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My name is TIFFANY. I am a Minister with the Church of Body Modification, a member of the Stay Classy Suspension Team, a Licensed Private Investigator #24291, a Commissioned Notary Public, and an amateur photographer.


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or Email Me at: tiffany@tmhahn.com


My Piercings:

  • 1" Lobes (bottom hole)
  • 4g Lobe (second hole)
  • 14g Bridge Piercing
  • 12g Septum Piercing
  • 16g Philtrum Piercing
  • 6g Labret/Lower Lip Piercing
  • 14g NIpple Piercings

My Tattoos:
  • Full color butterfly, left forearm
  • Blackwork Butterfly, right forearm
  • Blackwork Crop Circles, left calf
  • Infinity Symbol, back of neck

My Cuttings:
  • Squares Inside of Squares, right calf

Suspensions and Pulls:
  • (dates coming soon)

Diary

4th of July
7/5/2008 | 2 comments

I'm in Bass Lake for the 4th of July weekend. I was excited about spending some time with my two kids in the serene pine forests, less than 15 miles from Yosemite's South Gate. I certainly didn't expect Copper Canyon quality chaos. I had a BLAST out on the lake yesterday, and well into the evening hours.

Going, Going, Gone.
6/28/2008 | 1 comments

I'm heading up to Northern California next week, from Wednesday through Sunday. Then the week after THAT, I may be starting a multi-state adventure. Uh, I think on July 10th. Something like that. Solid itinerary will be posted on here next week.

THE MEANING OF LIFE
6/27/2008 | 3 comments

The air is cold and crisp, and a phenomenal breeze keeps whipping through the place. I'm listening to BT (This Binary Universe) and dancing with the wind. I'm pretty sure this is it. This is the meaning of life. This is the point to it all.

It's not the people I know, or who know me. It's not the toys I have, or the money I make. All the meditation and medication could never bring me to where I am right now. I don't think much about the past anymore. I don't think much about the people who should have been there and weren't, but if I do, I can't relive the pain even if I search for it. I can recall every time someone hurt me, but those moments don't summon themselves anymore. I feel progressively less badly about the choices I've made and the people who may have been hurt in the process. I've forgiven myself for the things I've done, and started to soften the memories on the things I wish I had done differently.

I've reached an age where I worry about tomorrow less, too. I don't have to worry about what college I'll get in to. I don't have to worry about whether or not I'll ever have kids or if I'll spend the rest of my life alone. I'm not worried about the car I drive, or the places I might live. I'm not worried about acquiring things or property. I'm not concerned about the money I have or spend, the debts I have or pay off, and the retirement I may or may not enjoy. I've thought about dying long enough to know I'm going to, and I don't think it will be bad for me when I do. I love my kids and try to give them memories of me to last longer than I do.

When it comes right down to it, nothing in the past happened the way I remember it. It wasn't as great or as horrible as I recall. Nothing in the future will happen the way I plan. Great plans will go badly, and great things will come from badness. I'll never be as connected and understood as I think I am, and I'll certainly never be as alone as I feel.

I'm not sure at what point the "present" becomes the "past" or the "future." If I try to blur those lines, the past and the future outweigh the present 2:1. Nothing matters as much as right now, though. Nothing is as real as right now. Fortunately for all of us, we get a vast number of "right nows" to make the changes we need to make.

The right choices aren't something we plan for. Choices are realized when decisions are acted out. When plans are brought into the present, greatness is realized. Happiness is achieved when the plans reach their end, when we can stop wondering and wandering. Some people will never get there. I got there too young.

The meaning of life is... Now. Right now. This moment.

Anonymous Forums and Random Updates
6/27/2008 | 3 comments

THIS is probably my favorite forum of all time. There are lots of posts and posters, so the topic turns over relatively quickly. But even when I haven't been online for a few days, I can jump on and read a few posts for an immediate chuckle. Even if you think you know my anon ID, it won't matter, because I change it about once a week. I frequent too many anonymous forums.

I recently ordered and received "Flesh & Blood" on DVD. If I can get my kids settled tonight, I hope to watch it.

I also did a rather large ritual two nights ago. It didn't go as hoped. Things can't go well every time, I suppose. The aftermath has been strange, but then again, so am I.

Good Stuff
6/24/2008 | 4 comments

There was a nocturnal that I wanted, and apparently I waited too long. It's not for sale anymore. I hate it when I do that. Other than that, I'm working on plans. Planning, planning, planning, and maybe a little scheming. Feels REALLY good.

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