Eyeball tattoo diary
On wednesday 9th on June I got both of my eyes tattooed. Pure black. There's quite a few pictures of them around already as it's utmost extreme thing to do and if anyone, ever, wants those done, they should be 2000000 % sure that they know all the risks and are ready to live with them in the worst case scenarios.
The whole eyeball tattooing started with Shannon and Pauly (with few others if I don't remember incorrectly) in 2007. These were done by Howie (LunaCobra) and later on he did few more. To my knowledge he's done 6 in total, but that's my speculation. There are two inmates in the prisons of US of A, with blue and red eyes and then Ronald Lachowicz (xRonix respectavily) has done 4 before me, which makes me to be approximately world's 13th. Enigma, respectively, had his eyes done few months ago and has had blurry vision ever since. Or so I've heard. Shannon suffers irritation of his eye (yet again, to my knowledge, I can't speak or them)
Note: this has nothing to be first in anything. I'm explaining this very tabooish and extreme form of modification!!
"I really have to emphasize again that the procedure was extensively researched and done by people who were aware of the risks and possible complications and that it should not be casually attempted. Now that this experiment has been started, please wait for us to either heal or go blind before trying it." - Pauly Unstpopable
It's been soon week from my operation and I have some spread ink under my left eye. There is a possibility that it will vanish, but I did go to the eye specialist today, which was a burden to my wallet, but you can't put a pricetag on your vision. Here's the outcome:
My eyevision is very good. Nothing's changed. My eyes react to light just the way they should, even thou' they're still a little bit swallen and healing. (oh and god the healing process can annoy!) Therefore everything went exactly as planned. I have pure black demon eyes, with so far all the risks evaded.
There is no saying if this will affect my vision in later life, but for now, even the expensive eye specialist was suprised how well everything's gone and with good interest gave me contacts to the leading skin specialists in Finland in case the eyebag ends up being darker than the other one. I also gave her permission to use my eyes in educative manner and keep her updated regarding the healing process. As this is very very interesting for me and hopefully some information seeking everlearners too. (as we are all warning examples if something happens)
I've declined from all interviews and keep doing so unless they are from modified people to modified people. I have no interest being in the bright lights or have 15 minutes of fame so only interview regarding this project so far will be to my friend Sakari (Wormz respectively) and his blog, that you all can read from: http://www.wormz.org/blog/
I will be happy to try to answer any questions you have, but do hope that people understand the seriousness of this matter and don't try any of this at home!
............Oh and let's add a small, quite important detail, which is called: Why I did it?
I met Roni a year ago on our way to a fetish club in Leipzig, Germany and we befriended immediately. Later on I stayed at hers when I visited Poland on my way to meet Samppa Von Cyborg and to get my transdermals done by him in London.
I was very interested in the idea of taking the next step in my Mechanical Demon - theme, which has been going on from the very first tattoo I ever took around 10 years ago or so, but had my issues regarding the safety of the procedure. This was carefully and throughout thought with 9 months of endless conversations with both Roni and dozens of other people.
It was very clear to me that I wanted to get these done and that I wouldn't regret them, but to face the facts: This is dangerous, maybe THE most dangerous bodymodification related modification out there and there are NO (read ZERO) statistics, results or anything for long term issues. So knowing the dangers, learning all I could about them I came to the conclusion that that is what I want to do. It took months to organize this to happen, but nothing like this should be rushed.
I'm not sure if I got a single positive response, when I even mentioned the topic. People were just like me, extremely sceptic and without the conversations we all shared, I wouldn't have done this. It was very important to me to get all the point of views. Thank you - you know who you are, even tho' you tried to speak me out of this.
But at the same time it was certain that I might lose a hell of a lot real friends. There was a risk of permanent vision injury and still is and if I go blind, especially because of my own actions, I doubt that people around me will stay there by my side taking care of me. I mean, having an injury and causing stuff to yourself are two completely different things.
It'd be very selfish to think that nothing would change. Lot's of things did, even if I don't know about it that well. i did not seek justification or pre-forgiveness from anyone, but the questions I couldn't answer so I could go and look out a bit more. To fnd out as much as possible of this and am so happy that I got this done!
It took lots of courage, guts and patience - real determination, friendships, trust and months and months of planning and homework, but I'm closer to what I really, really want to look like and can't stop seeing myself as a more complete package with better self-confidence in my own looks.
Nearly a week after the procedure we injected saliva to the left eyebag to see if it would dissolve the ink. Saliva is very safe to play around with and has already been absorbed into my body during the night. I don't see any changes, but am so superhappy regarding the eyes, that couldn't care less about this minor detail ;) The results are visible after everythings all healed up.
Please do understand. I don't want anyone to get inspired by this text and go and do something stupid with results of damaging or losing their vision. That would be too much for me to bear. Use your brains as you all have them! No matter are you young or old this is very dangerous and even thou' I got them and love my eyes to death I wish you'd wait for the long term results of all good and bad!
All in all: I am very happy that I went thru' this. It's definately the biggest thing that I've ever done to myself and I look more and more what I really want to look like and am very satisfied :)
Best regards, Ilja (the mechanical demon)
submitted by: ilja
on: 17 June 2011
in Eyeball Tattoos