a few other piercings
a few tattoos
a few drinks
lots of sleep
older than i look
younger than i feel
i am normally a pretty quiet person and i live a very quiet life...work, eat and sleep.
i drive heavy machinery almost every day and do it better than the men i work with...for 4'10.5" that says a lot. i work as much as i possibly can and love my job.
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7/25/2012 | 2 comments
Been feeling a little ill the past few days with some dizzy spells and now just a weakness throughout my entire body with a sore chest and lungs. Yuck. I don't get sick much but when i do its usually bronchitis or pneumonia, really hope that's not what this is :( yesterday was a week sober for my sister, shes doing so well, even filled out some applications for a new job. I couldn't be more proud of her. As for me both jobs are going well and life is good <3
7/21/2012 | 1 comments
What a week.....things just keep getting better, well sort of. My sister had another really bad night a few nights ago and came after me.....she hit me once and had to be pulled off me. Drunk again and extremely depressed. I was just going to move out and say fuck it but after talking to my best friend and mom about it I have decided to stay. We had an intervention and confronted her about her alcoholism. For the first time in over 8 years she admitted to having a problem when she was sober. Progress. It has been 3 days since she had a drink. So like I said things just keep getting better. 19 days and I'll be in his arms again <3
7/17/2012 | 3 comments
just returned home from my chicago trip and the best week of my life<3
july 14th, 2 days before the 1 year anniversary of my dads death. he was the one person who knew EVERYTHING about me and never judged. the only person who excepted me the way i am and never tried to change the way i live
...my first suspension(in honor of him) was amazing...although i have to admit, i got a little light headed twice.
after the second dizzy spell came over me i started to talk to my dad in my head, as though he could hear me. the dizziness stopped and this feeling of release came over me....like a weight was lifted, i have never felt that amount of pure weightlessness emotionally or physically...
i know he was watching from where ever the hell he is and i also know hes still proud of his tattooed little girl for living her life instead of letting life pass her by.
to top it off, i was able to share the whole experience with someone i care for deeply. if it wasn't for him none of this would have happened. i can't even put into words the feelings i have knowing he is there to share that part of my life with.
7/14/2012 | 3 comments
left for chicago a night early, glad i did too. honestly, i havent been this happy since my dad was alive and im already dreading the day i have to leave. tonight is my first suspension and im still not as nervous as i thought i would be. <3 he will be there and im sure thats the only reason why. smerky is amazing!