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Great minds discuss ideas
Average minds discuss events
Small minds discuss people
- Eleanor Roosevelt
8/2/2005 | 5 comments
there is so much sadness in the world-
people are... so disappointed, disenchanted, so wounded-
and i am no different. i struggle from day to day, inside and out. i have been hurt in my life, less than many, more than some. but what is it about people, and our experiences that defines us? why is it that some of us crave calmness, and peace while others seem to be quite comfortable cutting through this life, bit by bit.
i suppose that some, have just resigned themselves to the fact that life is what it is. this is where we live, this is what we believe, this is how we deal with those who are different from us. but, you know, it seems to me, that a lot of people are just unhappy and they don't even know it. i see their faces. i hear them speak to their spouses, their children, strangers.
well, i want more. i always have, and i intend to have it. i intend to have it all- sobriety, sanity, calmness, and genuine happiness inside of myself and peace with the people i have the opportunity to deal with on (most) any given day.
yeah- now who wants to come?
7/31/2005 | 2 comments
well- i'm still in the hospital- strange chain of events u know-
p> a bit of confusion- chaos- some cathartic work- exhaustion- infection-
and then it began- dealing with it on my own- the ER doctor & home again untreated- the fever- the surgeon- and now here- 5 days now?
hm- strange, strange timing- all of it-
she's still waiting to hear about the rain u know-
the sea cleanses, but the rain... the rain refreshes-
7/30/2005 | 11 comments
off of Maz's page-
Reply with your name and I'll tell you something I adore about you. Afterwards, copy and paste this into your own journal
7/29/2005 | 2 comments
take me into darkness
a child cries alone-
guide me through her shadows-
remains of the unknown-
listen through the silence
she calls to me again-
turn my eyes upon her
bear witness to her pain-
lift her from the ashes
and climb to higher ground-
leave the past behind us
she's all that will be found-
rest with us by the moonlight
bathe her wounds in the sea-
kiss her with the breath of life
set her spirit free...
7/28/2005 | 0 comments
well, the full moon has passed, and i too am growing weary-
my sweetie's flying up tomorrow night, but i'm already disappointed that he'll be leaving on Sunday nite.
he'll be back in 3 weeks, but... after our last visit, 9 days long in my new place, i just hate to let him go.
it's always been bad, taking him back to the airport and letting him go... but it's different now. i've gotten the hang of the LDR thing, well, as much a hang of it as I'M ever gonna get, but now, it's like i'm in our place and he's just not here... yet.
oh well- my throat hurts and i shud get some rest. i'm sure i'll be excited again in the morning, or in a few minutes! u just never know. damn, this has been the most emotionally high, amazing year of my life-
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