I had some info about me here at one point.......oh well
32, quiet, alone....blah blah blah. I mainly use this site as a way to vent and in doing so I have met some wonderful people.
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7/31/2012 | 1 comments
It was to good to be true.....well sort of. My sister started drinking again.....3 days in a row so yesterday was her first day sober again.....still proud of her for going as long as she did though. Anyway, I'm making some progress with my lobes and hopefully at the end of the week will be able to get the new plugs in :) and even better news.....in a week he will be here <3
7/27/2012 | 1 comments
ordered new/larger plugs a few days ago and recieved them yesterday...sadly they are a bit too large for my lobes and i don't have anything to help with the stretching process :( i tried to get them in while in the shower today but had no luck.
just before my shower i was watching some random old lady dressed in all purple picking leaves off the grape vines in my backyard.....weird. i tried to talk to her and she didnt speak english, haha......don't know where she came from or where she walked off to....all in all it's been a strange morning.
7/25/2012 | 2 comments
Been feeling a little ill the past few days with some dizzy spells and now just a weakness throughout my entire body with a sore chest and lungs. Yuck. I don't get sick much but when i do its usually bronchitis or pneumonia, really hope that's not what this is :( yesterday was a week sober for my sister, shes doing so well, even filled out some applications for a new job. I couldn't be more proud of her. As for me both jobs are going well and life is good <3
7/21/2012 | 1 comments
What a week.....things just keep getting better, well sort of. My sister had another really bad night a few nights ago and came after me.....she hit me once and had to be pulled off me. Drunk again and extremely depressed. I was just going to move out and say fuck it but after talking to my best friend and mom about it I have decided to stay. We had an intervention and confronted her about her alcoholism. For the first time in over 8 years she admitted to having a problem when she was sober. Progress. It has been 3 days since she had a drink. So like I said things just keep getting better. 19 days and I'll be in his arms again <3
7/17/2012 | 3 comments
just returned home from my chicago trip and the best week of my life<3
july 14th, 2 days before the 1 year anniversary of my dads death. he was the one person who knew EVERYTHING about me and never judged. the only person who excepted me the way i am and never tried to change the way i live
...my first suspension(in honor of him) was amazing...although i have to admit, i got a little light headed twice.
after the second dizzy spell came over me i started to talk to my dad in my head, as though he could hear me. the dizziness stopped and this feeling of release came over me....like a weight was lifted, i have never felt that amount of pure weightlessness emotionally or physically...
i know he was watching from where ever the hell he is and i also know hes still proud of his tattooed little girl for living her life instead of letting life pass her by.
to top it off, i was able to share the whole experience with someone i care for deeply. if it wasn't for him none of this would have happened. i can't even put into words the feelings i have knowing he is there to share that part of my life with.