always the same
inked- back ribs ankle wrist
pierced- 1/2" lobes, vch
11/30/2004 | 4 comments
so- i managed 4 hours sleep and today- some things will just
have to wait-
so what will i accomplish today? maybe just a few of the basics
& some of the more important things-
it is time for a list- yep- a good one- the kind that includes
things like-wash kitchen floor, make appointment with attorney,
find folder for work, mammogram, transfer money into private account, clean out computer closet (again)... buy more panties
yep- just the essentials today-
11/27/2004 | 1 comments
today- i am drifting
today- i don't care
today- i am not strong enough
today- i am lost
you are gone
11/25/2004 | 2 comments
paint me a picture
cut through the dark-
i can feel with your words
i can see with your heart-
show me the water-
speak of its tide-
look to the ocean
tell me what you see
strength and beauty...
set me free-
11/4/2004 | 0 comments
so let's see- started the new job- very cool- was 'deployed' to team evaluate a client- yep- involuntary psychiatric commitment-
the women i worked with was very good- genuine- professional-
AND she knows her shit- i'm pretty impressed with the whole program actually- definitely team work from the top down- valued professionals on all levels- and most every crisis worker seems... attractive to me in one way or another. Skilled- focused- wild- edgy- whatever-
so- i will stay on at the shelter for a few more weeks & continue to sub when my schedule works- time to move this thing along u know-
10/28/2004 | 0 comments
so- the new job is decent- but iam ever resistant- i want what i what- and right now- i can't have the job i want anymore-
so- it's kind of sad for me- but- i just have to accept it- my new job will be just that a job- but i can do it well- make cash & even enjoy it-
but- this job- will not be part of who iam- it is not my passion- it is not where i want to be-
i never thought i'd leave the shelter like this- but- i know i have to & i know that i'm not selling out either (as i sit here and cry)
because- the choices that i discuss with the shelter residents- the things they cry about- the struggles they go thru- to be free- well- these are my struggles as well-
and i will take my freedom- i have already taken it- but only now i accept that it really does come at a cost-
oh well- it's all worth it- but- the shelter has always been one of my greatest passions-
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