although being back home with family and friends is great, my daily life is missing a few major things. i know it is only a matter of time before everything comes together and i should remain patient. usually when i rush things that is when i screw it up. so i will take a deep breath say the serenity prayer and relax.

i will be landing in michigan soon and all my thoughts are on my future. i know some people back home are going to talk about my decisions to go out to california. that doesn't bother me. if they were me they would live their life with no regrets. it is the only way to live. even though it has not turned out for the better i would have regreted not trying.

this is me, adventurous and loving life for those who are no longer here to love it along with me.

only 5 more days left in california and all my packing and mailing is done.  everything seems to be falling right in place and it is making this move an easy one. my transfer back to the store i worked at before the move should be complete this week as well. oh how i miss that store and the people who work there. they were like family to me, with out them in my daily life has been just as hard as not having my real family.

in other news, i had a tattoo appointment set for this week for a piece i wanted in memory of my father. after a rather large purchase and all the moving costs i am bummed that it is no longer in my budget. i know it won't take long for me to save the money after getting back home also an old neighbor of my dad owns a shop. so after thinking about it waiting is the right thing to do, that way i won't be broke and i can have someone who knew my father when he was alive do the piece.

this has been a crazy week for me. i have been packing for a move back home to michigan. trying to get a transfer to a home depot in the area i will be staying, on such short notice i am afraid that it will not work out in time. i guess if it doesn't work at that location i can always return to my old store which will be 30 miles away. i am one of the few employees there who absolutly loves their job and is willing to do what it takes to keep it.

so back to the move, packing and mailing boxes, i am surrounded by a huge mess of all my things. deciding what to leave behind, donate and keep. stressfull is all i have to say about that. it will be over soon and as my dad always said this to shall pass.

on top of all that i was hit by a car on my bike yesterday. i fell to the left into the road, saw the traffic coming and jumped up to get out of the way. although they weren't that close it was still scary. after a few words with the man who was in a police uniform i headed back home shaking.  my arm is now a little bruised and swollen and sore. that has been my weekend so far, wonder what will happen next.

i woke up this morning in a really good mood. made some coffee and headed out to the front porch with rex, my cat. i was trying to take a picture of a leaf on one of my plants sitting on the ledge when all of a sudden rex jumpped to the roof of the apartment below. i live in the upper unit of a tri-plex, there are three units 2 in the back(1 on top of the other) and 1 in the front.

 i threw my phone down and pushed away the plants blocking me from getting up, hopped on top of the ledge down to the roof and ran after him. wow, its not the first time he has done that, but every time he does i get so scared hes just going to keep running and fall off the roof. usually he stops to look at me as though he knows he is doing something wrong and is just waiting for me to grab him. thats what he did today. i feel bad for the people below having to listen to me stomp on their roof, i bet it was loud.

that was the start to my rocky day that has ended. now after work all i want is to relax and be comfortable. seems like it is with in reach but at the same time just past my fingertips.