always the same
1/2 inch lobes
Great minds discuss ideas
Average minds discuss events
Small minds discuss people
- Eleanor Roosevelt
7/6/2012 | 0 comments
the demon seems to be lashing out randomly at anything that moves. . .
and i think my own death shield is comfortably settling in to be a pretty good fit
yay for airbending !
7/1/2012 | 0 comments
yeah- same old loop
and what i was hoping for, what i was counting on- seems to have been an idea that never quite took
breathing is essential at this point
god forbid i step out of the loop and just start digging my way to sunlight
fear can be overwhelming
what some people just do
another might see as digging her way to sunlight from 100 ft below
god help me get through the day
life is too precious to waste on anxiety
and u know- fighting the external demon has been hard
accepting that he really is still tripping me up after this many years is heartbreaking to a light weight like me but-
after 2yrs of soul searching on the edge of all things-
god grant me the serenity to accept what i cant change
the will and the strength and the vision to change the things i can
and grant me peace of mind along with all of this insight so i can see clearly enough to just live
my life on the planet's terms . . .
solomon was supposed to be a smart guy- maybe the book of wisdom has something to say
i just googled it- evidently i forgot that its a collection of books from the old testament-
solomon it is :)
and breathing 2. . .3. . 4
6/15/2012 | 0 comments
so- the boy is going to california on business for a week.
and i've learned to breathe thru the missing- with this one who lives so close but we still doin the once or twice a week thing
but- it feels different now
he's gonna be so far away
two years in and it feels like we just starting
all the time
dont know what will come but i gotta stop focusing on whats not here
burns too much energy and im tired of wasting my mind on bullshit
life is but a moment. got to enjoy whatever comes my way
6/11/2012 | 0 comments
everything is changing right before my eyes. and although i can see it & all its perfection- i cant seem to get out of my own way
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