so its becoming more clear to me that i need a little help(the help my dad was always there for). a second income to be exact. so keep your fingers crossed for me. this week my dad will be watching over me to make sure i do what i need to do in order to survive. i will get hired somewhere, i have to, since i now no longer have my dad to pick me up when i fall.

so i'm looking to get a new tattoo, something to fill my arm...the starting point is the cross my dad took me to get when i was 16. i have a design of three roses one to symbolize my dad, his sister(she raised me) and my grandpa(their father)...they are all gone now, and i miss them more then ever...i only wish they were here so i could see the look on they're faces when i show them the design...

on july 16th my father died. he was never just a father to me, he was my friend as well. i shared everything with him. he was the only person who knew every good, bad and ugly detail of my life, and he never judged me. he took me to get my first tattoo at the age of 16(a birthday present). 14 years and 3 months later he's gone.

so i know it has been a while since my last entry....im getting settled in here in LA...i've been working a lot lately and still trying to see and experience everything here...i must say i have been pretty lonely here with out my friends from home, but, i am meeting new people...

I ordered new jewelry for my ears so I can go larger...I am super excited and sooooo impatient, they should be here tomorrow, I can't wait!