I had some info about me here at one point.......oh well
32, quiet, alone....blah blah blah. I mainly use this site as a way to vent and in doing so I have met some wonderful people.
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10/27/2013 | 4 comments
Why is it when things seem to be moving in a forwad direction all of a sudden I find myself back where I started? I think I am being taken for a ride, again. I guess I deserve the bullshit in some way or another since I am the one who keeps putting myself in the middle of it. Whatever. Over the last few weeks I have turned down a number of dates in hopes that the guy I have my eye on would finally make up his mind. Last night I went from being the girl who rents his spare room to his roommate who is a " special" friend to his friend. Just 2 days ago he was holding me in bed telling me how much he liked me. I'm done with the head games. I don't know if he's embarrassed of me or just an ass who can't make up his mind. Either way I'm done.
10/20/2013 | 0 comments
all I have to say is it was a good night. value your life and the people in it that make it meaningful
10/7/2013 | 4 comments
My fuck em approach is doing me some good but it also may be doing some bad. There was a time in my life where I felt important. What I did mattered...now, not so much. Just another hurdle for me to get over I guess. Other than my ill feelings toward a life I don't want and never asked for, things are okay. I'm getting through every day with a half ass smile and some fake laughs....pretending things are good until they get better.
9/29/2013 | 2 comments
So I'm not doing good on my list...I am still trying. Hopefully soon I will be able to get o the shop for some much needed tattoo therapy. I was going over all the bills from the surgery and a few from before...they total over $3,000, also have more appointments set for my lower jaw. Not fun. Anyhow, this life I have sucks but its not the worst. My dad used to say fake it til you make it....he was referring to something completely different but what he said stuck with me, so I will fake that my life is great til I make my life great. It makes sense to me....
9/22/2013 | 3 comments
Thank you to everyone who messaged and left comments. Even though the results were good I'm still feeling extremely depressed. Almost 100% sure that it is due to me drinking a bit more than normal so i'll be cutting that out of my routine. Quitting smoking is next on the list, then back to my strict diet and exorcise. Watching people around me happier than I am has really made be bitter since it's been one douche after another in my life. I figure it may have something to do with me so the above list is what I'll work on to make myself feel better...also I am sure that when I start treating myself better others will do the same. If not, fuck em.