ordered new/larger plugs a few days ago and recieved them yesterday...sadly they are a bit too large for my lobes and i don't have anything to help with the stretching process :(  i tried to get them in while in the shower today but had no luck. 

just before my shower i was watching some random old lady dressed in all purple picking leaves off the grape vines in my backyard.....weird.  i tried to talk to her and she didnt speak english, haha......don't know where she came from or where she walked off to....all in all it's been a strange morning.

Been feeling a little ill the past few days with some dizzy spells and now just a weakness throughout my entire body with a sore chest and lungs. Yuck. I don't get sick much but when i do its usually bronchitis or pneumonia, really hope that's not what this is :( yesterday was a week sober for my sister, shes doing so well, even filled out some applications for a new job. I couldn't be more proud of her. As for me both jobs are going well and life is good <3

What a week.....things just keep getting better, well sort of. My sister had another really bad night a few nights ago and came after me.....she hit me once and had to be pulled off me. Drunk again and extremely depressed. I was just going to move out and say fuck it but after talking to my best friend and mom about it I have decided to stay. We had an intervention and confronted her about her alcoholism. For the first time in over 8 years she admitted to having a problem when she was sober. Progress. It has been 3 days since she had a drink. So like I said things just keep getting better. 19 days and I'll be in his arms again <3

just returned home from my chicago trip and the best week of my life<3

july 14th, 2 days before the 1 year anniversary of my dads death. he was the one person who knew EVERYTHING about me and never judged. the only person who excepted me the way i am and never tried to change the way i live

...my first suspension(in honor of him) was amazing...although i have to admit, i got a little light headed twice.

after the second dizzy spell came over me i started to talk to my dad in my head, as though he could hear me. the dizziness stopped and this feeling of release came over me....like a weight was lifted, i have never felt that amount of pure weightlessness emotionally or physically...

i know he was watching from where ever the hell he is and i also know hes still proud of his tattooed little girl for living her life instead of letting life pass her by.

to top it off, i was able to share the whole experience with someone i care for deeply. if it wasn't for him none of this would have happened. i can't even put into words the feelings i have knowing he is there to share that part of my life with.

Everything I have ever wanted and more.....last night was amazing!