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burning flesh anyone?

il recently I have always had lots of ugly scars. Most of them I hated but at the same time could compare them with others. Kind of like telling childhood war stories. So my friend tells me about this new toy he got, a cauterizing gun. He somehow talks me into getting a scarification piece done. Because of all of my other ugly scars I decide to let him do it. I figured I might as well get one that I actually like. I drew up a pattern that would cover my entire arm and figured I would get it all done at once and not have to worry about it again. But if I had known then I probably would never have gone through with it. So there I sit in this tiny room, pattern on arm and so the burning flesh wouldn't get in his lungs my friend is sitting there with a gas mask. At this point, completely sober, I start to freak out a little...especially when he pulls out the gun and turns it on. At over 3000 degrees, this thing turned the brightest red I have ever seen. My friend promptly got to work. I have been burned before but this was unlike anything I have ever felt in my entire life. It was exhilarating but at the same time I could not just sit there and let him go at it continuously. I had to take a few cigarette breaks, and have my best friend hold my arm down. Unfortunately I chickened out and only got 1/3 of the original design done. My best friend was pretty happy about that. She didn't have a mask on and she almost puked from the smell. That was all that we could smell for the next day. What I had gotten done actually looked really cool and my adrenaline was pumping so much that I didn't really feel the pain for the first 3 days. I also had it covered. I really didn't know much about the after care. It wasn't exactly done by a professional. I was under the impression that it needed to scab and the best way for that was to keep it uncovered after a few days. Everything seemed to be going well but the swelling and redness would not go down. About the 4th day, it started to pus. And hurt. So I figured I would just stay pretty drunk and the pain would eventually go away...but it didn't. When I was at work I would almost pass out and I couldn't sleep or eat. By the 5th day I had a terrible fever and the pus was gross and getting out of control. My arm was obviously badly infected. I decided to go to the emergency room and have it checked out. Apparently they had never seen anything like it and were amazed that anyone would have that done intentionally. Almost every nurse, EMT, doctor and whoever happened to be passing by stared at my arm. I felt like putting up a sign and charging people. They stuck all kinds of drugs in me and took lots of blood. I got a tetanus shot and peed in a cup. I guess they really didn't know what else to do. The conclusion was that if I had waited another 24 hours to go in there, the infection would have spread through my whole body and I would have died. So they cleaned up the pus and rebandaged my arm, I also got a prescription and this really nifty cream that makes all the pain go away. I kept my arm covered for the next week, only removing the bandage to change and clean. That was the worst hell of the whole experience. I had never cried from physical pain before in my life. I have had tons of it too. But there was no way to stop the tears from flowing and I would scream every single time I had to clean it. I still couldn't sleep. Every way I laid something ached and I don't take painkillers for anything. So I just stuck it out. It has paid off now. I am almost completely healed with the exception of one tiny scab that refuses to go anywhere. It is still really red and feels like lizard skin. All of this, just to get a fucking scar. People ask me why I didn't just get a tattoo? Or have I learned my lesson. I really have to think about that one. I can never have it removed and I have over $400 in doctor bills now. But I really just wanted a new experience. I am not sorry I had it done and I will get more work done. More than likely not with the cauterizing gun though. I think my next piece will be done with a scalpel.

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submitted by: Anonymous
on: 15 Dec. 2000
in Scarification

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