2/28/2014 | 0 comments | offline
Tags: reflection

I landed myself the work experience role. Luckily I managed to negotiate the schedule around my course. Phew, just phew.

I'll be volunteering in a Job Centre. I cannot help but laugh at the idea I cannot get a job but I'll be helping people look for work. Unfortunately it will not help with my money problems but I'm hoping that I may build up some camaraderie with my colleagues and they may be more gentler with me when it's time for me to sign on.

My last assignment was a ranting mess. I feel embarrassed. My teacher said my ideas were refreshing but I didn't answer the question. I know that. I had a load of technical questions that I didn't ask. Pffft.

I got married at the end of February six years ago.

Tonight is all about silly songs.

2/23/2014 | 2 comments | offline
Tags: reflection

I'm good at finding things by chance. I've got the knack when it comes to loopholes. I probably should be a SEO or something like that.

I got another university offer. I had my interview and I loved it. By the time I walked home my interviewer had sent me an email confirming I have a conditional offer. For some reason that offer is not appearing under my university profile. Of course, this is probably due to my applying indirectly. So yay for using my initiative and boo for difficulties arising from not using proper channels.  Geez.

I went to my favourite social club today. A few people I knew just happened to be there and wanted to play Scrabble. I like Scrabble but I have only played it about ten times because I don't have any close friends or family who'll play with me. I never win. But today I managed not to come last after suddenly beginning to understand strategy is better than vocabulary. I'm sure there's some symbolism in that, but I'm too tired to think.

2/20/2014 | 0 comments | offline
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Did I tell you I am a mystery shopper? Well I completed my first assignment today. £10 per assignment though I doubt it's a job that'll give you that many assignments.

I also went back to the Job Centre and the advisor recommended work experience for me. I'm happy to do work experience as my jobseekers allowance should cover my overheads. However, the work experience is fulltime. I did ask how am I supposed to spend thirty-five hours a week looking for jobs if I spend thirty-five hours a week doing working experience (work experience is shorthand for unpaid labour FYI) and I was told I am suppose to look for work around my volunteering. Bear in mind the Job Centre thinks my eleven hours a week course will get in the way of my job search, they think my thirty-five hours a week work placement will not get in the way of my job search.

I'm looking forward to going back to college next week because I'm hoping I'll be able to speak to my teacher about completing early (or at least I can ask her to countersign my grant applications).

On the bright side my advisor today was a total gem. She was supportive and understanding. And she explained things. I noticed she was wearing a PCS lanyard too. Which probably explains why she speaks to claimants like they're human. (Yes I will be spouting my pro-union propaganda here... deal with it).

Here's Moriarty again.

2/19/2014 | 2 comments | offline
Tags: reflection

So I've finally gathered all my paperwork to submit my claim for jobseekers allowance. Whether it'll be approved or not is another thing.

I was up all night crying and worrying about it. I do not know how I am supposed to spend thirty-five hours a week searching and applying for jobs yet still keep on top of my coursework. Though, I suppose that really doesn't matter to anyone except me.

I've got a university interview in a couple of hours. I'm confident I'll be offered a place on this degree but I'm in a bit of bad mood. It's hard not to get angry sometimes.

2/17/2014 | 1 comments | offline
Tags: reflection

I could easily write a new blog about all the contradictory information I get from Job Centre advisors and then how they talk to me like it's my fault I don't have the relevant documents that day. After the dispute about the hours of my course (see entry below) where my previous advisor told me the guided learning hours I provided were insufficient the advisor today asked why I didn't have proof of the guided learning hours with me. I told her the previous advisor said she just wanted the part of my college agreement that states the course is part-time. The advisor I saw today replied with there's a note which says you are fully aware that you need to bring in confirmation of your GLH today. I even had a piece of paper with me where the previous advisor wrote that I need to send a confirmation letter to a different department in the midlands.

I had all sorts of trouble with my student loan company. They had been sending confidential mail to an address I had five years ago, despite me calling twice to change my details. I called them three times today and each time they told me to print out the information I need from my online account (I couldn't).

I've just had loads of experience lately of people mishandling my information. I'd rather not deal with any of this. The Job Centre now want me to grant them access to my universal jobmatch account so they can check I'm not lying in my job log. I know they won't believe me because most of their jobs are advertised through third parties so they have no way to track me. And I feel uncomfortable giving them access to my account. I know they will bring it up in my meeting on Wednesday. I know I am within my rights not to grant them access. I just don't know if I am able to tell them no! If they start being condescending again about my not cooperating I think I might just crumble.

I actually envied the drunk man I was sitting in the waiting area with today. I would've liked to bubble of alcohol to protect me from that experience.

I went to my local social centre as they have a benfits/welfare drop-in. OMG. It was brilliant. The volunteer had a tonne of advice for me and was so kind that I felt like crying. It's a sad state of affairs when kindness feels so alien to you that it makes your heart ache. She gave me a list of grant companies who might be able to help me finish my course. Applying for the grant is pretty long-winded and complicated but the volunteer (I wish i got her name because I feel like she should get more praise!) said she'd contersign or vouch for me.

I'm going to get started on applying for grants tomorrow. It's going to be a busy day. Most of them require a personal statement. But by now personal statements are second-nature to me.


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