"I have come too far, and I cannot return..."


Last updated on March 14, 2011 February 5, 2016 March 1, 2019



I am:

  • 32 years old 37 years old 40 years old
  • Looking at BME pages since the BME/WORLD started.
  • Member of IAM since August, 2002
  • Former maker of body jewelery.
  • I have lived in the Wizard's Tower... (In fact, it's "mine") A funky apartment in Kensington Market, in a building covered in psychedelic paintings, I've been there for 5 years as of April 1st. 2011 Now live in my dead grandparent's derelict and disintegrating house since end of May, 2011
  • I live with a girl named Gilly-Bean, a busker named Jamie who is about to move out, my long term girlfriend/fiancée (see below) and my two four kitties Aurynn Pants Magnificence (a magnificent tabby) and the Golden-eyed Commander of Wishes ("Goldie") (a gold, white and black calico) AND NOW Rudy (a grey tortie) and Norman (a beautiful sealpoint himalayan)
  • After about a decade of polyamory and womanizing I am in a single recent (1.5 months) long term (5 years as of tomorrow) (8+ years) awesome(sauce) relationship, with DJ Perple Doorknob Broomstick AKA City Center. 
  • Now recovering from a major depressive episode that lasted since late 2009/early 2010. still struggle with depression and anxiety sometimes but doing pretty ok in the grand scheme of things as of 2016. rarely suffer from serious depression or anxiety anymore.
  • I make art-objects, art installations, sacred spaces, and sometimes paint or draw (badly). Sometimes I make electronic music or mixes. I throw raves and volunteer at parties and festivals. Frankly these days I mostly work, drink beer, embroider, paint, play video games, do gardening and the occasional nature walks and sometimes cook a fancy meal for the ol' lady. I am a member of the local NDP so actually have to volunteer to do political crap. This is a lot more occupying during campaign season.
  • I have a propensity for breaking into impromptu dances and/or improvised song (this has still not changed as of 2016 2019)
  •  Can't wait for 2020 so I can compare the state of the world to the old RPG Cyberpunk 2020



    100 percent all-canadian beefcake! Who do you think of when you mastrubate? K-HOLE


This is my own private domicile and I will not be harrassed... Bitch!
3/17/2019 | 0 comments

Yes so my eldest cat Aurynn has not been dealing so well with the pressures of challenges to his dominance as he ages, nor the being kept in with the other 4 cats much more often. He has been seeking refuge in my room where I normally exclude the other cats and keep the door closed these days. I had a water bowl for him there and later added a food dish and tonight I put in a private litter box. So now he has his own whole VIP zone.

Squatters kicked out and now can access my cat's Facebook pages
3/17/2019 | 0 comments

So I can now get into my cat's Facebook pages. I couldn't figure out what email addresses I used but apparently that doesn't matter as I was able to log in by name alone... and discovered that I had a couple email addresses I had completely forgotten about.


So the other day I went in to the steelworks and that tent behind the berm in the lot attached to the disused warehouse was still standing. When I left I found that the tent had been stuffed with the campsite items and dragged out to the street without disassembly. When I returned the following day it was open and it looks like someone had rummaged through the stuff. A lot of the tent people here seem like fucking dicks but it sucks for anyone and it was indeed full of child sized female clothing. I wish the property owners had left a note or something asking for them to leave or find a shelter for them or suggest other places they could camp. 

No Title
3/16/2019 | 1 comments

The front page says there are 550195 profiles, this must be an all-time number, with plenty of them made by spam bots. But there are only 1720 profiles available to view.


Some of which are also bots.

3/15/2019 | 1 comments

Just a couple notes for today: It is, of course, the 6th anniversary of bme founder IAM:glider (Shannon Larratt)'s death. Or at least the announcement of his death. He was almost 39.5 years old at the time. About a year younger than I am now. He committed suicide after a long battle vs. a painful and degenerative muscle disease.

Further, as of 6 PM Eastern time it will be exactly a fortnight to the Brexit moment... barring a now much-talked about extension of the Article 50 process. Also leading the news today a Trump-praising, Australian white supremacist used Facebook to livestream an attack on two mosques in Christchurch, New Zealand. Portions of this video as well as his manifesto have been widely circulated. A far-right Australian Senator who has a proud family heritage of hunting black people has blamed the mosque attendees for following Islam.

Pi Day Friday Not Until 2025
3/15/2019 | 0 comments

Yes so clearly yesterday was π Day and I continued in my tradition of not actually giving myself an opportunity to eat pie and then feeling bad about not eating pie on π day.


I feel ok today, except my elbows hurt. I can't wait for the weekend. I wish I had ketamine it helps with stiff joints so much. I have syringes for Norman's insulin so I could do it IM to avoid halos at work. As it is I'm stuck with tylenol 1 for during and cannabis for after work.


It's officially time for me to start on gardening but I don't have much energy... And my list of things that have a theoretically higher priority is long.

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