Can't remember the last time I slept the whole night through without waking up.....I've been on medication (Lorazapam)for almost a year now to help with that but it's not doing the job, so this week I'm going to stop taking it and try something new. Things are the same here and the only good part about that is they aren't getting any worse. Both jobs are good but the fact that i am forced to cover my tattoos at the sporting goods store makes me uncomfortable. I'm sure in time I'll just get used to it or maybe they will become more excepting of it, maybe not. Still it's a job and it's needed.

yesterday was painful, the first fathers day since my dad died.

i got to see the 2 sisters i never talk to and quickly remembered why i never talk to them.  think i am good for another 6 months.    this week i'll be making an appointment for more work on my arm, possibly adding to my girly chest piece and shopping for a rifle...yay

Left work an hour early, not on purpose either. The clock on my phone is messed up and I didn't realize it till i got home. Since i don't work til 7am tomorrow i have a night of fun planned. First going to the range for target practice. It's been about a month since I've been there so this will be the highlight of my night. Then season one of the walking dead. I've already seen the whole season but love it so much I could watch it over and over.

I've had enough. The night before last my sister, drunk as usual, started to get physical. Shoving and threatening me. I tried to lock myself in my room to get away from her. She tried to bust open the door that's when somehow my finger got caught in it.....thought I was going to loose my nail. She finally passed out and i fell asleep as well. Missed work yesterday due to everything and waited for her to get home(she picked up a day of work). She never came home. Went straight to the bar after and passed out in her car in the parking lot. Since i was up so late last night I slept through my alarm this morning and was an hour late for work...I'm never late. I want to talk to her today and tell her she either has to go or I do, I will not let her actions screw with my life any longer. Today I'm going to Rohdas funeral so I guess my talk with her will be put off another day.

My 16 hour day turned into a 15 hour day, with only a 30 minute lunch taken around quarter after 10am...and I'M OUT! Need a shower and some R&R...also a vacation would be nice, just sayin. Rohdas son came into work today, it was nice to see him but sad as well. The viewing is Friday and funeral is Saturday. The only request from her was that no one where's black...she wants bright colors and loud prints. Apparently there is a picture of her son and i up on some board. Him in a santa suit and me in an elf costume...she dressed as Ms. Clause that year.