always the same
inked- back ribs ankle wrist
pierced- 1/2" lobes, vch
7/17/2005 | 4 comments
so... i'm never sleeping in my bedroom again-
what else can i say-
7/16/2005 | 2 comments
hm- everything seems so strange to me right now- the little one is moaning from his bed... something about putting him to sleep like i 'used to on E** Street'. and here i sit in my new place, with my overheated dog, a possessed ceiling fan that does little more than threaten to fly off it's hardware and then stop... and there's the great air conditioner that is too heavy for me to even consider getting to the window.
the demonic ants seems to have come back to the kitchen TENfold. i thought perhaps that i was leaving a bit of food around but... it seemed too extreme for such little crumbs AND they kind of seemed frantic if not delirious. then i thought, hm- 'i did spray the organic stuff outside of that wall yesterday, where there was aLOT of activity... is it possible they we're just headin' for the hills? and how DOES one get such demons to change their course and go drown in a lake? such questions- such troubles- such choices.
oh well- 'i've made these choices, this is what i prefer & this is what i have to do,' i thought to myself as i mowed (second time ever) the lumpy crab grass tonite.
but i think i'm just feeling discouraged and hot!
i spoke to the director at the shelter today and the openings are a few months off, one seems really up in the air, and i can't hang on for something that might not even materialize. and the other, well, i don't think i'm prepared for the position-
well- i let her know that i'm very interested in being part of the full-time staff and to let me know if anything comes up-
she assured me that I am someone she'd consider & i actually believe her-
hm- i think he really fell asleep- 3 nights and counting. now if he'd sleep the night and wake up in HIS bed, we'd be in good shape.
7/15/2005 | 11 comments
most tender kisses
and back again
revealed to one-
a heart so pure
from the darkness came
these scattered dreams
come forward at night-
embraced by his love
her soul takes flight...
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