Anonymous
on: 10 Jan. 2005