always the same
inked- back ribs ankle wrist
pierced- 1/2" lobes, vch
8/7/2005 | 6 comments
so- my sweetie's birthday is on Monday and i don't even get to give him proper birthday kisses since we're, oh... i don't know- lots of states apart-
i would have liked to have gotten him some real kind of birthday gift, but nothing came to mind & we're just not doing the standard obligation thing, what- i shud just mail him a sweater? i don't think so-
but if he was here this weekend... i think i would take him out for the oh-so-typical birthday dinner. i know, so common- but i just think it would be so much fun with him. i'd even make them put a candle in his dessert.
maybe i'm just wanting so much to have him here to enjoy the things that people tend to take for granted. oh well- our LDR is coming to an end soon enough, soon enough.
8/5/2005 | 6 comments
so- he's back in Louisiana... again-
and the visit? well, with all of the crap i have going on right now- there were some ups & downs- but i only remember the high points-
the beach...the ocean...the moon...the Japanese restaurant...cooking together... hustle and flow (i LOVE that movie!)...having him do my bandages everyday (ouch!)...the image in the mirror... and the oh-so-brief return of my sweet red thong~
8/2/2005 | 5 comments
there is so much sadness in the world-
people are... so disappointed, disenchanted, so wounded-
and i am no different. i struggle from day to day, inside and out. i have been hurt in my life, less than many, more than some. but what is it about people, and our experiences that defines us? why is it that some of us crave calmness, and peace while others seem to be quite comfortable cutting through this life, bit by bit.
i suppose that some, have just resigned themselves to the fact that life is what it is. this is where we live, this is what we believe, this is how we deal with those who are different from us. but, you know, it seems to me, that a lot of people are just unhappy and they don't even know it. i see their faces. i hear them speak to their spouses, their children, strangers.
well, i want more. i always have, and i intend to have it. i intend to have it all- sobriety, sanity, calmness, and genuine happiness inside of myself and peace with the people i have the opportunity to deal with on (most) any given day.
yeah- now who wants to come?
7/31/2005 | 2 comments
well- i'm still in the hospital- strange chain of events u know-
p> a bit of confusion- chaos- some cathartic work- exhaustion- infection-
and then it began- dealing with it on my own- the ER doctor & home again untreated- the fever- the surgeon- and now here- 5 days now?
hm- strange, strange timing- all of it-
she's still waiting to hear about the rain u know-
the sea cleanses, but the rain... the rain refreshes-
7/30/2005 | 11 comments
off of Maz's page-
Reply with your name and I'll tell you something I adore about you. Afterwards, copy and paste this into your own journal
The following people signed this petition:
"( I wish I could take a shower right now.)"
northern lights "(for inner peace....and lots of chocolate!)"
MeShell "(for joy)"
bodybuilderef "(I was indenpendently wealthy)"
prettypinkkitty007 "(my student loans were paid off.)"
ubuntu "(my teeth were fixed)"
Curt "(you great happiness!)"
.caitlin. "(I didn't have to worry about money)"
ShaggyDope "(i wish i was on a freight train.)"
-Matt- "(..I never had to work, and that noone would ever get sick anymore)"
rayneofsorrow "(I Could be at peace in my head)"
VEAL "(Where did I end up? lol)"
sane "(, i wish i wish i'd never eatin' that fish)"
mountainmansamiam "(I would have had a soul mate, but my number was never drawn)"
sweetcheeks "(For piece of mind, that's all I want.)"
death kisses "( )"
visiblydistorted "(that our grandchildrens' grandchildren won't be corporate slaves)"
BadlyDrawnGirl "(that i could shower ALONE, i have 2 kids. )"
paulo4127 "(I wish I could time travel)"
chemically_lobotomized "(perfect health, smaller boobies, HAWT boyfriend with a big wang!)"
shalla_bal "(I wish for one more day with Gary)"
cirrin "(for peace, inner as well as world)"
catalaioch "(I knew what to wish for. . .)"
Guilt of Eve "(I could breathe under water!)"
charlie_ihsan "(For my Dad's cancer to go away. )"
vizante "(... to play piercing right now )"
The Rainbow Panda "(That every guy was at least Bi. lol)"
HEDGEHOG51 "(I could be content with what I have)"
Lethalgirl "(for respect, love, honor, passion, commitment, learning)"
xJAXONx "( )"
Modster "(For a content life)"
nopek "(for guidance and acceptance)"
Plaid "(i was an oscar meyer weiner. that is what i truely wish to be...)"
thepiercedbird "(for a tuna sammich)"
vmaxgirl "(to love like I have never been hurt before)"
GnomeChomsky "(for my work to be miraculously closed tomorrow)"
DejaMoon "(to just let go. )"
fluffykins "(i could leave )"
Sugar "(for permanent remission from lupus!)"
MizzGrell "(To win the Super 7 so I'll get all that money and help people)"
urban.herbalist "(I had ten fingers.)"
Saline the Salt Cake Queen "(you lived closer and under a rainbow)"
Dawnie "( )"
i say death "(i could just give up and sleep forever)"
Jim "(I had more time)"
Mariposa "(Things would have worked out differently...)"
Miseraya Companya "(To be healthy, mentally and physically.)"
Jol "(I didnt have to always worry)"
Rawiri "(love for everyone)"
Hell on Wheels "(for only the best for the people i care about)"
Jae "(travel was faster and easier)"
CausticTwin "(inner peace as well as being financially able to not work. )"
aack "(I was back home)"
Starr "(i wish i could really fly high above it all...just like in my dreams-)"
darthlaurian "(I could be with my love)"
Eclipsed "(this was easier..)"
Chadgrisly "(I hope you enjoyed passing through. Visit our souvenir shop....)"
Amadahy "(winter will be over quickly)"
kleptesvirgo "( )"
())crayon))> "(I had someone to cuddle)"
You.Are.Beautiful. "(happiness, well-being, peace, and harmony for everyone.)"
EziliGede "(to keep it together and raise my sons well)"
Morning_Star "(Dreams that come true.....)"
helena "(Eternal vacation!)"
HeadlessLego "(Upon a starr...)"
Granger "(for peace, happiness and enough money to get more tattoos)"
YoungMom "(For health and happiness for my friends and family)"
Madsteel "(i could look like before pregnancy...)"
Deeeluxxx "( )"
Celticgent "(happiness to everyone.)"
rebekahsXrevenge "(that we could all see the beauty of life without having to suffer)"
Kalinkina "( )"
lost and found "(to be at peace)"
Alledria "(it would continue raining so I have an excuse to stay in)"
blackandblue "( )"
Sean_P "(Early retirement!)"
dazedeagle "(...oh how I wish.)"
Zobot "(I was a baller!)"
EvenFlow "(My vacation started today)"
3mmy "(i had some monnnnney)"
Caroline452 "(The world wasn't so quick to judge me by my appearence)"
Shaman "(To learn to live with remembering.)"
Veasy "(I can go Home some day. )"
Nikkimodifiedbeauty92 "(That more people could see me for the girl I am and that everyone could accept each other without judgment )"