I'm really lucky to have someone in my life who makes me happy and with everything that's going on in my family having him here is just what I need to make it through. I don't want this to end and definitely don't want him to leave.

so things this week didn't turn out the way i had planned.  an illness in the family and fearing the worst kept me from going back to chicago with smerk...

i feel pretty bad that his stay here hasn't been more exciting but at the same time i am so glad he decided to stay with me through all this.

today i went to visit my grams since she was released from one hospital and well enough to have visitors.....she should be on her way to the cleveland clinic in ohio for the first of many procedures tomorrow, an aortic aneurysm.  trying to stay positive and hope for the best but today was told to prepare for the worst.  again, i am so happy to have him here to keep me laughing and keep a smile on my face.

TWO DAYS!

It was to good to be true.....well sort of. My sister started drinking again.....3 days in a row so yesterday was her first day sober again.....still proud of her for going as long as she did though. Anyway, I'm making some progress with my lobes and hopefully at the end of the week will be able to get the new plugs in :) and even better news.....in a week he will be here <3

ordered new/larger plugs a few days ago and recieved them yesterday...sadly they are a bit too large for my lobes and i don't have anything to help with the stretching process :(  i tried to get them in while in the shower today but had no luck. 

just before my shower i was watching some random old lady dressed in all purple picking leaves off the grape vines in my backyard.....weird.  i tried to talk to her and she didnt speak english, haha......don't know where she came from or where she walked off to....all in all it's been a strange morning.