i could get used to this...having him around has made everthing seem not so bad.

i started looking for a place to live(hoping it will be with him)... had a long talk with my sister and we came to a decision together and, well, she doesn't want to change the way she lives and i want to move on with my life.

a few days ago my left eye started to twich again, don't know if it's from stress or lack of sleep, either way it sucks and is begining to get annoying.  off to bed now, have to be up in a few hours for work....good night.

I'm really lucky to have someone in my life who makes me happy and with everything that's going on in my family having him here is just what I need to make it through. I don't want this to end and definitely don't want him to leave.

so things this week didn't turn out the way i had planned.  an illness in the family and fearing the worst kept me from going back to chicago with smerk...

i feel pretty bad that his stay here hasn't been more exciting but at the same time i am so glad he decided to stay with me through all this.

today i went to visit my grams since she was released from one hospital and well enough to have visitors.....she should be on her way to the cleveland clinic in ohio for the first of many procedures tomorrow, an aortic aneurysm.  trying to stay positive and hope for the best but today was told to prepare for the worst.  again, i am so happy to have him here to keep me laughing and keep a smile on my face.

TWO DAYS!

It was to good to be true.....well sort of. My sister started drinking again.....3 days in a row so yesterday was her first day sober again.....still proud of her for going as long as she did though. Anyway, I'm making some progress with my lobes and hopefully at the end of the week will be able to get the new plugs in :) and even better news.....in a week he will be here <3