a few other piercings
a few tattoos
a few drinks
lots of sleep
older than i look
younger than i feel
i am normally a pretty quiet person and i live a very quiet life...work, eat and sleep.
i drive heavy machinery almost every day and do it better than the men i work with...for 4'10.5" that says a lot. i work as much as i possibly can and love my job.
9/13/2001 | 0 comments
well, i went for my appointment to get my back piece started, and after two hours of talking about what he was gunna do, and an hour of figuring out where we were going to place everything, we then got started after the outline was finished a lady walked in and wanted three chinese letters put on her arm, so me being nice and knowing bob wasnt making any money off doing my tattoo, i took an hour break so he could make a few bucks, i was so raw when we got started again, so i took a few pain killers to take the edge off and i fell asleep for a few mins...it totaled out to about 7 hours of work, we are about 1/4 finished, we still have a way to go....we talked about the total price, and he said $1200, since i payed $600 so far, i only owe $600 more, not bad, and the grand total of hours on my back so far is about 21...i keep think if he charged the amount he usually does($150/hour), thats over $3,000 at the hours im at now...
he is going to be taking some pics for me and ill see if there is some way i can get them online, since my cam doesnt upload properly i have no way of doing it myself...
8/19/2001 | 0 comments
so i just took this test on stoner420's page, and i scored high in every catagory...
Paranoid: Very High
Schizotypal: Very High
Borderline: Very High
Narcissistic: Very High
Avoidant: Very High
i dont think this is a good thing, but i do think it is funny.....
so work is going good, im up to 55 hours a week, thats without overtime(one job pays cash, the other by chek).....
my tattoo appointment is comming up in a few weeks, im so anxious:)...
im sorry if i dont reply to messages for a few days at a time, but i will sooner or later, i promise....
7/27/2001 | 0 comments
my tummy has been feeling pretty good today, and i am happy to say that i did not need to take any pills for two days now, yay for me. i am content with the way things are right now, though i know it wont last for long, i am fine with a few good days a month, its better then nothing at all...
i started to count the days untill my next appointment for my back, there are 47 to go, i am getting more anxious every day just thinking about it, 11 hours, it prolly wont be that long since we have to place everything first, then takeing breaks so we can eat, and smoke...i got it all planned out..
7/23/2001 | 0 comments
i have been haveing alot of nightmares lately, i cant remember most of them all i know is that i wake up sweating and close to crying, well i remembered the one i had last night, and looked it up in my dream book, at the end it read...
The Tibetans often equate monstrous dream images with wrathful demons and guardian deities-the powers within the self that, properly used, can deter and destroy IGNORANCE, illusion and false motivation. One nineteenth century text on dream interpretation even considered that to dream of ghosts and spectres was actively propitious, foretelling the event of good news from distant places. To try and see a monster as a potentially beneficent force can sometimes help when more obvious interpretations fail.
i guess dreaming of monsters and vampires and stuff isnt all that bad.......
7/20/2001 | 0 comments
this fucking pian wont quit, i am so sick of taking these pills, i dont want to be on them anymore, but i cant take myself off them cause then i wont be able to walk, or get out of bed in the mornign, or go to work, shit i cant even sleep at night when they get like this, i dont want this anymore, they hurt me.